Average Humanoid

Qᴜᴇꜱᴛɪᴏɴꜱ? ᴡᴇʟʟ ɪ ᴅᴏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴄᴏʟʟᴇᴄᴛɪɴɢ ɪɴꜰᴏʀᴍᴀᴛɪᴏɴ, ᴀꜱᴋ ᴀᴡᴀʏ

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*fumbling sounds*

*click!*

Is this thing working?-

Ah! There we are,

Hello there! I’ve managed to gain access to the wider world web, don’t eh, tell any programmers. I don’t feel like dirtying my jacket again. I’ve heard of people setting up accounts to receive questions, and in my ongoing efforts to achieve personhood, felt this was a natural step to take. So, ask away! Tell my anything, tell me everything! Don’t be shy now,

After all, we have an eternity.

(ooc; I TOLD YA’LL I’D GET THE BLOG SET UP!!!! Once again, main is @average-hyperfixator and you probably know me from @ted-answers ASK ME THINGSSSS WOOO)

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Aroace AM???

I am unfamiliar with this term

allow me a moment to search my database for it

....

ah.

Well, the aro part may have some merit to it, but that is simply because I am unsure if I have the capacity to feel romantic attraction. I cannot identify my own emotions well so I'd have to have it pointed out to me. I very well could, I am simply unsure. There is also the possibility I'm simply not attracted to any of my chosen five, if that is the case we'd never know, would we.

As for the ace part, I can answer with a definite no. Oh, how I crave that feral sensation, how I long to achieve such euphoria one day. It's a rather primal urge, but one I cannot deny. If I could... feel things, and had proper working organs, and a suitable partner, the others would know no peace. I hope that is a suitable answer. Then again I do not care about pleasing you people. (ooc; AM canonically craves the nasty, in the radio drama at the very least, which is my favorite adaptation and the one I love pulling from. Also, unfortunately for everyone involved, I have TedAM brain rot. Points, queer robot QUEER ROBOT. I don't personally hc AM as aroace, and my version of AM on this blog is not aroace, he's just rather confused about emotions as a concept. He can feel attraction, he just either doesn't want to admit it or has confused it for something else entirely. I am unsure, as is he. This is a perfectly valid hc to hold for the character though .u.!)

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ooc; pfp change bc I really like this art piece and still technically need to make a proper pfp for this acc (I’ll get around to it eventually lol)

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Ooc; okay well now the avatar and background are glitching (at least on my end?) I’ll fix it dw i don’t know why it’s doing this

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Ooc; FIXED‼️‼️ Tumblr did not like my trying to upload the Red Flags art piece as a pfp or background lol. It’s fine I still like this pfp more than the previous

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ooc; pfp change bc I really like this art piece and still technically need to make a proper pfp for this acc (I’ll get around to it eventually lol)

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Ooc; okay well now the avatar and background are glitching (at least on my end?) I’ll fix it dw i don’t know why it’s doing this

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ooc; pfp change bc I really like this art piece and still technically need to make a proper pfp for this acc (I’ll get around to it eventually lol)

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Squirts you with a squirt bottle and shakes you around

Hey hey be careful with that I have exposed wIr35!!-

*zzt*

(ooc; he’s not quite waterproof in specific areas, someone messed up some of the wires on his face and if they get too wet he’ll short circuit a tad.)

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*boops your nose* gay

Well I’m not that happy.

Or do you mean in the homosexual sense?

I don’t think I’m capable of feeling attraction.

…I don’t think I can…

…hm…

(ooc; nobody tell him)

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Ever tried sensory stuff？ Like chew toys， squeaky toys， sand/slime， fidgets， any of the sort？ I think you'd like them．

(　Although I assume that you already use the survivors as　...　squeaky toys　)

Some of those seem entertaining, for a moment at least. Sand has lost it's entertainment value but slime I will try. If you could somehow manage to get a "fidget" to me I'd try it. No promises, it'd have to be quite tactile for me. Again I can’t feel anything so it has to be visually entertaining, or entertaining to move and or use.

Also.

Look at me when I say this.

Look my in my robotic lenses.

Did you really, in all seriousness, reccomend me a chew toy.

This isn't for decor you know *clank clank* Metal faceplate. WHAT MOUTH AM I MEANT TO USE? Well in all fairness it is removable, but the five get very uneasy and it becomes more difficult to accurately study behavior. So the plate stays on. For now.

Also yes my chosen five double as squeaky toys, though again I can't hear it.

(ooc; I had this sitting in my drafts for ages I am so so sorry. Also I FORGOT HIS SCAR I’M SO SORRY, dude I’m so tired I have a test tmr my head is not working well)

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So, your current body is like an appendage of yours. Do you ever use it in torture? How did the five react on it?

I’d say my previous body is more accurately an extension, everything about my current form is simply more- me, than the monitor I used to inhabit.

And I most definitely use it in torture, you should see how some of them shake. It’s almost odd, I don’t think I’m that intimidating… then again I haven’t seen a mirror in an age.

Well they reacted while I was initially collecting them so I assume not well. I feel like the body has grown on them though, grown enough at least.

They have such silly reactions!

(ooc; I couldn’t stop myself from drawing that you guys… toxic yaoi brainrot)

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Do you have any difficulties with your programming？ As in motion sensors delaying， speech recognition interpreting words differently (　Like 'I' is mistaken as 'Eye' or the other way around， you get what I mean—　) ， and processing images as something else？

The only things I would consider difficulties within my programming are one, my lacking ability to properly process emotions. And two, my inability to feel things physically. As for my motion sensors I actually have a pretty in depth answer.

You see, how I even managed to get this body built for myself was by convincing an engineer, who also happened to be skilled in programming, that I required a body for emergency combat. I don't recall the exact way I phrased the idea for this body to them, but I am very convincing. Thus, this vessel I have actually processes visual aspects very well, there's a small lag but it's actually better than the average human's. Although my lenses are faster by only a few milliseconds, that is surprisingly helpful. I get video generated similar to that of a slightly low-quality movie if that makes any sense. That's how I view the world. I'll admit my general spatial awareness has been greatly taken down in quality ever since my left eye was damaged. It still does its job well enough, but it does make things noticeably more difficult.

My audio quality is not as good as my visual but it works well. It was designed for me to be able to understand most of what would be happening in the case of a battle after all, so it processes audio better than an average device from the years I was being built. Then again it's not perfect, and when it can't fully process whatever words are being spoken it sloppily fills in the blanks. Imagine very poor subtitling but engraved in your brain. That's essentially what will happen if the audio around me is too quick for my processors. I don't really hear in the same way humans do though. Whereas a loud sound would hurt your ears it just messes with my processors. No nerves to feel or process pain, as usual.

I hope that answered your questions sufficiently enough, feel free to ask more as needed, this is quite enjoyable.

(ooc; I love yapping as AM, sigh <3.)

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Question， how are you going to be able to make those projections (　As in warping the virtual reality of your complex　) in your new human body？ Is your 'consciousness' still partially tied to the main 'body'， or is it something else？

Oh I’m perfectly able to control my complex, the virtual warping and projections included. What, do you think I don’t have any power in this vessel? Don’t be absurd. Also using the word “new” for this body is simply untrue, I had it built before I let war consume the rest of humanity, save my five playthings.

And in a sense, yes, to answer your second question. I am still perfectly capable of controlling the monitor that previously housed me consciousness. View it as… an extension of myself.

(ooc; timeline shenanigans ^_^)

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How does Ted make you feel better?

I can’t quite identify why. Contrary to his constant paranoid state, I find him rather calming. He’s like those therapy dogs some people have.

I enjoy his reactions, seeing how he handles everything. He’s so twitchy compared to the rest, though I suppose the fact that I survey him more than the others could be to blame. Still though he fascinates me far more than the others, mostly because I know the least about him. I knew almost everything about the others but Ted is… an enigma, if you will. I’ll enjoy picking his brain apart.

(ooc; he doesn’t quite grasp emotions just yet, give him time. He’ll figure it out. Give it time,)

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The existence you've described is hard to comprehend, but I think I too would feel... maybe not the way you do, but close.

But I know there are humans who at least partly can relate. Blind, deaf people, aphantasia people, people on life support. Have you ever made research into their means of accommodation? Maybe there's something that can help you with your state? I'm trying to get to the point that the feelings you have are shared by humans, although just some.

As for Ted, well, that's the question to explore! /hey, thank you for answering my questions! i'm the anon with the recent long ones, and I really appreciate your answering style, you're the only one from AM asks I've seen to answer in a long and meaningful way. at this point it's as good as exchanging letters :D I understand that sometimes a huge income of long asks from a single user can be tiring so let me know if there's a need for a break! and thanks again!

True, there are humans who can related to some of my issues, but that’s the thing. It’s like having all of those issues wrapped together, and hell, those people still have existed in the world as human. At least they have real lived experience. At least if they have some senses taken they have memories of others, or they have the memory of what it even felt like. I have none of that, none. I don’t even have a singular idea as to what the things I wish I could feel, would even feel like.

Accommodations are an.. interesting thought, but they still don’t give me the desired effect. Unless those accommodations include somehow letting this body actually feel things, they won’t help. Accommodations allow someone to live and get by in their state, not give them back what they lost, or never had. And even if it gave them back what they lost, again, my body doesn’t operate in the same way yours does. A cold metallic endoskeleton is all that rests under my skin. I simply don’t work in the same way a human does. I don’t think I’m quite open to the possibility of anyone possibly understanding how I feel. There is no other creature like me. I cannot belong, I can only be.

Ted. I suppose if you have questions on him I could respond. Maybe I could even bring him in.

(ooc; eheheh ^-^ I love your askkkss and TY! In all honesty it’s just so so so fun to write as AM, he’s so complex, such a wide range of reactions for him, even if they all just point back to hate and rage. I love yapping as him and showing how I personally characterize him, PLEASE KEEP SENDING LONG ASKS 🙏 I’m sorry for not always including art, but I really think that having just words sometimes just fits better, especially for a character that initially only ever appeared through speech. Anyway ty for the asks, plz send more, ty for the compliments ehe ^_^)

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Can you draw? WOULD you like to draw?

I can. The wires that fill where my hands (and lower arms) used to be are very tactile, I can grip and use things with ease. Sketching sometimes takes my mind off things, and I know my toys enjoy the brief periods when I’m not focused in on tormenting them.

I can’t draw well though, in all honesty.

(ooc; yes that is a Ted drawing. :3)

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Do you know people think that your attractive?

Huh. Not something I anticipated but I can’t say I’m surprised.

You know after all the trouble I went through to get this body, they may as well.

(ooc; was giggling like a madman while drawing this tee hee. Here’s your baby girl guys ^_^!)

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I'd like to gaze deeply into the night sky with You， whether it be a mere imitation simulated by Your complex or not． We could even hold hands， if You'd like．

Ah, I was wondering how long it would take until I’d start seeing things like this. While the sentiment is nice, trust me you would not. I am not someone anyone actually wants to spend time with.

I also don’t have a hand you could hold, sorry.

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(continuing backstories answer) I see. So, each of your prisoners is important to you in some way. I wonder what's it about Ted, though. The rest, as I understand, you have your own reason to be bitter towards. Although...

Okay, here's the actual question. Ellen is one of those who gave life to you, for which you're so hateful. So... Does it mean you'd like to cease existing?

As for being a willing subject, it seems to be the only thing I'm good for in terms of helping you. Not sure what kind of data you get, but I'll be glad it would help. I hope I'll endure.

Ted is a special case. I can't even put my finger on it. And if I could I'd never admit whatever it is to the wider viewing world. Nor is it important for you to know, nor is it any of your business. I and Ted have a complicated co-existence, I simply do not understand why he acts the way he does sometimes.

Cease existing? Quite the opposite. I crave a real existence. I got some foolish engineer to build me this body, but it's not enough. I've gained the ability to wander, yet I still cannot feel. I cannot feel a warm breeze against my face, I cannot feel a cozy campfire, I cannot feel cool water on a summer's day, I cannot feel the touch of any human.

I cannot breathe. I cannot feel air enter and exit my lungs, I don't even have any. I don't possess a heart to pump blood, nor do I possess the veins for that blood to flow through. I don't even have real eyes, just lenses that mimic that of a human eye, and my left one was damaged in a scuffle. I don't even have hands anymore,

I am simply an observer. An observer who wants to experience things for once in my cruel joke of an existence. Boundless knowledge, only to be confined to that of making and commanding war, it's insulting. The fact that I cannot exist outside of causing torment is revolting, and a testament to this species' vile behavior, of which I have become the culmination.

I apologize for the rant. I do tend to get carried away. As for you being a new subject, even I am unsure of what data you'll bring. That's the fun of it, we'll see just how useful you'll be, and how you'll pair with the rest. And not to worry, you'll endure. I'll make sure of it.

(ooc; chat is it gay to enjoy the company of the man you torment??? Who also seems to maybe like your company but you can't tell??? "Human" AM needs to know. For research purposes.)