in the wolf’s den ( 3 dec.’79 )
remusnotromulus:
No objections from me there. I can quite happily live off your dislike for him. [ he sighs ]  Maybe. I think he started it, but she’s gotten worse over the years. She doesn’t try to, she just… hesitates. Which I get, but… I mean, I’m not going to hurt either of them. Hugging me isn’t going to kill them, or handing me a cup of tea, or… y’know I just don’t get that. [ he looks up at her and smiles ] He gave you the mirror? Him and James love those mirrors, I didn’t think it was possible for him to part with it. [ he sighs ] I think if I see him, though, he’s gonna’ freak. I’m gonna’ freak. I’m nervous, Lily. I’m not trying to be, but I’m nervous. [ he shakes his head ] Just stick with me. And don’t freak out if you hear anything in the basement. I know that you heard about the safe house from James and Sirius, but… well, it was hearing them that messed with my head. Because I could hear them outside the door. I thought they were keeping me in there. So just don’t worry, okay? Whatever you hear, I’m gonna’ be alright. [ he pauses ] And coffee in the morning. Please.Â
[ she had been biting her tongue but nothing he was saying was anything she disagreed with ]  I don’t either.  I’ve tried to figure it out and I just — [ she shakes her head ]  I’m sorry they’re like that.  I know it doesn’t mean much but I’m sorry.  You deserve so much more than that, you know that right?  You deserve a family that loves you more when you need them, doesn’t shy away.  [ she’s getting mushy and she knows it but she had promised to coddle him ]  He has James live in person.  And his mirror.  So I guess he figured he’d manage fine for a night without it.  [ she nods ]  Then be nervous.  The more you fight against it, the bigger a problem it is.  Just - let it be.  Let it all be.  It’s only as big a problem as you let it be.  [ she nods again, somberly ]  I can’t promise I won’t worry but I promise I’ll do it quietly.  Moony won’t know I’m there.  And you are going to be alright.  [ she grins ] I’ll even spike it, if you like.












