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Just a torture clone born in a UFO

[fortunesys]

🌟 Personal blog for a morose plural

🍀 Collectively; Fortune, He/Him, 20+

✨ Yelling into the void w/ my personal thoughts, feelings, art, and all that

⚠️ Lots of vent posts, dark topics, I don’t censor myself here ⚠️

🚫 Please do not use or repost my art 🚫

Current Host: Kiyo🥀🩹

🍎 Polyfragmented DID system (I prefer to call myself just plural tho)

💤 Frequent fronters change often and not everyone wants to post here

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[sevaria]

WE ARE NOT HAVING SEX

[les-fleur]

[fortunesys]

i just don’t get how people manage to be social and do good all the time when there’s so much that goes into it. you have to respond in time, with the right words, and the right amount of words, and say it the right way, and do the right thing, or else you’re just weird and unpleasant and nobody will want to be around you. and you have to do that with every single person you want to keep in your life, at least semi frequently, or they start to think you hate them or don’t think about them or don’t really care about them.

i fear that i’m just a grand failure of a friend, even when i try my best, i am just burdensome and bad and the things i do and say give people ideas that i don’t mean for them to. and it’s nobody’s fault but my own, really, but it still makes me really upset every time i fail.

it’s all too much to the point i again find myself questioning if i really deserve to have friends. everyone around me is truly so great in my eyes, i admire them all so much and appreciate so deeply that they put up with me and even do stuff like spend their time with me, or think of me, or do things for me. but wouldn’t that love be better spent on someone worthwhile? anything i can do or say in return is not good enough. i can’t do anything to make up for the fact that it’s coming from me, that i’m me, and that i can’t truly repay anyone for the nice things they do for me, because i’m just not good enough. maybe it would really be best for everyone if i was gone

i feel so selfish for everything i do

[fortunesys]

i don’t know if i can ever measure up to the better people of the world, even with all my effort, i’m still just me

[fortunesys]

i feel bad for anyone who has to deal with me for even a little bit of time

[strangledplanet]

[pup-purgatory]

via

[paper-wounds]

via

[leathersys]

[witchrealms]

(x)

[lonelysummerbreeze]

2011

[fortunesys]

my death will be just as insignificant and meaningless as my life

[pup-purgatory]

[fortunesys]

i fucking do everything i’m supposed to and it’s still not good enough it’s NEVER fucking good enough there is ALWAYS something BAD about me and yet no one cares to explain what’s so wrong with me compared to everyone else in the world that they ACTUALLY love

[fortunesys]

it pisses me off that bad behavior is often rewarded

[esorrevlis]

it shouldnt be this impossible to just feel loved and accepted