this is ooc on a personal level because I can't put things actually on my personal right now and I needed a place to vent, so if you don't like trigger warnings or really upsetting things, please just scroll by. this is simply me, the mun, getting something off her chest.
so a few days back, my friend was hospitalized and I did not know why. after sending her several text messages and getting no replies I was a bit worried, but for her it isn't uncommon to not text back. my mother who is friends with her mother on facebook messaged her after seeing some statuses that were rather worrying. after her mother got back to mine, they conversed sometime through the evening and I found out that my best friend had been smoking and it had been with laced with something unknown. her mother proceeding to say that she had been throwing up days before severally (my friend had told me she was sick) and that she was now allergic to smoke and certain types of foods because they made her disgusted and she would vomit.
now to clear a little history between me and my friend, we are polar opposites. we do not share a single thing in common except for the fact that we look more like sisters than she and her real sister. I've known her for going on four years and on many occasions she would live with my family and I for weeks at a time. we even celebrate christmas together, that's how close we are. neither of us had a very remarkable past was it had been difficult for both of us. after watching my older siblings go through terrible things because of drugs and alcohol, I saw no point in doing those things. I don't mind what others do, but I will control what I put in my own body.my friend on the other hand is the type who does drink and does try new things that are otherwise illegal, but I guess that's just teenager curiosity that I never understood.Â
today, my parents happened to bump into my friends mother in town and they talked. it turns out that my friend was on the verge of death and if she had fallen asleep the night she went to the hospital she would be dead. this isn't the first time I have dealt with someone I was close to almost dying as I have talked many people out of suicide, but this by far has been the most impacting because my friend was almost killed by a friend she trusted and her parents. the girl and her parents took my friend to a part were she took something that was laced. this girl I use to talk to on a daily bases is someone who I will never be able to look at again without the urge to slap her, but I will let karma and the guilt take care of her.
at first, the whole thing did not settle into my system right away and it wasn't until I was at work that I almost cried in front of a customer. my best friend almost died and there was nothing I could do, nothing I can do. she refuses to talk to anyone and though I understand why, because she wants to get better and get over this, it hurts because I can't be there. she is family to me. she is so important to me that I would fly across the country in a heartbeat if she simply wanted to talk or forget about her day because it was terrible.Â
I wish people would open their eyes and see how terrible drugs are. I get it, that's society now, alcohol and drugs. but when you think about the outcome in the end, you don't just hurt yourself, you hurt everyone around you. I wish, I could have been there for my friend more than I have been and this woke me up to realize that I am going to take even better care of my best friend because she the most important sister to me that I don't ever want to lose.Â
if you have someone important to you, please, let them know before it is to late.Â
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