Forever is a long time

This blog is my darkest place. I'm going through major depression. + I’m a terrible person. I’m in love with many different girls. Only going out with one of them and been faithful I swear. But. Can’t control it. I’m gay and emotionally unstable and still fighting borderline personality disorder

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So I fell in love with a girl here. We texted for 1 month. Then I realised it was a man. That person has 2000 followers on tumblr. Most of them are lesbians. There're two other girls in love with that "girl". I know they have sext messages. I know he receives pictures too. But he knows I know and I'm scared. I don't know what to do.

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Tumblr users: be careful who you trust here. Some people are very dangerous.

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I am back. Cause I've been betrayed by the most important person in my life. And this person follows every move I do on my real tumblr.

I'm crushed and I can't trust anyone anymore.

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Where exactly do you put your hands on somebody who hurts everywhere?

Charles D’Ambrosio, The Dead Fish Museum: Stories (via cultivate-solitude)

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Well. Lately it takes less and less time for people to realise I'm not that wonderful and to take distances. It probably means that I'm more myself and that I hide less. I'm less addicted to people that leave me too. Well ok. It is what it is. 

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I always got the impression that "When it rains" By Paramore, is about suicide. IDK why.

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It is very sad to me that some people are so intent on leaving their mark on the world that they don’t care if that mark is a scar.

John Green (via refluent)