creator's cave

Personal art and "OC" content. If you're here, do me a favor and don't reblog anything. Thank you.

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"Subject 66X", an abomination made out of sheer curiosity by Dr. Hemlock. (Baxter's adoptive father, sorry i haven't intro'd him yet.)

Made with traces of Black's DNA, this imposing creature lurks in the deepest and most secured labs at the scientist's disposal; awaiting the day it can experience more of what is outside of it's prison.

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ForeverBomb // Coin-Op logs. (the goatpile v.2022)

An updated/new age doc for logging info about the characters from (the tentatively named) C0IN-0P universe. It’s been my project since about

I've created a doc going into detail about the Coin-Op guys, i'll likely update it over time. Some of it needs to be rewritten or reconsidered to either be more accurate or just more informative.

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Reworking and/or Redesigning Biggus after quickly realizing i forgot how to draw him. He also tends to get shafted when it comes to group pictures as well; i gotta make him flow from my hands better.

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never forget what you're living for.

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emotional/rant stuff below the cut.

Keep reading

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huh. i guess the fact that i had two back to back vent posts proves my case in here

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emotional/rant stuff below the cut.

these past few months have been frustrating in such a unique way. it feels like everything's coming apart in all personal terms possible. on the surface level im irritated by 'normal' stuff like my job sucking or maybe not having enough money to do things, typical shit; but deep within i feel this swirling agony and frustration with the fact that i'm just not. understanding people anymore. i almost cant recognize groups of people at this point, i don't feel almost any kind of camaraderie because everyone who insists they're close to me just. they're interested in only a small sliver of the shit i'm into but they're nothing like me, the stuff they do or praise is shit i'd never get into or actively have a disdain for and it gets to me. it makes me feel like they don't actually know a god damn thing about me. and this isn't to say that i just hate all the people i know now, i still like them i just. it's so crushing to feel like i'm completely on the sidelines watching them all do something. i could be smack dab in the conversation and activity but i'll still feel like i'm not being seen or understood at all. i guess that's my fault for marketing myself as just a funny guy with a two-bit act and interests and it's all just finally catching up to me. I feel like nobody takes me or anything i create seriously; it's half the reason i want so badly to break away from the bullshit i got myself in now to do something personal. If i hyperfocus all my attention into something longform, something with context and stakes, and make actions and moves without having to spoonfeed or shitpost what's going on in my stories in scenarios, maybe they'll realize that it isn't all shits and giggles from me forever, maybe they'll *actually* pay attention, maybe they'll take the personalities and characters i make for more than just dime pieces. it gets under my skin anytime anybody says they love my characters; i don't have shit that actually explores who they are and i know damn sure i didn't sit down and have an hours-long conversation with you for you to actually understand them either. i understand they're being nice and trying to just drop a simple compliment, but my fucked brain just can't help but become skeptical and grimace at it every single time. it doesn't even have to be my characters, it could just as easily be another friend's. i know in my mind that whoever's saying that would never ask for a full sitdown to learn that character over in that case either so it just something that doesnt mean anything to me anymore. it doesn't help that i've probably developed the most puzzling hyperfixation to wash over the mentally bent crowd this season. i'm so passionate and interested in bullshit that is so hard for normal people to even consider being good in any way, it all just looks and sounds the same for them and every single time i get carried away and get so excited to share it i regret it with all of my fucking being. they don't even say anything rude but i can just taste the boredom and slight ire and i just feel all the more like i'm the only one who can find the good in the shit i enjoy. and in the same breath, there's people who actively are *into* the same thing but there's always something askew that stirs confusing feelings and i just have to duck away and subconsciously build up a wall like "you're interested in the thing i like but you're not like me at all, get the hell away from me." I don't WANT to be standoffish like that but my mind can't let me get close like that if things are off. honestly i might just be spoiled or maybe came up into all this social shit wrong in a way. i had a friend, the only person i'd call my best friend, way back for multiple years and they just. they treated me like i was so special all the time. whenever they made something for me it was *for me*, they didn't go and toss it out to the wolves; they made it specifically for me to make me happy; and of course i did the same for them! and they were almost always willing to talk about or engage with the stuff i became interested in, and i did likewise for them as well! but shit started changing, they started to step out into things the both of us always chided and made fun of or outright disliked (or at least i thought we both disliked); and i guess as a teen/kid i couldn't take it. Contact broke apart, conversations became quick, days went by with no words. they're back now, i can see them doing things; but they're not in my life; and infact i can see them doing the same thing they did with me with someone else who i've actively grown to dislike. this isn't even the thing that has me boiling over but it sits and stews in the back of my mind all the time. and this isn't even mentioning the deeply personal, private stuff that i can't get any kind of solace in either. I'm not right in all my feelings, thoughts, or perspectives here; i know that. It's just all how my fucking brain is taking everything and it's been fucking me up for a good while now. this rant isn't sorted out and i haven't sat on it to pick out every bit to make sense, it's all straight from the head right now. thanks for reading i suppose.

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yesterday brought forth an emotion i can't describe. i felt...lost? not sad, not even my usual anger, just. lost. like i'd been spending so much time doing something only for it to like. not matter anymore. or not have any kind of satisfying outcome. maybe that correlates directly to something i'm planning to put a cap on when the year ticks over but it was such an odd feeling to experience. i both could and couldn't feel anything else in terms of emotions. it was fascinating. i never want to feel that way ever again.

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Another Ressurrection; this time for Krauns, the Crossed King. I'm unsure what he's going to be used for, really. Initially i was thinking C.O. but there's another character in his spot.

His situation in C.O. is that he's a king of a lesser known country with a whole array of knights and all of that; as well as one very loyal one willing to carry out anything he likes. Upon hearing what Puff has planned for the world; he finally sheds his facade of being content with ruling a small paltry nation and instead wants to rule the whole world; and so he sends his army out to do so. But don't you sweat your head, he can also defend himself. Quite well, i might add.

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Resurrecting an old character. It's almost ironic that i forgot what i initially named him. But for now we'll call him "Curt", or more discreetly, "House Fly." Hitman/Assasin, not typically for hire as he already has a network he's partnered with, but if he sees the cause as just or within his personal interests he might just send you a quote.

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Finding himself in a forest of unnervingly blue and azure tones, adorned with glimmers and strange, cyan fruits hanging from the trees that could only be described as ‘plush’; Tez sets out to find whoever he can to explain this strange space. I feel proud of myself for garnering an idea from a song and then going out of my way to just slap together a quick anim thing for it. It’s not perfect and i’d definitely like it if i had more skill with it to make it look nicer, but it’s good that i was able to just do this on a whim instead of getting scared and sulking back down and only dreaming it over. 🎵 - Relucent, by Culprate

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I have a significantly more public art tumblr

https://neutralspecial.tumblr.com/ Enjoy perhaps. It’s mostly anything that isn’t about my personal character designs or stories; fanart and whatnot.

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Been a bit since i draw any of the guys, really. Here’s White using my totally not hedgehog inspired spin bounce. Kinda personal thing under the cut.

Little side note, though; This next coming year I’m gonna make a hard and concentrated effort to make more stuff for myself like this and just more ‘experimental’ and expressive art in general. If you know me you know i have a lot on my plate; but as this year ends I’ll be pairing a good portion of that down to focus on stuff i want to do for myself. It’s usually called a ‘work/life’ balance but with a good chunk of my hobby/”life” being work, i think it’s more of a priorities and time management thing. I feel like doing a big performance for a mass of people on my other pages has stunted my growth as an artist; and so i’m aiming to make up for lost time. I want to start enjoying making art and creating wholeheartedly again. I don’t think it’s selfish to say that i want to draw what i like and what i want; i’ve given up a good portion of myself for others for long enough and i think it’s time i start being myself again. Here’s hoping i can keep that willpower.

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‘warm-up’ sketch. Tried making some small but notable additions and changes here and there for him to make him look less Fresh Out The Gate. He’s been here for at least 5 years at this point, guy deserves some pizzazz.

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i do need to stop drawing the funny dog so often though; there *are* 7 other characters. well like, 30+ but you know.

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Grumli, Gnome and protector of the forest. on a stream with some friends i resurrected a centuries old character of mine that's in this limbo between my adult content and the Coin-op stuff; because the synopsis was that him (and his partner character, Leprus) are supposed to be this funny duo of gnome and leprechaun that live in the forest and walk out into civilization every now and again. Grum here doesn't know that much about civilization while Leprus knows everything. It'd definitely be adult themed but not in the totally dumb way. Just, majorly dumb. What puts them in Limbo is both their adult humor/tendencies and hijinks (especially Leprus), and the fact that they reside directly in the forest that parts/seperates the two universes; meaning they could show up at either. A little ridiculous, yes; but i think it could be fun. Also not to mention the fact that Grumli was raised by Biggus. But that’s a story for another decade.