Something Lost, Nothing Gained

I don't know who I am. (OOC: This is a Pokemon RP blog. It is intended as an ask blog where people use the ask feature to help this character figure out where they came from, why they can't remember anything, and how they got to where they are now.)

[forgettingsomething]

Oh, I forgot to mention, I came up with a name for myself. I've chosen to go by Poppy. Flowers are one of the few things I have from my life before so it just.. felt right.

[forgettingsomething]

Yes. Right. Posting. It's been so long. I've just been trying to figure things out. I think I have a decent grasp on the world. I had someone fly in to meet me, they saw my description and thought they knew who I was but they were wrong. Things have been hard. The more I try to remember the more a panic overtakes me. I've been having a lot of panic attacks actually. Vague memories of drifting alone are all that I've got now and I hate them. I hate the way they haunt me. I'm still staying at the Pokémon center, but I can tell I'm going to need to leave soon. Nurse Joy has been patient with me but I can't take up this room forever. She's been slowly pushing me towards independence too. She even suggested an emotional support Pokémon for my panic attacks. Not a bad idea and it's not bad that she's pushing me to do things for myself again. It's just scary..? I don't know where I'm going to go after this. I don't really know where to turn to.

[forgettingsomething]

Hello! It seems like we are in a similar situation. Do you remember most things except for anything pertaining to yourself? That seems to be my issue. I wish there was more advice I could give you but I can't. I hope it helps to know that we are in a similar situation however! -from @ultrasplorer

Hello. Another one? I never could've guessed that not one, but two people would've found themselves in my position.

For me personally, I didn't remember anything at all, except language and actions. My muscle memory seems to have stayed. I'm relearning Pokemon right now and yesterday I started relearning geography.

I'm sorry that you lost everything pertaining to yourself. It's tough. It's really tough. At least we're not alone?

[forgettingsomething]

do you have any injuries? bruises on your head? cuts and/or scrapes?

No bruises on my head, though it does hurt really bad. I had a couple of small abrasions on my body, probably from twigs when I fell through the treeline and there are bruises on my knuckles. There's also a couple of weird, circular marks on my shoulders.

[forgettingsomething]

Hello again, I am sorry to hear you're still troubled by your memory loss, though that is certainly to be expected.

You wished for something lighthearted, so I thought I might tell you about my Froakie, Ren. Since I had arrived, I've been working as a medical assistant for my professor at his lab, which leads me to see a lot of the Pokémon rescued here. This includes the starter Pokémon that are handed out to new trainers.

From the day Ren had come into our care, he'd been unable to find a suitable trainer. It felt as though he spent no more than a day with someone, before being returned to us for being uncooperative.

This is not uncommon to see, especially with younger Pokémon like him. So we would try to train him to be more receptive to his trainers, but he still kept being returned to us. He could not find a suitable home.

A few nights ago, the professor had asked me to take on a Pokémon of my choice. Both my current Pokémon had been given to me for other reasons, so he(the professor) wanted me to make a choice of my own. For awhile I hadn't a clue what to pick, I understand how to raise most Pokémon so my choices were fairly wide. But after Ren had been returned a final time, I had come to realize through talking with his former trainer, that he was afraid of battle.

It was not that he wasn't loyal, or didn't like his trainers, he just froze up when it came time to fight. It was then I decided to take Ren as my own, he shouldn't be forced to take part in a cycle that he didn't like.

Since then, he has grown quite close to me. He always follows where I go and sits with me while I work. I truly think he has become far happier now that the stress of fighting has been lifted from his shoulders, and is now thriving as my partner Pokémon. I hope that you might find a similar friend once you're on your feet once more, as our existence does not have to be one of solitary. I'm wishing you all the best. ( - @emikoemiko )

That is an adorable story. It makes me feel a lot better! I'm glad he had someone who really understood him, and it seems like he really understands you too. It's nice to know that I don't have to be alone if I don't want to be and that there's Pokemon out there that would have me. Give Ren all the pets for me.

[forgettingsomething]

here's a story i grew up with:

once upon a time, there was a young human, just like you or me. one night, while the human was sleeping, they had a very peculiar dream. they were in an ocean of shifting colors, and couldn't see their own body. a voice rang out through the air, clear and calming. something about it put the human at ease. after a brief series of questions regarding the human's nature, they fell back asleep, a vague promise or warning in their ears.

when the human woke up, they were no longer in their bed. they heard another voice, different but also kind, and felt paws trying to shake them awake. when the human opened their eyes, they were on a beach, with a pokémon looking over them, concerned. a pokémon that could speak! after a moment, the human ran to the water and checked their reflection. by some twist of fate, they too were a pokémon!

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it's a relatively long story, and there are a few different variations, but the human-turned-pokémon and their new friend become partners, and do their best to help others. throughout the journey, the human gets increasingly attached to this new world as well as their partner and- well, i won't deprive you of such incredible stories. make sure to read them if you ever get a chance.

Interesting beginning! I like this story. I'll make sure to check out the rest of it. Maybe it'll give me something else to think about. Actually, I'll check them out right now. I have nothing else to do. Thank you for the lighthearted story, I appreciate it. It touches me that you all are thinking of me.

[forgettingsomething]

Long day. I'm tired. So so tired. But I won't sleep. I know that already, judging by last night anyway. So let's recap my findings for the day. Someone saw me fall from a high height, I used to have something or someone in my life that helped me in some way, Nurse Joy is trying to make arrangements for me to leave the center, I had noodles (and proceeded to feel really nauseous afterwards), and I'm wearing a dress with Forget-Me-Nots on it. I want to be rid of it, to be honest. Nurse Joy is getting in a shipment of clothing for me. Nothing specific has come back yet. I know I need to give it time,, but I'm scared. I'm really scared. If you all could send little pleasantries- stories, questions, well wishes, in my asks or something I would really appreciate it.

Right now I'm studying geography, trying to figure out where everything is and what's going on in the world. I'll send an update later.

[forgettingsomething]

orchids? lavender?

I was browsing the pokemon center database and they're Forget-Me-Nots.

Thematically fitting, isnt it? I don't know if that's funny or just concerning. Did I know this was going to happen or...

Forget-Me-Nots are supposed to symbolize eternal love. Maybe there is someone out there looking for me?

[forgettingsomething]

I got noodles from the floating restaurant. Highly recommend to anyone passing through Poni Island.

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g------- is becom-----------s my last point of conta------------d. memo-------------------lease stay safe. my name is a---- st-y---w---don't ---ak.

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This is... disturbing. I will stay safe but I fear for you. I want to help but I don't know what to do.

[forgettingsomething]

what sort of flowers are on your dress?

I don't remember their names- I knew it once. That I can tell you. They are blue with some purple blended in. Their centers are a pale yellow and they have white bits surrounding them. They grow in little bunches. I like them a lot,,

[forgettingsomething]

I didn't sleep last night. I was so tired and I put my head down to rest but sleep never came. I wonder if this is the new normal for me? The fog in my head never cleared either. I still feel like I'm thinking through a wall of thick mist. Nurse Joy came to see me this morning. She asked me some more questions, trying to pull memories from me. The only thing I could remember was that I used to have someone or something that used to help me. I can't tell you what though. She's figuring out what to do with me. She didn't say it, but I felt it. I can't stay here forever and she's trying to make arrangements for me. Why else would she be on the phone so much? In other news, someone came to the Center this morning. They said that they had seen someone fall a long distance yesterday. Perhaps from a cliff, perhaps from the sky itself. When I met them, they recognized me as that person. I'm not sure what to do with this knowledge. The next few hours look to have nothing ahead. Maybe I will explore the town some more. Get some food. I'm not hungry but I should still eat, I think. I can answer questions though, things seem pretty slow around here. Should I post a picture of myself so you can all see what I look like? See if you know me?

[forgettingsomething]

Hello, I am Emiko. I believe you share a similar experience to mine.

Several months ago, I awoke with no recollection of who or where I was. No one was able to identify me, and that has still held true today. Small, very small, pieces have come back to me, but I can resonate with the fear you are holding.

You will be okay. This, I can be certain of. You were found, and you are safe. Do you have a name we might call you by, at least until you might recall yours? Were you found with any Pokémon?( - @emikoemiko )

Hello Emiko! I'm so glad to hear that someone shares a similar experience to mine. Maybe that's selfish. It's just nice to not be alone. It's scary to think that I might have lost whatever memories I may of had before and will only get tiny pieces of them back. But you're right. I am safe at least and I was found. I do not have a name yet. I will try to come up with something for ease of identification but I do not want to rush it. There were no Pokémon or belongings of any kind found with me. I hope they're not out there somewhere alone. Does that ever scare you? That your Pokémon- or your friends- or your family even- are just left alone? Wondering?

[emikoemiko]

It is not selfish at all. Our existence can be somewhat isolating, as it can be hard for others to comprehend.

Yes. It can be a horrifying thought, that you may have a life behind you even if you cannot recall it. If it's any consolation, I am certain they are safe as well. If you had Pokémon, they would've been taken in by your loved ones, and those loved ones must be searching for you. I hope it is only a matter of time until they find you.

You mentioned in a prior post that you are not from the region you are currently in. This was the same for me, though I am currently in Kalos rather than Alola. I almost wonder if our experiences may have some sort of connection, though what that connection is I am uncertain.

[forgettingsomething]

It is nice to be understood.

You're right about my loved ones. I guess the best I can do is wait and keep spreading the word about the fact that I am alive and here. I wonder if it'll hurt them if they find me like this. Will they grieve the me that they knew? Or am I still that me. I don't know. I think only I can decide that.

I do think there could be some connection but I don't know enough to say anything in particular. Whatever it may be, I think I should rest now. I am so tired.

[forgettingsomething]

Hello, I am Emiko. I believe you share a similar experience to mine.

Several months ago, I awoke with no recollection of who or where I was. No one was able to identify me, and that has still held true today. Small, very small, pieces have come back to me, but I can resonate with the fear you are holding.

You will be okay. This, I can be certain of. You were found, and you are safe. Do you have a name we might call you by, at least until you might recall yours? Were you found with any Pokémon?( - @emikoemiko )

Hello Emiko! I'm so glad to hear that someone shares a similar experience to mine. Maybe that's selfish. It's just nice to not be alone. It's scary to think that I might have lost whatever memories I may of had before and will only get tiny pieces of them back. But you're right. I am safe at least and I was found. I do not have a name yet. I will try to come up with something for ease of identification but I do not want to rush it. There were no Pokémon or belongings of any kind found with me. I hope they're not out there somewhere alone. Does that ever scare you? That your Pokémon- or your friends- or your family even- are just left alone? Wondering?

[forgettingsomething]

I’m belle. I have 8 Pokémon. I live in alola, but I’m currently on a trip to ikoni right now. I love my friends, my team is like a family to me. The world is wonderful and full of amazing beautiful things. There is good out here. You just have to let yourself find it.

Hello Belle! I like your name. 8 Pokémon? That's very cool, if not daunting. I'm glad your team is like a family. I wonder... Yes. Good. Kent was good, I think. I think Nurse Joy seems good. As foggy as my head is, I see the good in the world. I also feel the bad though. This daunting, unending nothing that plays in my mind when I am not thinking. It feels like going away. Like floating... Thank you for your time. I am lonely and I think I am scared too, though this mist in my mind makes it hard to tell what I am feeling.

[forgettingsomething]

My name is --------- and I'm a trainer from kalos. my partner is a-------------------------------------------------yms across the region! I'm not sure that you know what that is, but I--------------ce

Are you okay? Am I supposed to be typing like this? Let me try. I------------------- center ----------- from ???? --------h

[forgettingsomething]

She asked me if I was okay. I said I didn't really know. She asked me where I came from. I just shook my head. She asked me for a name. I couldn't come up with my own name. Then she got me a wheelchair and I followed her into the back. A quick facial scan revealed that I have never been registered as a trainer, nor in Alola at all. This is.. troubling.

She is letting me stay for the night in a small room above the main hall of the center. Right now I can see her through the window of the door, calling someone. I'm tired. I don't know why- I just woke up. But I am so tired. I don't want to answer any more questions. But I do want to hear things. Tell me about your days. Your lives. Who you are.