HI ! welcome to my blog ! my enji is extremely private as i’m only really comfortable writing him with people i know well enough , but you’re more than welcome to follow / read the threads and headcanons ! have fun reading through these ( friendly reminder that my enji is CANON DIVERGENT , which means i don't totally go with the canon lore . my enji has been trying to change for 2 years time in canon , and what happened in the sports festival didn't happen ; but you can find more about it under the read more and on his carrd ) ! ! !
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and now , a little disclaimer :
i DO NOT agree with what enji did AT ALL , i condemn it really . he fucked up , and i’m sure we are all aware of so . he might have not meant it , but it still happened and it still heavily affected those around him ( even if he is trying to get better , one can’t and shouldn’t ignore the clear signs of abuse to which his family went through , mental and physical ) .
however , i can enjoy the way his character evolved from an utter asshole to someone i can even find myself in on some parts . to me , it’s clear that not even horikoshi knew what he wanted to do with him in the beginning , and you know , that’s alright by me : it’s his story and creation ( to which i believe some people sometimes forget , but i won’t be getting into it in this post ) , and you don’t have to know everything in detail right away . i can enjoy the fact that enji is wanting to change and working towards that change , and that isn’t forcing anyone to be okay with it / forgive him / etc . in my opinion , it wouldn’t be a genuine change if he did force it upon others , to which it doesn’t seem to be the case with his character .
i don’t consider his arc a redemption arc : mostly because he isn’t asking for redemption , which i can appreciate --- he is just trying to be better , and i enjoy thoroughly that he accepted that yes , he fucked up big .
i’ll continue to enjoy his character development , but before i go i must say that my enji is slightly canon divergent : basically all that happened in canon is part of my canon , what changes is the fact that enji has been trying to change for 2 years canon time ( that’s when he started to send rei her flowers ) , and that what happened in the festival arc didn’t happen ( because again , i can see that horikoshi back then didn’t know what to do with him yet , and he has changed a lot later on ; something i believe people are still stuck on because at the end of the day , it was canon what happened ) . i also gave him a bit of backstory , but that’s about it to be honest .
i am okay with speaking about the things that happened in the past , i’ll even write headcanon posts about those times if i see fit ( to which i already did ) , however i am not comfortable with writing those times ( as a victim of abuse myself , it doesn’t sit right with me , and this is for my own comfort on the subject ) .
for enji , i try and stay with canon the most , since i genuinely believe that horikoshi is doing a wonderful job portraying him , however i’ll budge slightly as to fit with people’s canon ( that involves plotting , though ) . to which i shall mention : this means that while i’m more than okay with the famous good brother touya au and am okay with writing with those who go with it in their portrayal , i would appreciate that it’s not shoved down my throat as the only canon that is valid . because while i feel immensely bad for touya , i do not feel that same remorse towards dabi .
all of this to say that this is my opinion on the matter , and if you’re not okay with it you’re more than welcome to block this sideblog . but if you did read through all of this , i thank you for it ! and i hope that we can write together some time ( obviously if we are mutuals ) .
show me your face ,
show me a reason to think ;
my soul can be saved if i sell you my sins .
i’m going blind , but one thing’s clear :
death is the only salvation for me .
@takakuyaku : They fly by and smack him behind the head quickly.
HE HAD heard the sound of wings flapping through the air not too long before , coming in his direction with quite the speed , actually . but the hero had thought it had been hawks , as this wouldn't be the first time that he had appeared out of nowhere like this . all things considered , maybe it wasn't the brightest idea of his to think so , because the moment he felt a slap at the back of his head , he groaned .
ah — so it was the second option , uh ?
" - takayAMA ! " the number one hero doesn't take long to scream out , in fact it was seconds after the smack to his head that he shouted ; and just as quick , he is blasting after them , indulging in this stupid game of cat and mouse that the other redhead seemed to like .
anon : What would be (Main Verse) Enji's reaction to knowing his other self is now dating and living with Takumi?
mentioned : @takakuyaku .
WHEN THE number one hero opened his eyes , he was met initially with darkness only , which not even blinking a couple times more helped at all . yet the man knew he was standing , turning around to try and figure out what was happening , as his flames weren't lighting up at all . worry begins to show , but thankfully it doesn't take long for him to be able to see anything . although , what he was seeing didn't make any type of sense , at all .
a room , one filled to the brim with mirrors . eyebrow raises at the sight , the echo of his steps one heard throughout the room that extended before him , and behind him . what the hell was this ?
coming closer to one , he read the description below it ; which , truth be told , did not help in his confusion — if anything , it made him more and more confused at what was happening , although curious as well . who wouldn't be ? well , don't answer that , actually —
so he walks around , looking at the images shown on the mirrors ( as if doors to other universes , it seemed — what type of quirk he got hit with ? ) as they moved , as well as the words below them describing them . . . he can see ahead of him the door out of here , or he hopes ; and so he begins to walk in it's direction , ignoring his curiousity the best he could . that was , until a certain nickname he hadn't heard in years is said right next to him :
" jiji ~ ! "
head turns slowly , mismatched and tired eyes now locked on the mirror that was hang on the wall to his left . the sight isn't one he was waiting for , and he gulps slightly as he turned to face it better . his curiousity be damned — it would surely be his death , some day . and that day was perhaps sooner than he wished for it to be .
he sees himself in his living room , the man in basically every aspect . the same beard , the same scar — even the same decoration around the room as his home is . but it is not the same man at all , and enji knows that because of his eyes . . . he can tell he is tired , but not as much ; and the flame hero isn't sure of what to feel about that .
" what is it , takumi ? "
the moment he says that damned name , endeavor looks away as he closes his eyes : he hadn't heard that name in . . . years . almost two decades , he is sure . he turns to face the mirror once again extremely slowly , almost as if afraid . but if you were to mention such , he would deny with his whole heart . truthly , he was . . . enji felt sick to his stomach .
because watching someone who he for years tried to forget that they existed . . . right in front of this other self of his , smiling and laughing and happy . it reminds the hero of back when they were teenagers , and that brings the bitter taste of blood to his mouth as he holds back a cough of his now .
they looked happy , because of him . and he himself looked happy , as well ; even smiling at a stupid joke the other decides to tell him . and that broke him in ways he hadn't expected to be broken by before .
a sharp and loud gasp leaves him when the image in front of him falters , looking to the side only to see his hand had moved to touch the mirror , or what he previously thought as . he steps back quickly , hand holding his right side as he struggles to breath a little , and he has never moved out of a room as quickly as before . sadness surrounds him as he goes , almost running out of there at this point — but guilt wins over in the end .
enji's eyes open again , his breathing so irregular as he gets used to his surroundings again . his room , was this — was this just a dream ? it felt . . . too real . he sits down and runs a hand through his hair , the smell of something burning can be felt , but this isn't the first time this had happened . however it meant that he had to get yet another futon . . .
could he consider what just happened a dream ? or a nightmare ? nevertheless , it hurts to breath still . . . and he is sure it will continue to do so the more he thinks of it .
“YOU HAVE A HOUSE. A WHOLE FUCKING
HOUSE. WHY ARE WE DOING SHIT IN THE
DORMS YOU CHEAP MOTHERFUCKER!?!!!!
NEMURI WILL NEVER LET THIS GO DO YOU
UNDER-FUCKING-STAND TODOROKI!?!”
TURNS AROUND , and looks at them again . “ it’s not like i didn’t try that , but when someone starts to grind against me when i’m simply trying to rest , then that’s no longer only my fault - ”
