[the tunnel is more fun than the light at the end]

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you need to spend a lot of time at the gym this weekend learning spanish. 

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Why did u wake me up tho

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just give me all the power and go away. we don’t need you. we’re fine without you. just get out of the way and someone else will fill your role.

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40/40 on my hog farming paper

(effort will not betray you)

12- office & MCH

1- start MCH final

2:30- finish MCH final

3:00- house showing

5:00- garden schematic

6:00- review practice test

7:00- garden schematic

8:00- review practice test

9:00- garden schematic

11:00- finish schematic

12:00- sleep

9:00- wake up& review for final

10:30- PISBY 106 final

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I looked around the office the other night, and I realized how fucking happy I was. My friends are incredible. I love them. I love TT.

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yo no fair. your smile doe.

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maybe the city is starting to poison me. maybe i need more fresh air than phildelaphia can offer me. more sunlight, more room to run and play and romp. more room to grow. more room, period.

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“me being me and having the sickness of the triangle in me”- ns

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WHY I FEEL HUNGOVER ALL THE TIME

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shit, i think it’s my addictive tendencies but i just experienced something along the lines of nostalgia.

he’s really nice to lie against. he smells really nice. he plays with my hair and pulls me into him. if you keep his shirt on, it’s a win-win. he didn’t even try to kiss me.

i like talking to him. i like that i feel safe with him. that i don’t ever have to worry about being legitimately attacked (intellectually). i’m very into that.

uncertainty is present. soon ny-calm will be too.

let’s hear it for drugs that knock you out cold and prevent contemplation of meaningless interhuman relationships

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it’s really a lot of pressure knowing you’re somebody’s hero. is this what parenting feels like? great scott...

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the city should be nice and quiet today. everyone should have left leaving ample time and space for me to go on a walk and get some studying done. I really hope I can get some studying done

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every professor has a different opinion about how i should write. they say there’s a formula to make your sentences stronger. and i’m editing and i’m not even sure i’m a good writer. i’m not sure i’m good enough to be an editor. i’m not sure i know what the hell i’m doing as an editor. i have limited journalistic experience and for some reason i’m in charge.

so i poured about three shots of rum into a cup and watered it down with some tea and brought it in for back up. tonight is going to be hell.

also i don’t know if i can make it through classes. i’m still a little dead inside. and nicolena is driving me crazy. and i don’t like him but he’s there and he’s warmer than a pillow. god i hate the way he looks at me.

[icedtwists]

Sittin’ in this place I swore was poison,

Said they’re stickin’ out Kool-Aid 

Kids are suckin’ it down. 

But not me cause I’m above it. I’m above this whole town.

So closed off from all the ideals society deems with dismay 

Shutting out so much it’s like they’re molders and ya clay

Hit up the neighbors party they get high, can’t stand 

No, they never stood up for much anyway 

But now they’re fallin’ down the stairs. 

Out the door. 

Into each others arms. 

And you stare and say: 

Keep reading

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I call this piece Mildew. Because the obvious title would be “Clay”. When you think of clay, you think of the verb mold. And mildew is a kind of annoying mold that grows in places that are wet for too long.

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today was a good last day. working at the water department wasn’t for me but i was fortunate enough to at least have a boss and intern i got along with great. working on greenstem was a valuable learning experience. matt was a great role model and interesting mentor. i feel like i learned a lot about editing, engineering, and development from him. he’s also really amazing in that he does really cool shit in an otherwise really boring department.

he and jay took me to a well intentioned only somewhat awkward lunch today at el vez. i think matt liked my card. i slapped this parks and rec pic in there

and then i got him a coffee gift card. the fact that coffee isn’t provided for the water department employees still riles me up. and he was like, you didn’t have to get me anything, what’s your address.

and then we all shuffled back past the stupid pope store they founded. and then i had to record video for joeseph’s ted talk next month of them all going out the door. and so matt was all, “i’m not good at goodbyes..... if you’re ever lost in south philly, or need bailed out of jail.” and i was like “really? jail?” and he was like “i’ll give you the benefit of the doubt” and then we agreed it was nice working with each other and i scampered off to video the full house clan.

and then when they were all storming into the building two by two through the rotating door matt tried to come out and it was really funny.

saying goodbye is weird.

i have aspergers don’t i.

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interpersonal attraction and attachment are strange.

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last night i broke out in hives, my body looked like it was boiling. i think i need to get my life underwraps