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chaeunnie-deactivated20151008

What’s wrong?

I’d tell you but then I’d have to kill you.

Judah… It sounds like you’re at the point where you need to stop or you will be addicted, if you’re not already. He’s trying to help and protect you, yeah? He’s not a bad guy in all of this.

fkinjudah

This is why getting into a relationship was a bad idea. I knew I should’ve taken things more slowly. I knew I shouldn’t have done this-- I-- I have to break up with him.

anderstho

If you’re not addicted, then you don’t need it. [he raised his brow, looking over the other] Try a different drug? Like weed or ecstasy? It’ll take your mind off it and I mean, he can’t be mad at you for doing small-time drugs like that, right?

fkinjudah

Dorian will be mad at me for doing any kind of drugs. [he grumbled] I don’t wanna do weed or ecstasy, I wanna fucking shoot up.

fkinjudah

Not particularly. He said if I didn’t stop, he’d start. Yeah… It’s fucking torture. I ran out two days ago and haven’t gotten any since and I need to shoot up. Like, it’s how I unwind.

anderstho

I thought you said you weren’t addicted, Judah… [he looks over the other with a soft sigh] Find another way to unwind? Have sex instead of shooting up or go for a run or a swim or something like that.

fkinjudah

I'm not. [he buries his face in his hands] Dorian and I haven't had sex yet and I dont want to run or swim. That shit isn't fun.

unihq-deactivated20210323

fkinjudah:

Well it sucks. People who you’re in a relationship with want you to do things you’re not comfortable with, they want you to make drastic life decisions and fucking… do shit. That you don’t… want to do… Because they think you’re not fine but you really are. You’re fucking fine. I’m fine.

Alright, I’m pretty sure that I know what’s going on, but I don’t want to assume, so can you please tell me? I’ll try to stay as unbiased as possible. You really don’t seem fine.

fkinjudah

Dorian asked me to stop shooting up-- even said if I didn't then he'd start using. Thing is I was fine. We were fine. Until he found out. Like, I was cool, everything was okay, but then he started worrying and fucking... Ugh. I hate relationships for this exact reason.

charliexscoops

"I-I-I…okay…I-I just d-didn’t…um…I w-wanted to k-know if you needed h-help…"

fkinjudah

"I'm fine. I'm... You know... Actually... I don't know what I am but I know I'm losing my fucking mind."

unihq-deactivated20210323

Hm, well, I’m definitely not going to agree with that aaand you probably shouldn’t say that to me considering the fact that you’re dating my brother.

fkinjudah

Well it sucks. People who you're in a relationship with want you to do things you're not comfortable with, they want you to make drastic life decisions and fucking... do shit. That you don't... want to do... Because they think you're not fine but you really are. You're fucking fine. I'm fine.

charliexscoops

"T-That um…that…doesnt sound too um…convincing…"

fkinjudah

"It doesn't have to be, considering I don't know you."

anderstho

I’m not surprised at that though, are you? [he sighs] Are you trying to stop?

fkinjudah

Not particularly. He said if I didn't stop, he'd start. Yeah... It's fucking torture. I ran out two days ago and haven't gotten any since and I need to shoot up. Like, it's how I unwind.