"One person's craziness is another's reality"

Hey! I'm Caitlin, 17, and I live in Texas. Currently, my icon is me yay. Here you will find some of my art and art I like, as well as personal shit I decide to dump here. Also, I'll probably post some aesthetic type things as well.  Just looking to relax, feel free to talk! I also have a fandom blog and you can message me if ya want that. Images not mine, unless I say so! quote from the amazing Tim Burton

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A painting I did for my art class! I used modeling paste for the white for a 3D effect, and a palette knife to shape it

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Another sketch

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Sketch dump!

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Pen and ink for a history project

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I must be made of mushrooms since I’m such a fungi

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shirts that get tight around the armpit

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My most recent art piece (still in progress). It's a chalk pastel drawing and I hate water. As always, critiques are welcome!

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Art project so far, I started on it for like 3 hours ago after work, but it still needs a lot of work. Drawn in Photoshop, and I'm happy with it so far. Critics are welcome! I love advice!

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digital painting done in photoshop! It's a character from an anime I'm obsessed with, and I think it's alright all things considered

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Some quick little pen and ink sketches I did the other day

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Got bored and had my art pen with me

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Hey guys, sorry I haven't been on lately. I haven't had my laptop this past week and I'm slowly spiraling into insanity cause of withdrawl

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Hey, go listen to warriors by imagine dragons go now

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Random art practice w my new pens

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Tag Game!

Tagged by agigglyleprechaun

Last beverage : Coke Zero 

Last phone call : my mother (shh, it's not pathetic) Last text: umm, my friend ryan talking about a disturbing selfie i took on his phone Last song you listened to: Claire De Lune by Debussy-the cello version Last time you cried: umm, let me think. I think it was like in january or something on the anniversary of my grandpa's death. that was a serious sad cry session. I don't count crying over fictional characters Dated someone twice: Has yet to occur, sadly Been cheated on: Not by anyone, since I'm forever alone atm Kissed someone & regretted it: *whispers* I haven't kissed anyone yet shh Lost someone special: My grandpa  Been depressed: all :) the :) time :') Been drunk and threw up: haven't had a taste of alcohol yet so no

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: Blue, purple (darker shades), and green (also darker shades)

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU
 Made a new friend: I have actually made friends. who knew  Fallen out of love: Not yet... still waiting. you have to fall in love to fall out Laughed until you cried: not as often as I would have liked, maybe once this year so far.  Met someone who changed you: not really. the internet changed me by making me realize feminism is a good thing, and helped me with my sexuality Found out who your true friends are: Yup  Found out someone was talking about you: Yup. Apparently my friend ryan had/has a habit of complaining about my behavior. Whatever. I'm fabulous Kissed anyone on your FB friend’s list: once again, not yet.

GENERAL


How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life: about half i think Do you have any pets: an idiotic yellow lab named jake Do you want to change your name: meh, i wouldn't be able to decide on a different name. maybe Annalise or Emma What did you do for your last birthday:  I went INDOOR SKYDIVING AND IT WAS TOTALLY AWESOME

What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping, surprisingly. 

Name something you CANNOT wait for: school to be over  Last time you saw your Mother: when i got home from school What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?: idk, i kinda like where i am now. I would like to be able to go back in time and slap my younger self What are you listening to right now: the warm hum of my laptop Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?: actually, I don't think i have... o.o What’s getting on your nerves right now: school, art, money for a tablet Most visited webpage: tumblr Blood type: unknown Nickname: some call me cat, or caitie, but I don't really have a nickname

Relationship Status: single and looking to mingle 

Zodiac sign: Sagittarius Hair color: naturally a medium brown, currently redish purlply Long or short: medium, i'm growing it out  Height: 5’4”  Do you have a crush on someone?: yes and it is killing me What do you like about yourself?: i'd actually like to opt out of this one. I'd like to think i like everything, but i actually dont like anything Tattoos: not yet Righty or lefty: righty First surgery: does filling a cavity count? cause that'd be it First best friend: a friend i had back when i lived in Las Vegas, NV. Don't talk anymore. First sport you joined: soccer First vacation: my parents took me to disneyworld when i was a baby First pair of trainers: ??? what is this asking ??? oh well  Eating: sour jelly beans yum Drinking: lots of coffee and soda Waiting for: life Want kids?: NO  Get Married?: if i find the right person Career?: forensic science! Lips or eyes: eyes for sure  Hugs or kisses: umm, both? Shorter or taller: taller for sure, but most people happen to be taller than me... Romantic or spontaneous: i guess a little of both. I'm actually not as spontaneous as i'd like to be and not as romantic either Nice stomach or nice arms: for a person i like, both. I like nice arms and stomach Sensitive or loud:  assuming this is about relationships still, i'd like a little of both but more towards the sensitive side i think Hook-up or relationship: whatever i feel like Trouble maker or hesitant: these are hard! I'd like someone that's a trouble maker more i think, but not someone who's idiotic


HAVE YOU EVER:
 Kissed a stranger: nope  Lost glasses/contacts: not yet *knocks on wood* Broke someone’s heart: surprisingly i have Had your own heart broken: not yet Have you been arrested: nope Turned someone down: yup. a friend of mine asked me to homecoming, but i didnt feel it for him Cried when someone died?: yes Fallen for a friend: nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:


Yourself: mostly  Miracles: of the scientific kind, yes Love at first sight: i believe in attraction at first sight, not love Heaven: no Hell: no, but if it does exists i'm aiming for the throne :) Santa Clause: nope Kiss on the first date: sure Angels: nope

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warning rant over my idiotic slightly mysoginistic friend who is an expert at playing the victim ahead

So a quick background about J, he's a pretty alright lookin dude, very politically liberal and very anti anyone who isn't liberal. Sometimes he'll call his friends "the republican one" the "christian one" or the "religious one" and that irks me to no end. Like, ??? Don't generalize someone because of something/someone they are affiliated with that is characterized negatively because of some idiots who are also affiliated with the same group/person. 

Also, J has a habit of trying to be as masculine as he can, and is pretty much terrified of being conceived "feminine", which in my opinion it doesn't matter whether or not people perceive you as "masculine" or "feminine". There shouldn't be assigned concepts, I guess, for different genders. He uses femininity negatively and I just no. He also thinks all republicans are bad, (which I kinda agree with but i digress), all feminists are mysandrist extremists looking to destroy mankind, (which I have slowly but surely been changing his view on, but he still thinks all feminists are evil and doesn't believe there's gender inequality-ex: wage difference, slut shaming, victim-blaming, etc) and I UTTERLY DESPISE THAT OPINION HE HAS LIKE NO STOP PLEASE DON'T BE THAT PERSON

Anyway, he also plays a tiny victim violin often as well. So J dated this chick, who I know and she's pretty rad alright, and she broke up with him cause he wasn't being the best bf and being all awkward and not talking to her a lot. (note: I'm not totes sure about why she dumped him, but what I have observed and heard from my friends and J himself leads me to believe J wasn't being the best dude in the situation.) So J got all depressed cause she dumped him and that's understandable, but he was like super upset and mad at her for dumping her for an "invalid reason" in his mind, but it was totally reasonable. So J kept on complaining and had to be forcefully told to shut the hell up and get over it by one of my patient friends. Anyway, apparently our mutual friend Alanis was talking to his ex, cause who knew we'd still be friends with her after he talked like an ass to her and blahdy blah. So Alanis said James was being too awkward and needed to get his shit together and get over it, since it was a two week long relationship and months and months of recovery time. So J told me about how bitchy Alanis was being and just whining in general. But Alanis does have a habit of being super blunt and obvious and comes off as bitchy and mean. And Alanis and I were talking, since we have classes together oh no what a shock friends talk to each other, and J came up. Alanis talked about how J was being all mopey and idiotic about his ex and SHE BROUGHT UP THE TOPIC OK?? I WASN'T EVEN THINKING ABOUT IT. BUT SUDDENLY, SINCE I MENTIONED HOW J SAID ALANIS WAS A BITCH ABOUT IT SINCE SHE ASKED ABOUT IT, I "BETRAYED J'S TRUST??" AND HE IS ACTING LIKE A TOTALL "I'M A NICE GUY" ASS HOLE AND I JUST WANNA STRANGLE HIM. 

so long story short, my friend was being an idiot and is still being an idiot about modern issues and his actions. this has been a rant by moi over my surprisingly boring life, and if you read (which if you did you are awesome) this whole angry thing, ily and good night. I go to fume quietly over how j is still playing the victim like a symphonic orchestra player. (like it's my fault he was "victimized" by alanis for calling him out and telling him to get over something) just ugh. alright, i have vented some of my anger about this dude, and i will now go to sleep. well, by sleep i mean lay on my bed in the dark on tumblr but oh well. 

thanks (if you read, which is unlikely but this has just been a rant to get my feelings out. it is surprisingly therapudic and I recommend trying it sometime)