I haven't been on here in a long time, and I doubt you ever go on my profile, but a lot of time has passed and I still think about you every single day, I still think about what I did to you every single day. I want to put my demons on display for people to see, I've been a cheater, a womanizer, and an egotistical asshole to both people I care about and women I've pretended to be interested in just to have sex with them. I'm not proud of myself, I'm doing this so I can be better, I knew I had a problem a long time ago but I never embraced it as a problem until our relationship ended. I've been trying to get the proper help everyday and I still have so much work to do before I even feel like I can have a healthy relationship again, platonic or not. I've isolated myself from everyone and everything I know because I'm afraid to hurt more people, I don't want to be remembered as someone who was a piece of shit and a compulsive liar with a know-it-all complex. I miss you every single day. You probably think that I don't but god damn, I just wanna be able to talk to you again, I wanna tell you all my memories of you, and I want to know how your day is going. There's still so much, and I'm a fool, and I don't deserve for you to read this, but I really hope you do. I will be a better man. I expect to be ridiculed and not trusted until my character reflects upon which I am saying.
