Sui Generis

[flimsymind]

I live in a constant state of fear and misery - fried noodles by pink guy

[flimsymind]

2 A.M.

Color of stillness,

Deafening noise of silence,

Calm, tragic feeling.

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pleaaase?

[flimsymind]

Jumbled words stirring me up blind, making me a visitor of my own mind. Fumbling, struggling, grasping and longing, is it just life frowning? Fleeting consciousness as the night goes deeper, leaving my aspirations floating on a river.

Now my thoughts are all scrambled, figuring things out as we go on our journey. What's in it for our love and family, as we become feeble and flimsy. Manifesting all in my mind as I prepare to write, weary is my though as I say Dear Diary.

[flimsymind]

I was anxious the whole day. I don't know the reason for it, but I was not okay. I was frustrated with everything, angry, sad, and empty at the same time.

From morning to midnight I'm feeling down and under. I wanted to hurt myself just to confuse my mind into feeling pain instead of these emotions. Yup, it was really shitty.

My girlfriend called, we shared stories about her day and my day. Then little by little my worries fade. There's really something about her that makes me feel calm and loved. That all of these are normal, and not to be judged.

I was scared but then I knew she got my back. All that I worry now is that, it might also weight on her. But I guess, I must act the same way she acted towards me today so I can support her as well.

I'm really lucky that I got her. And I hope I can support her in the future not only emotionally but also with all aspects of life.

P.S. I love you babe, even if you haven't said it to me even once. I don't want to regret not saying it to you. Thank you for being you, thank you for being here.

07-13-2022

[flimsymind]

Riding the waves under the scorching sun.

Another lost soul trying to have fun

With all the burden of heartaches and living sorrows.

Just trying to cope up with the feelings of hollow.

Fighting all the odds as if it was an art.

All he has, is his sunburnt heart.

[flimsymind]

I crave your attention, your utmost sincere attention.

I crave your gaze, the unjudging look you always give.

I crave your hugs, not just for convenience but also for love

I crave your smile, the one that lightens up my day.

I crave your kisses, your lips that vehemently expresses your affection.

I crave your body, the way you erase my sorrows in this distorted reality.

I crave your soul, when we make love it flatters me to the core.

I crave you

[flimsymind]

Smile

With lingering thoughts,

Sleepless throughout the long night,

Inconvenient bliss.

[flimsymind]

Jigsaw

Playful attention,

While it calls out to the heart,

Fills the voided soul.

[flimsymind]

It's quite difficult to be just a visitor of your own mind.

[flimsymind]

Path

Lost in translation.

Heading where the arrow points.

Look, the glint of fate.

[flimsymind]

Psychedelic

Vibrant lights, shining.

Moon, rotating at slow pace.

'Twas mesmerizing.

[flimsymind]

Questioning Reality

Superficial joys, image of lament.

Wishful thinking, craving the mystery.

Worldly things, nothing will be permanent.

[flimsymind]

With All Honesty

Enamored with confusing demeanor.

Strange circumstances, fleeting attention.

While I, a man of refreshing candor.

[flimsymind]

Silence

Sit with me in silence, for I am well versed in it.

Sit with me in silence, I dig the quiet atmosphere it gives.

Sit with me in silence, as I find solace and tranquility.

Sit with me in silence, for the silence is the noise I crave.

[flimsymind]

Yup, I want to vanish. Or better, just die right now.

[flimsymind]

Candle.

Darkness, nothing but darkness. Pitch-black, void, feeling helpless. Then there's light, a little glimpse of it. It was so little, yet reassuring. Guide, hope, warmth despite the coldness.

The glint turned into flames, there was no more darkness. It was a candle lit to burn, burning to subdue the darkness. I want to be like that light that eliminates darkness.

Flames slowly dying, looks like darkness has its way. Candle slowly burning, slowly killing the flame. Another candle, unlit but wants to be in flames.

I pass now the burden, as I slowly melt in flames. Now my role as a candle ends as my soul wanes. To slowly burn and become a guide . To be the light to someone's darkness.