It's a feelings blog!

I love feelings and sharing feelings and too many people I know in real life started following my real tumblr (sketchyblondes) so here I am! Here's where I'll share stuff that might hurt or negatively affect someone who knows about my other blog. was primarily for suicidal thoughts but now I'm feeling better. lots of abuse recovery stuff. ..

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[faheys]

milk and honey by rupi kaur

[bpd-darling]

me (cleaning up): holds knife

intrusive thoughts: what if-

me: ok edgelord we get it what if i slit my wrists right now can we please just focus

[hawkeyedflame]

Additionally; me: *waiting for the subway* intrusive thoughts: what if you jumped me: it would cause a four hour delay while they pick your body parts out of the rails you fucking prick, can we please for once get on public transit without going through this

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Also; Me: *walking along a busy road* intrusive thoughts: What if you just fell over in front of this truck? Me: It would back up traffic all fucking night and probably hurt a lot of people you prick.

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Gosh. I never have thoughts like this

[bpd-darling]

didnt ask but that sounds nice

[augustcallback]

Me: *walking down the stairs* Intrusive Thought: I could throw myself down these flight of stairs and leave more time for everyone else! Me: Or you end up with a broken wrist and sprain ankle you dickhead keep walking

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Me: *driving on a bridge* Intrusive thoughts: I could just drive straight into that lake and finish it right now. Me: You asshole, this is a new car. Just fucking keep going like everyone else you prick.

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oh my god,^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

[rosebadwolf1000]

I needed this

[beka-tiddalik]

Me: *standing at a lookout* It’s so beautiful here…

Intrusive thoughts: yeah, look at that view, you could just step out into it and you’d probably never feel the impact when you hit the ground 20m below…

Me: Bitch, don’t ruin the view for everyone else. Fucksake.

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Me: *doing literally nothing*

Intrusive thoughts: What if-

Me: Can’t you just shut the fuck up and chill for once? God damn

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me: taking a bath intrusive thoughts: h- me: im not drowning myself chill

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me, talking about my trauma: haha yeah it was no big deal tho i don’t really care it’s whatever honestly

somebody: validates my trauma and says i shouldn’t have had to go through that

me, suddenly crying: huh. weird

[flyingpigfeelings]

sad with feelings but I know it’s just because I’m ovulating lol

being back on campus reminded me how much I miss it and miss that intimacy and intensity of feelings. it’s making my life now so much clearer in the things I don’t like about it. 

bored and sad

stressed about this stupid grad class thing and how I lost that one copy of my transcript I had. hopefully I can still take classes this summer. I feel so lazy and pathetic. I know starting classes for a master’s degree won’t really help but it’ll keep me busy and make me feel useful. sort of. at least more ok with myself. maybe.

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