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andreaharriscn:

“i’m fine,” andrea said quickly as she walked through alexandria, her face stinging from the run-in she’d had on the outside. “no bites, no major injuries, no stress.”

“Are you sure?” She asks, raising her brows. They had known each other from their time in Woodbury. Another toxic place ran by a selfish leader, much like the Sanctuary. Sasha was still ashamed of having been there in the first place. The Governor had killed Maggie’s father, and not long before that, Hershel went out of his way to save Sasha from a highly contagious and deadly illness. No one wanted to be associated with such power hungry men. “You look rough, Andrea.” Sasha doesn’t mean it as insult. “Come on. Let me clean you up, at least.”

#( ᴀɴᴅʀᴇᴀʜᴀʀʀɪꜱᴄɴ. )

justsvrvivesomehow:

“nothing good,” she said quietly, “except aaron and eric are raising a baby now though.” she said quickly, frowning a little.

A small smile forms on her face. “That’s good, for them.” Most of the time, she seemed hard on the outside. But she wasn’t. She loved Aaron and Eric, she loved everyone in Alexandria. Even those she didn’t really know yet. Now that she was back home, she’d have to really get to know everyone. “I heard Gregory’s dead. That’s good.” The man was a selfish creep. And was now one less thing for Maggie to be stressed out about.

#( ᴊᴜꜱᴛꜱᴠʀᴠɪᴠᴇꜱᴏᴍᴇʜᴏᴡ. )

rcsitvs:

“we did great until you got taken,” she commented quickly, a frown etching itself into her face. “you just escaped. daryl risked his life to get you back here. dwight risked his to let us know you were taken. don’t make all that worth shit by just going back out there.”

“You know I marched in there all on my own.” The woman sighs, filled with regret. They should have never gone on a suicide mission. There were both lucky to still be alive. Negan was, surprisingly, a difficult man to kill. And if either of them had died, all that would have done was pain their family. “I’ll keep my face hidden. No one will know it’s me. I’ll cover the bottom half of my face with one of Daryl’s bandannas. I’m not losing you, Rosita.”

#( ʀᴄꜱɪᴛᴠꜱ. )

eycless:

“shit. you’re really alive?” carl’s eye widened as he looked to sasha, a small smile forming. “i’m glad. maggie was worried. we all were.” he moved over to sasha, awkwardly, because part of him wondered if he should hug her but he decided against it. “you okay?”

@formerfirefighter

“Watch your mouth, Carl.” Sasha laughed, clearly teasing. She couldn’t believe how much he had grown since she’d met him. He was starting to look more like a man than a boy, now. He was like a brother, or even a nephew, to her. “I could never just leave you guys. Not for good. I’d never want to.” She had heard of Carl sneaking into the Sanctuary, once or twice. Which hit too close to home. She didn’t want him to fall victim to Negan, too. “Yeah,” She nods, “I’m good.” She could tell he wanted to hug her, and she pulled him into her embrace. “Hope you’ve been helping take care of Maggie. Enid couldn’t have done it all on her own.” A pause. “Well, I mean, she could’ve. She’s great at multitasking.”

#( ᴇʏᴄʟᴇꜱꜱ. )

ncthoney:

“maybe you’re right.” she sighed, calming down a fair amount. she seemed to be going back and forth between sadness and anger when it came to mourning, and she knew it wasn’t a good thing to be doing for the baby, hence why she tried to fight it. occasionally, she failed. “i missed you.” she sniffled, slowly getting back on her feet and moving to pull sasha into a hug. “we all did. we feared the worst.”

Maggie’s anger was understandable. Obviously, Sasha held the same anger in her own heart. Trying to mourn without being angry was impossible. Right now, though, Maggie and Glenn’s baby was the priority. She hugs Maggie tight, hoping Maggie knew how much Sasha truly missed her. “I missed you too, Maggie. Thought about you everyday.” Everything Sasha did was for Rick’s group, but primarily for Maggie. Maggie would always remain her best friend. “I’m not leaving you any time soon. I can promise you that. I’m not going anywhere.”

#( ɴᴄᴛʜᴏɴᴇʏ. )

rcsitvs:

rosita glanced up at sasha. she took sasha’s laugh as a sign that rosita had picked her correctly and truthfully, rosita was sure she’d had. as angry as she’d been with sasha before, she did care about her. “how is you going out there safer? you just escaped the sanctuary. that’s stupid.”

“It’s safer with both of us, not just you.” There still wasn’t a chance that Sasha would let Rosita go out there by herself. They couldn’t take risks that were too big. “We did great together before. Please. I don’t even have to help, just let me tag along.”

#( ʀᴄꜱɪᴛᴠꜱ. )

justsvrvivesomehow:

enid was relieved when sasha hugged her. she had wanted to hug the older woman, but wasn’t sure whether that would be crossing some invisible boundary she wasn’t meant to be crossing. she swallowed hard and then half smiled. “i don’t know what to say. i’ve been trying to calm her down, even acting as leader after we lost glenn, but…”

She sighs, but her expression is still hopeful. “We’ll figure it out.” She says, with confidence. “What all have I missed?”

#( ᴊᴜꜱᴛꜱᴠʀᴠɪᴠᴇꜱᴏᴍᴇʜᴏᴡ. )

justsvrvivesomehow:

“i– i heard you were here.” enid slowed a little as she got closer to sasha, as if unsure how to approach the woman, whether she wouldn’t want enid to be presumptuous with her affection. but enid wanted to hug her. she swallowed hard. “i wanted to see you.”

( @formerfirefighter )

Seeing Enid again was a relief. Knowing the younger girl was alive, and was there for Maggie when Sasha couldn’t be. That meant the world. “I wanted to see you, too.” She says, giving Enid a warm smile. “Thank you, for taking care of Maggie when I couldn’t.” Sasha then pulled Enid into a hug. “She’s hellbent on revenge, though. I’m sure you’ve noticed. It’s not healthy. It wasn’t healthy for me, and it’s even unhealthier for her. She does something stupid, and she’s risking her baby. Glenn’s baby.”

#( ᴊᴜꜱᴛꜱᴠʀᴠɪᴠᴇꜱᴏᴍᴇʜᴏᴡ. )

rcsitvs:

“listen, i know what you’re going to say,” or at least, she thought she did as she heard someone approach her. the same talk she always got. “i know, i was shot, i shouldn’t be going outside alone, blah blah blah. i know… but i have to, alright? i can’t just sit here. i won’t do anything to jeopardise us. i’m past that.”

( @formerfirefighter )

Given their background, Sasha couldn’t help being protective of the other woman. Not wanting either of them to risk their lives any further... despite being involved in a war. They kept an eye on one another, making sure the other wouldn’t do anything risky. Rosita looked like she was going to head out, so Sasha followed. Sasha laughs at Rosita’s prediction of what she was going to say... which was entirely correct. “Let me go with you, then. You’ll be safer with someone by your side. Even if you don’t believe it. I’m not letting you go out there alone.”

#( ʀᴄɪᴛᴠꜱ. )

ncthoney

“i told myself that i wouldn’t lose glenn. he was doing so well.” maggie sobbed as she pulled sasha into a tight hug, now crying into her shoulder. “no,” she shook her head, pulling away to look at her. “i have to. it has to be me. he took a father away from a child. it’s his fault and i’ll make him pay for it.” her hand was tightly gripping sasha’s shirt, as if she was holding on for dear life. “if it isn’t me, it should be you.”

Sasha raises her eyebrows at Maggie’s response. The yearning for revenge... it was normal. But it was also what nearly got Sasha killed, running into the Sanctuary with guns and without fear. “It’s not gonna be you.” She replies, sternly. Maggie had to think of the baby, not of wanting Negan’s head on a pike. “If it’s not gonna be Rick, it’ll be Rosita. Negan’s probably taken more from her than he’s taken from anyone else.” And that was excluding those who suffered within the Sanctuary. As much as Sasha wanted to take her shot, she wasn’t going to. It wasn’t her move to make anymore.

#( ɴᴄᴛʜᴏɴᴇʏ. )

(... continued with @ncthoney.)

Sasha wasn’t leaving Maggie, not yet. She still had to keep her safe, as she promised. She presumed long ago that Glenn probably hadn’t made it through. If he had, he never would’ve been the same. Surviving something like that? The odds were slim. It didn’t matter how strong you were, as a person. At least Sasha was here now, to help Maggie through her loss. They experienced similar losses, so close together. Like they were meant to be drawn to one another. “I know, but you haven’t lost me. And you won’t.” She sighed, patting Maggie’s back. “I’m sorry.” She didn’t even want to mention the time she’d spent by Negan’s side, and she wouldn’t. “At the end of all this, we’ll win. Rick will kill him, and we’ll go back to living life as we should have been.”

#( ɴᴄᴛʜᴏɴᴇʏ. )

afleetinglife

… and the more hurt she gets, the more venomous she grows.

Emily Brontë, Wuthering Heights

#( ᴍᴜꜱɪɴɢꜱ. )

do you blame rosita for what happened to you?

“Of course not, that was never her fault. How the hell could I blame her? I locked her out. I didn’t want her going in there, ‘cause I knew she wouldn’t come out alive. I had her back. Just like I told her I would.”