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I am nothing but fucking chaos.

My life has seen so many changes in the past few months.

Basically since last august (honestly more like last march), life has just been throwing one trigger after another at me. I’ve been dealing with my childhood trauma again since then. I’ve lost several close connections with friends, who I’ve know for most of my life, that I considered family. In the past year I have had to deal with my abusive mother so fucking much. Overwhelmingly much.

I moved at the beginning of this year, due to some of my lost connections I was unable to stay in the place I had been at for the past 3.5 years. I was fortunate enough to have a safe place to move in with my partner, metamour, and a bunch of other rad queers. I’ve also managed to get 3 p/t jobs within the first 2 months of my move. Things have just been so overwhelming and busy since I moved, and a month after I moved in we moved to a bigger spot (which has mostly been fucking great).

It just feels like there is so much to process, and not enough time to do it. I’m trying to find my footing again though, trying to get grounded. My tools are scattered all over the place, i’m a weird misshapen puddle of goo, but *i’m gonna get it together.*

#depression #self motivation #self care #personal #trauma #abuse mention #triggered #life changes #my art #non binary #trans masculine #modified queer #stoner boy #boys with long hair

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roachpatrol

ultimately i think kindness is the most radical thing you can do with your pain and your anger. it’s like, you take everything awful that’s ever been done to you, and you throw it back in the world’s teeth, and you say no, fuck you, i’m not going to take this. you say this is unacceptable. you say that shit stops with me.

humans are fucking terrible and this awful world we live in will fucking kill you but if you are kind, if you are brave and clever and try really hard, you can defy it. you can impose on this bleak and monstrous structure something beautiful. even if it’s temporary. even if it doesn’t heal anything inside you that’s been hurt.

i’m gonna sleep and i’m gonna wake up and i swear by everything in this deadly horrible universe i’m gonna make someone happy.

roachpatrol

i’ve seen a number of comments and tags where people feel that they must swallow or repress their anger in order to engage in kindness. that is not at all what i am recommending here. radical kindness is an expression of anger. it is not passive. it is not repressive. it does not require you, in any way, to forgive those that have fucked you up. it does not require you to be quiet.

it just requires that you be kind. viciously. vengefully. you fight back. you plant flowers. give to charity. play games. pet someone’s dog. scream into the dark. paint and write and dance, tell jokes, sing songs, bake cookies. you have been hurt and you don’t have to deny that hurt. you just have to recognize it in other people, and take their hand, and say: no more. enough. fuck this. no more.

have a cookie.

i will say this again: we are all going to die. the universe is enormous and almost entirely empty. to be kind to each other is the most incredible act of defiance against the dark that i can imagine.

naamahdarling

i will say this again: we are all going to die. the universe is enormous and almost entirely empty. to be kind to each other is the most incredible act of defiance against the dark that i can imagine.