Watch Out I’m Trans

• Transmac • they/them • Tired •

[scorpionlafemme]

[werenotreallystrangers]

you don't just marry a person. you marry their ecosystem. their food. the temperature of their house. their sleep schedule. their friends.their family. their way of moving through the world

[lleyksie]

owls + apples 🍎

[applebugg]

Three young barn owls standing in the stone quatrefoil of Christ Church, Fulmodeston.

[angelicdewdrop]

[aqaritits]

I don't wanna touch grass. I need to be nude amongst the moss again. 

[kosmogrl]

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

played sims 4 for the first time and one of the married cis men had a desire to try for baby with his cis husband. i accidentally pinned it and could not unpin it. trying for baby is physically impossible. I tried to use cheats to give him a viable womb in create a sim but it wouldn’t let me do so retroactively. so I thought, maybe if they adopt the want for pregnancy will go away, and had them adopt a toddler daughter. but then the try for baby desire did not go away. since they now had an unwanted adopted child I tried to remove the toddler from the household, thinking this would send her back into the ether. it did not. instead she wanders the neighborhood like a feral cat. i thought the social worker would come and take her back so someone else could adopt her, but I guess there is no social worker in sims 4. so now the neighborhood is haunted by a smelly miserable baby that has no home but cannot die and everyone who sees her is uncomfortable. fucking omelas scenario.

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

no one is feeding her but every time she gets hungry she simply produces a carton of milk out of the ether and drinks it

[gremlin-pattie]

OP— do ctrl+shift+C and type “testingcheats true” and then “cas.fulleditmode” into the bar, then go into CAS and change one of the sims to be able to get pregnant. mpreg is possible ALWAYS

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

thanks. the womb installation worked.

[adrenalinevan]

I'm sorry, this was dune mpreg the whole time and you never thought to mention? Iconic.

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

it wasn’t relevant to my journey

[kosmogrl]

learning not to return to places where I miss the past but see no future

[becquerel]

i love when people on the internet get denied stuff and you find the most innovative minds of the generation dedicated to making goddamn sure other people get what they want come hell or high water

[becquerel]

[sorrow-hollow]

Okay but I get this. All of you worms who have things blocked on your wifi or whatever and have IbisPaint this is how you do it

Open IbisPaint go to a canvas (any canvas, or make. a new one)

Select the font tool (if you don’t know what or where that is, press the tool icon (normally a paint brush or eraser) and press the T button

From there you should be able to create a text box (writing is not important…). Find the font button and add a new font. I can’t remember what it’s called but you’ll know when you see it

It’ll automatically search for you “free fonts.” Do not follow this. Your app is misdirecting you. Instead search up whatever it is you’re looking for in the search bar, and that should work

Knowledge should not be trapped behind bars, bend and break them until you can grasp it

[steamandcream]

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

[steamandcream]

sorry to put your tags on blast on this insane breach containment post I have since muted, but you're right and you should say it.

It is defeatable. Go for the throat.

[jovialstars]

I don't believe in coincidences. I believe if you did a spell and you see results specific to what you were channeling in, then it had some impact. I believe if you whispered a prayer and you felt it in your heart and soul, and then something came up immediately after, trust that you were sending that energy out. If you see the same sign time five times outside of a digital scape and in your waking life, trust it, why would a specific symbol come up that many times in the waking world and not just on an algorithm on your phone? If you say 'what are the odds of that even happening' after it happened after you did something, maybe you have more power than you thought. Maybe your guides are speaking and you're listening better than you thought. Maybe you're manifesting better than you thought. Maybe your energy is being channeled in ways you need it to be. But I don't believe in coincidences.

Manifestation can come up in many forms, or be done in many forms. I didn't know how to manifest before, I was just sort of doing it for awhile with no understanding of how I did it or the pattern of behavior that was causing it. Shocked that any of my spells or prayers even worked at all. I was just saying I want this with absolutely certainty, or I don't want this with absolute certainty. But it kept happening, I thought well I can't just have whatever I want when I want it just because I said it, me just saying it doesn't mean I'm getting it automatically. So what am I actually subtly doing that's creating the effects, the specific effects, I'm receiving?

If your heart, mind, body, and soul all say yes to something, you manifest. If your heart and body say yes impulsively because you have an idea it could be good but your spirit says no, the stream of energy will flop if you try to manifest it. If your spirit is screaming yes but your body and mind are terrified and you heart says yes but you're too afraid and opt-out, well, that's also an example of holding back that stream of energy. It reminds me of a laser, like if all systems are gold and every yes is enthusiastic or why the hell not let's do it, you're gonna have a huge, uninterrupted flow of energy to channel into your prayer or spell or action. If you're doing what feels like the right thing and you're feeling strong on every level and your soul says yes and you've got the wand and herbs in hand, do it. If your mind is like "yes!!" But your body feels uncertain and you subconsciously are like I really don't know if this is a good idea yet, that's intuition, trust it before making a final decision, give it some thought first.

So there's no coincidence to me when your stuff works and when it doesn't, why that spell was flawless and why that spell flopped. Do your body and energy check-ins, be honest with yourself and face where you are. There's no shame in admitting fear or uncertainty. There's no shame in admitting you want something either, but your soul and body will tell you if it's the right or healthy thing to do, and that will only strengthen your intuition to be honest with yourself. I've even admitted I've had terrible amounts of fear but I know something is the right thing to do, and I'm still carried through with energy uninterrupted and have made successful spells, because you don't have to be fear-free to make a decision you know is the right move. I will sometimes, via the neurodivergence, desire a result greatly because I think it could be good for me or I'm having an angry moment where I want to act now, but spirit is like wait!! I see something you don't, breathe it out first, and then we can make a decision. Sometimes spirit is like hell yeah, fuck em up, do what you gotta do for that protection spell or baneful magic to protect the marginalized communities you're a part of, so they let me be mad as hell, middle fingers up, and that rage is sacred and justified and the energy flows well because it's still a yes on all levels.

There's always a pattern for why something is coming up repeatedly, there's always a pattern of behavior and why, there's always a reason it does or does not work. But I don't believe in coincidences, I don't believe life is always willy nilly in reason, just willy nilly in practice sometimes.

[perfectlyripeclementine]

something cool about queering your idea of sex is that you can walk out of a heavy make out session feeling like you had the rawest sex of your life. you can be sitting close at a bar kissing them and maybe you’ve found a way to sit so your knee is discreetly between their thighs and feeling the pleasure it gives them and then feeling them give that pleasure to you. you can be looking each other in the eye and you can feel them inside you from that alone. like you want to tear their clothes off and are hungry for the feeling of their skin and their closeness but even just this feels like heaven, feels connected to them in the deep place where pleasure comes from.

[perfectlyripeclementine]

a list of things that are sex if you’re gay enough about it and you want it to be:

feeling their desirous gaze on you while you put in drink orders at the bar

holding hands on the way home from the date and it feels like a foreshadowing of what you’re going to do to each other when you get there

heavy breathing on the phone when they’re touching themself to the sound of your voice

grinding in a weird position where you’re both like ???? why does this feel so good????

literally just eye contact

[perfectlyripeclementine]

“When I was a dominatrix, I once rubbed balloons all over a man for seventy-five dollars. He would’ve called it sex. I would’ve called it work. It was mutually consensual, and I think we were both correct in our assessment.

If your sex is balloons, if it is blowing raspberries on your lover’s belly, if it happens fully clothed ir in furry costumes, if it happens in a group or alone — give it the same gravity, the same reverence or irreverence as all the tiresome scenes of heterosexual penetration we all grew up reading. … There is no marginal erotic unless you sideline it.”

Melissa Febos, Body Work

[twomontis]

Meow 🐯🌸

New oc designed by l4uhmo!! Her name is Shaka

[explicitlyrics]

many on here need to be learning this lesson

[draconym]

I think it sucks that you have to go to so many different kinds of doctor to take care of yourself. It's the 21st century. I should be able to go to a single office where they scan me with a big xerox machine and tell me what I'm allergic to and why my tummy hurts and if I have any cancer or cavities or if my glasses prescription has changed. And then I should get a sticker.

[nebquerna]

it's time again