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This is my kind of diary In memories - 2018 - 2020 💔📒🔒

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Andy Grammer - Don't give up on me 🤍

Hi my love! If one day you've found out my little diary, & you are here try to search for this song okie? Its my favourite song. And I dedicated it for you 🤍 the lyrics and all, explained how much I'm in love with you. Dengar ok sayang. I love you, still does to this days 🕊🤍 Take care & stay sfe always love.

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30/9/2020 - next month on this date, you'll turn 24th my love 😍 happy birthday in advance. Im sorry I have to wish you here because I know its impossible for me to whatsapp you. Im sorry if you rasa i lupa birthday you, I will never. But this is the right way to wish you for now. My wish will still be the same like my wish for you on 2018 & 2019 💗 If you still keep it, then re-read la k. Hope you are doing good, take care & stay safe always! Jagakan hati you utk i, hope we'll meet again soon.

30/11/2020 -

P/s : i did post something on my ws status during your birthday hehe i tau you nda perasan or mungkin you nda tgk pun status i tapi ndapalah. To make things clear, i post lagu time birthday you. But my real intention was for you to understand the meaning behind that song. i post 2 lagu tau sayang. First song was "2 places" & the second one "anything 4 you" you get it now? Hehe I hope you do 🥰 im sorry itu ja cara yg paling masuk akal i boleh buat utk you. I wish you indirectly. Please sayang jgn pernah ingat yg i lupa birthday you. I will never okie? I sedih actually tulis mcm ni because I was supposed to have a midnight conversation with you, but ya since we are not togther anymore, I know we won't be having that kind of conversation again but that is okay. Take care always, my Ammar 🥲🤍

Love, م

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Jaga diri cinta hatiku ❤️ I harap kita dpt jumpa lagi di waktu yg tepat. Mungkin sekarang ni we are just toxic to each other, insya Allah one day we will meet again. & masa tu kita dua2 masih ada perasaan yg sama mcm dulu. Looking forward for that moment to come 😢 buat masa ni, kita jaga diri masing2 okay sayang? Tolong jaga diri tu utk i. How i wish i can see you right now sayang, I miss you so much that it hurts. Doa i sentiasa utk you ammar, jangan lupa i dkt sini. Biar lah kenangan lama yg teman i hari2 dkt sini. Stay safe my love!

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Kebetulan saja 🥀

tidak semua yang datang itu benar mencintaimu, ada yang datang untuk merawat sepinya, dan kebetulan ada kamu.

maka jangan mencari cinta di waktu sepi, tapi carilah ketika sudah benar bersedia.

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Tidur la sayang, ❤️

Talk to Allah before you sleep. Surrender all your worries. Let Him fix it for you. Always remember whatever you going through, God is greater than anything.

Sleep well tonight my Ammar🌙🤍 always remember that I rindu you sangat 🥀

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Berehat lah wahai hati

waktu tidak bisa memulih lukamu,

kerana sebanyak mana

waktu yang kamu miliki,

jika kamu tetap memilih

untuk bertahan kesakitannya

selagi itu kamu tidak

akan bisa pulih.

luka itu harus dirawat

bukan dibiarkan begitu

dan mengharapkan keadaan

untuk merawatnya sendiri.

jika kamu rasakan

itu caranya kamu dipulih,

maka sebenarnya kamu

sudah terbiasa dengan

kepedihannya sehingga kamu

kira luka itu sudah pergi.

bukan ia tidak lagi pedih,

cuma kamu sahaja yang

sedang berpura pura kuat.

berhenti lah,

kerana biarkan ia terluka

akan membunuhmu

secara perlahan.

kamu tak perlu waktu,

yang kamu perlu adalah

membenah dirimu.

berhenti bertahan,

lepaskan ia secara rela,

dengan penuh ikhlas.

menyudahkan apa yang sudah.

memaafkan jika itu perlu.

dengan cara ini kamu kembali pulih seutuhnya. ✨

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Hug me, I am mentally tired 🥺😔

There are memories and moments where I understand why I felt so sure about us. Our genuine connection, the ease in which we opened up to each other, our chemistry that made everything feel as if it were one fire. The tender moments where we held onto each other, silent promises that one day we’d figure it all out.

I know it’s okay to miss you because whatever we had was strong and beautiful. To pretend like I don’t miss you would be a disservice to everything we went through. Yet I’m finally in a place where I know that missing you isn’t a sign to try again. It’s a sign that we had a great thing. That’s it, that’s all.

So please know I miss you, but I do understand we aren’t meant for each other. But I’ll still remember us for the rest of my life and I will learn to be okay with that 💔

I hope you are doing good sayang✨ Hope everything went well for you, Love & Miss you so much 😢 Hope things can still be fix sayang, my prayers are with us 🤲🏻 "sayang hug me, I am mentally tired 🥺😔"

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Just another day without you 💔

I want things to be different. I desperately do.

I’ve always held out hope that we would find a way if we just tried hard enough. If we fought hard enough. If we gave it everything we had.

Everything in my bones screams at me that maybe there is another chance for us out there. I would love to cling to that idea. If I did, then I could reach out to you again, without hesitation, to bring that chance to life. Yet the sadness and finality of everything sits on my chest like a weight. We aren’t meant for each other.

If we were, then I would’ve sacrificed everything when I had the chance. If we were, you wouldn’t have looked to other people to fill the space I held. If we were, you would’ve told me how you felt when it made sense to. If we were, I would’ve told you how I felt, even if it meant scaring you a little.

I miss you my Ammar, I really do🥺 Take care & stay safe always my love ❤️ hope to see you real soon ✨

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My Ammar,

Do you lay in bed replaying the moments that we shared together?

Do you ever stay up thinking “what if”?

I know that the answer is no to all of the above. When things were over between us, the switch clicked off just like that. I no longer mattered to you. But the fact that I am lying here, still thinking about you and everything that could have been, makes me wonder if any of it was real for you 🥺

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