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pony work doodles

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intrusive

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conduction of controlled conversation

under the auspices of ants

the goosebumps amalgamate as the skin repairs

and an itch to continue

a desire to reach out my body to yours persists

but the idea of my bugs under my epidermis pressing against u

makes me nauseous&shrivel

they're crawling through my veins

and ask my pulse quickens they spin inside me faster

even when our touch is brief, accidental

i feel them itching to jump

and i have to scold myself for letting myself get close to you

the ants scream

feed all yours thoughts to me till you’re exhausted and begging for release

the mandibles of my greed grip your hips to feel every experience you’ve had

i sink my pincers into your neck’s skin and bite until your feelings start to break through the surface

i’ll drink up every drop of your intimacy, moments you’ve always wanted to share but been afraid to

why did it feel like i was gasping for air with you?

there are time in lull with you that i feel i have enough

but it’s not enough for you or myself or anyone

don’t look over here

don’t turn around

it's easier to look at you from the side or behind

but ants crawled into cuts on my hips that were left from others grip

and are waiting to escape my orifices

they prick at the urethra

and traveling between my vagina and my anus

it stings and i'm afraid of using the bathroom

for when i see their corpses staring back at me from the water

i'm sorry i couldn't host you better and my body pushed you out

and though i hate the ants, i have to protect them

they've dug themselves inside

and i'm flattered that they thought of me.

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I’m always running

On fumes

Away

Late

To catch you

With not enough time

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i look into their eyes

and wonder what they see in me

now when i stare at myself in the mirror

an object has become of me

i hate to be a toy, a fantasy, a night

but it seems its come too familiar for me

i cradle the object that has become of me

i see the cracks starting to form

i'm afraid at what will seep through,

though it is another part of me

i'll miss the shell, the way it protects me

even if its been cutting

my gums into smiling

legs into opening

senses numb

and my eyes glazed, shot, and away.

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maybe i'll make a comic somdayyy

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tumblr swag

from during highschool, 2022

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realta the fish on a human body .. 🐟🐠

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super old wip

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stone on his face

lace covered mace

i yield because I wish not to hurt you

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I pluck on your spine like the strings of a violin

but I wish not to make you a marionette

I'd rather play a duet

intertwined the music plays our skin

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the air crisps its leafy lips onto my skin,

a blue rose, my veins move my limbs

& i do a spin as I learn to love again

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protect my good faith and humor, my love is meant to

Protect my good faith and humor,

Acidic pleasure came from yourself onto me,

burned itself onto my chest and into my heart.

no longer i, a person, you lie in love with.

Throwing up my shame

Into the toilet after you left

is Narcissus reflected between the chunks of

cartilage and love?

The bathroom tiles chilled as my only sensation

The glass you used to hold so carefully

Stained by a moment

epiphanic i see now,

how you saw me unconsciously.

I sink into the mud and cry out for why

a trust so easily broken

my Self must be so faint for others to care for

so they treat me as they please.

but for why, when I loved you

must you have hurt me?

my mind is always split now

balancing the present reality and the time unbounded daydreams

my thoughts are ever consuming, I can't focus on what's in front of me.

I want to run away from my mind, I don't want the power to time travel.

but its parasitic attachment to my unwakingly wake moments

leeches itself onto everything I touch.

the unconsciously

now I don't trust, in others and myself

“I wasn't thinking” and that precisely the problem

thoughtful, a consideration of others

why do I wish to rewire myself

when being caught in them not quite bad.

perhaps because of my electrical intensity,

I want everything to slow down

I dont feel that I can relax

if I take a moment, the feeling may come back.

there's no reason for it

there's no logic behind it

its a carelessness I cannot understand

all the words must mean nothing

I feel stupid for how much I care

how much i hung onto every word

as they do onto your feebility

when the syllables extract themselves from your life and into mine

there's wasn't much to read

meaningless words etched into my heart,

I have little to cling to

but I wish not to be contrived

I practice self control because I am afraid of other's lack

would you have called out the right name when I let go?

chauvinist in disguise,

incompetence your weapon.

treating me as your mother,

child turned adult,

you'll never get your needs met.

Always ignorance feigned,

I held you unaccountable.

incompetence does not hide always

your sadistic greed toward my form

without care for my words.

I care not for form

and word of mouth can always lie

the soul i seek,

I cannot deny my own greed

Seeking love past the superfluous superficialities

At what point does it show itself true?

Past obsession

Past the dopamine charged feeling,

At what point does it surpass chemical?

a trust, a security, a future

Is it a careful consideration of another?

A choice perhaps,

regardless of feeling, the fleeting

My love is meant to

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Take me into thee,

I heard my thoughts as they decree

atop the church, the bells

they bellow down below

temptation seeps itself into me

don't you see?