TO LIVE MY LIFE FOR ME

  PRIVATE & SELECTIVE   HARU OKUMURA / P5

[flevrsus]

my body is shaky from walking into town carrying this big ass package which is a cosplay; im laying down then picture time oh oh.

[phantomemes]

rp sentence starters taken from  shinji moon’s  work  ,  the anatomy of being. 

“ pay attention to the story. ” “ there are certain things about myself that i romanticize. ” “ this isn’t me being a dreamer. ” “ it’s just me trying to turn this husk of muscle and dirty fingernails into something more. ” “ for so many years i’ve held words beneath my tongue. ” “ my taste buds are revolting against me. ” “ everything leaves before it hurts us too bad. ” “ the body knows all that language cannot say. ” “ my skin was a million tiny mouths yelling ‘ listen ’. ” “ the body is a premonition. ” “ your sadness delivers itself into your organs. ” “ worry drops pebbles into your stomach. ” “ love evaporates and condensates onto the roof of your mouth. ” “ do you think it’s okay to fall apart ? ” “ we live in a  ‘ break it , you pay ’  kind of culture. ” “ there’s no room for mistakes. ” “ we give up so easily. ” “ we are stronger than what these fragile bones can take. ” “ we’re so ashamed of that which fumbles and falls through our fingers. ” “ we walk around carrying  ‘ closed ’  signs around our necks. ” “ i love you for how human you are. ” “ tectonic plates are shifting beneath my skin. ” “ there’s a new continent in my chest that i want to call by your name. ” “ kill me by giving me a grenade and telling me it’s your heart. ” “ i don’t want to know what your favorite color is. ” “ i do want to know what color you bleed. ” “ this is what it must feel like to be the sea. ” “ what else can this heart do but break or fall in love ? ” “ my palms are mines , and you’re just a finger’s length away from leaving me splattered across your chest. ” “ you are just a handful of billions of cells. ” “ you walk like you’re trying to hold the sky up with your palms. ” “ no one ever talks about what came before the flood. ” “ at first , they thought it was a miracle. ” “ i can hear how a heartbeat echoes. ” “ i no longer feel anything. ” “ my fingers are hollow shells , this skin is a shroud. ” “ we are uncharted mine fields. ” “ i shouldn’t ask questions that only i know the answers to , should i ? ” “ have you counted the freckles on your cheeks ? ” “ screw falling in love. ” “ i don’t want your sentimentality. ” “ what i’m trying to say is that you’re not allowed in. ” “ i don’t want to think of all the suns that will rise without you. ” “ i want so bad to forget. ” “ there are certain people who leave scars when they go. ” “ history repeats itself , sometimes in ways you wouldn’t imagine. ” “ there’s redemption in the night sky tonight. ” “ all i’m left with are paper cuts where your hands used to be. ” “ sometimes touches me and i bleed for days. ” “ what the hell do i do now? ” “ we measure catastrophes by how close they hit to home. ”

[flevrsus]

hello hi i’m back

[navithief]

                                                                               PROMO CREDIT

     I’M  USED  TO  BEING  DECEIVED    /    BUT  LOOK  AT  ME  NOW .

                                                                            WRITTEN BY ANDY

[cilly-murphy]

#end them

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@flevrsus

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— J.R.R. Tolkien

[leafsea]

[leafsea]

I want to forget // 2.19.2018

[sweetbunie]

dollydarling

[flevrsus]

I’m still not feeling over great but, these arrived today and it lightened my mood so I wanted to share them here haha; I should be on next week. <3

[flevrsus]

stay on twitter but, i tried to make haru ayye

[flevrsus]

🌺

-`. ✿ .’- // accepting! // @foxinasmock

What she thought of him? Oh wow. She tapped her finger onto her chin, “ah, well I think that Yusuke is a rather lovely person, I’m truly thankful to have him in my life.” She hummed, “he’s truthfully rather funny and I personally feel he could lighten up anyone’s day.” A chuckle pasted her lips, “anyone would be truly lucky to be blessed by someone like him!”

[waitingfcrtomorrow-a]

transphobes in the RPC, a guide.

The “Well, Actually…” Transphobe:

continually butts in to point out that your trans muse isn’t realistic for whatever reason. Something about the setting/time period/etc. Whines about you making things political when/if you bring up how being trans has impacted your muses life. (will speak more about this)

the “Just My Preference :)” Transphobe:

Never interacts with trans muses, but will swear up and down that they’re really a good ally! they just have certain,,, tastes :)

the “What The Hell Is A NB” Transphobe:

oh, ur muse is nonbinary? that must just be special snowflake talk for ~basically boy~ or ~probably girl~. WILL misgender ur muse if they aren’t COMPLETELY androgynous.

the “Transes Are Hawt” Transphobe:

INSIST they are the best allies out there bc (passing) trans people are so hot!! May or may not be playing a trans muse just to sexualize them. They’re probably living in fear of being outed as an “Ally” bc how could they look their parents in the eye and tell them that they get off to trans people’s existance, but only if it’s done “Right”.

the “Why So Political ;(” Transphobe:

they claim to LOVE trans rep, may even follow some trans muses. But if you EVER talk about how being trans has affected your muse, for better or for worse, then you’re “being too political” and should knock it off.

the “Well It’s Just Biology!” Transphobe:

probably reeks of TERF. May or may not misgender your muse. Makes a point to associate people with their genetalia bc they’ve “read a biology textbook ;)c”

the “My Fave Can’t Be Trans! Why? Bc I Said So!” Transphobe:

eerily similar to the “Well Actually…” Transphobe, this person claims to be an ally! they love the trans! But you better keep your ~impure trans hands~ off their precious baby bean son or so help them!

the “Can’t Take A Joke” Transphobe:

Cisphobia? It’s Real And It Kills ;((

that’s all i can think of for rn, Please feel free to add ur own.

[flevrsus]

toot toot, okay for real now shipping call, so like this post if you wanna work on something shippy with haru

[visionofanarchy]

Platonic Touch

Sometimes, characters want contact that has nothing to do with sex or violence. Send one of these for your character to reach out to mine.

Shoulder Clasp

Across the Shoulder hug

Hair Ruffle

Gentle headlock

Full body lean

Feet in lap

Head in lap

Hair petting

Ambush hug

Not so ambush hug

Pulling mine into their lap

Cheek kiss

Forehead kiss

Brushing hair out of mine’s face

Fixing shirt collar

Fixing shirt cuffs

Fixing a clothing tag

Tying shoes

Taking off shoes

Carrying while half asleep

Hand holding

Leaning their head on mine’s shoulder tiredly

Absently tracing patterns on the nearest exposed skin

Pushing glasses into place

Offering their drink

Offering their snack

Kissing the back of mine’s hand

Looping their arm around mine’s waist and leaning against mine’s back

Crawling into bed with

Using shoulder as a pillow

Pulling mine’s arm around their shoulder

Hair brushing

Brushing lint off of

Giving a foot massage

Giving a back massage

Giving a scalp massage

Rubbing circles on mine’s back

Sharing a secret smile

Booping the nose

Touching noses together

Resting foreheads together

Resting cheeks together

Sharing a blanket

Taking over mine’s seat while they’re in it

Poking with fingers/toes

Painting mine’s nails

Putting jewelry on mine

Doing mine’s hair

Pinkie promise

High five

Fist bump

Secret handshake

Hipcheck

Pulling mine into a dance

Initiate a tickle fight

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                                           STARBOUND !

[inkskinned]

that kind of love that’s “i was scared until i found you.” that kind of love that’s worth it to try romance again. the “fuck i’ll try cheesy if it just makes you smile” love, the roses and love notes and wine bottles. the twinkle light love, the “let’s go on this romantic date only to spend the whole thing being silly” love, the dancing badly to slow songs love, the “i don’t know how you make me laugh so much but seriously stop it i’m trying to drive” love. the “i trust you love,” calling late at night because a secret just welled up in my throat love, the first person i talk to so i can figure out this decision is you kind of love. the “i was hurt before and had given up but then i found you” love, the incredulous in-awe love, the wonder love, the are you actually real or am i dreaming you love. the “i didn’t believe in soulmates before you” love. that kinda love.