☘︎ 𝐋𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐘, in theory ── 22, infj, she/her, queer lit student. not a femme, not a masc, but a secret third thing. arcane fanatic & redbull enthusiast. minors do not interact.
this is going to sound so fucking dumb but can anybody tell me if service top/power bottom are queer-only terms the way pillow princess is before i lose my mind. like i’m so deadass i didn’t write anything hetero in like a decade so what the fuck do i do now. not sure if i can trust my research.
this is going to sound so fucking dumb but can anybody tell me if service top/power bottom are queer-only terms the way pillow princess is before i lose my mind. like i’m so deadass i didn’t write anything hetero in like a decade so what the fuck do i do now. not sure if i can trust my research.
hii! do you do creative writing outside of fanfics? would you ever write a novel?
hi hi hi, i do actually!! though lately i’ve been more focused on reading rather than writing :) publishing a novel is actually a dream of mine, which i really hope i can achieve one day. i’ve had the plot in mind for years now, exploring queerness and mental health through a wlw relationship… but with a twist
holy fucking shit i’m in the middle of writing the best angst of my entire life thus far and it’s not even arcane-related. chat do i drop a snippet nonetheless quick yes or no.
holy fucking shit i’m in the middle of writing the best angst of my entire life thus far and it’s not even arcane-related. chat do i drop a snippet nonetheless quick yes or no.
Lucky this will sound super duper stupid and immature but for the sake of the story I need to clarify that I am indeed over 18 years of age and am a sophomore in college(not fun I’m so grateful it’s summer break).
Okay, here’s my question:
Despite my age I never had sex yet. I just feel like it’s such an intimate thing that needs to be done not just as a fling but seriously with someone who cares for me and loves me and doesn’t see me simply as a pocket pussy or something like that. Also the fact that I struggled with over coming comphet many times before accepting I like girls more than men didn’t help me with settling down and having sex either. I’ve touched myself, and I read the most insane smut lowkey. I have a freaking vibrator. But other than that, I’ve never truly experienced neither sex with a boy or a girl. A few days ago, I had a girl at my dorm who I REALLY like(like crazy in love) and we started making out, but before she could even take my panties off I freaked out at the thought of having something up my hoo haa and told her not today(not my proudest moment.) Now, this might be seen as a personal question that you can ignore and just enjoy the small life story about sex instead, but I seriously always wanted to know how it actually feels like to have sex, either genders. Another thing that holds me back is my fear of it being painful, or embarrassing in some way in terms of my body.
Thank you lucky and I’m really sorry once again for this💔💔💔
hi nonnie 💕 first of all i just wanna say what you probably heard already but you WILL hear it from me too regardless: it’s not a race!!! nor is it embarrassing to be over 18 without having that first experience just yet (or ever).
it’s not embarrassing to suddenly backtrack either, and you never have to do anything you’re not comfortable with. i myself freaked out so many times before actually losing my virginity, and there’s nothing shameful about that. listen to your body and go at your own pace first and foremost.
personally, my first sexual experiences weren’t all that great, but that’s because i was 15-16 and desperate to feel grown. i also just chose the wrong person to give myself to, so i have a lot of those memories repressed. but the second person turned all of that around. i found out what actual pleasure can feel like without being uncomfortable, ignored, or disrespected for their benefit. i think having your first experience can be a little weird at first because, well… it is something new and vulnerable. but in no way should it actually be painful with the “right” person.
when it comes to embarrassment, what helps is remembering that they’re doing this with you. they’re in that same exact vulnerable state and choosing to share that moment regardless. i think there’s something beautiful about that. they won’t see what you’re insecure about or pick you apart, because the right person genuinely doesn’t care about that. they might just love what you personally don’t like about yourself. honestly i would tell you to just communicate with the girl you like. be upfront. if you don’t feel ready just yet, don’t force yourself to go through with anything because you’re under no obligation to do so.
i hope i was at least a little bit helpful 😭 i also hope everything turns out well with the girl you like, and good luck with your studies nonnie!!! enjoy the summer for now tho 🫶
lol flashing anon , well we were on a zoom date (haha it was covid) and I thought I turned off the camera but hadn’t and I wasn’t wearing any pants . She took it in great stride and we became friends .
honestly all’s well that ends well. thankfully she didn’t make you feel bad about it, that’d just be rubbing salt in the wound 😭
but zoom…. haven’t heard that name in a long time… 🚬
test your new bikini bottoms BEFORE wearing them out or else you’ll accidentally flash your pussy to your best friend and she’ll say “your flap just winked at me”
for the past few weeks i’ve been having a serious internal debate about whether i wanted to turn this into a multi-fandom blog or keep it focused on arcane (everyone quick ignore the potential Ellie Williams section in my masterlist). for a while, i really thought about expanding this space. but the more i considered it, the more i realized that (1) i am far too attached to what fortunxa has become, and (2) i would absolutely lose my mind trying to reorganize two years’ worth of aesthetics and tags.
so instead, i’ve decided to make a separate jujutsu kaisen blog! i want it to be a proper fresh start—not a side blog, but a completely blank canvas where i can indulge in a new interest without feeling like i’m dismantling an old one. i’ll admit that i’m a little nervous about it because starting over is weird. putting yourself out there in a new fandom is weird. wondering if you’ll actually find your people there is also weird. but i think i’d regret not trying more than i’d regret trying and failing, so i’m letting myself be excited! #yolo
that being said, i am absolutely not abandoning this blog. i know i’ve been a bit absent lately because of exams, and then i made the oh so very difficult decision of enjoying the summertime, but i’m still here!
anyway… meet @satoriee 💕 for those interested—or those willing to hold my clammy hand while i venture into uncharted territory—you’ll find me over there!! please clap. gulp.
what have been some highlights of your summer so far or things you’re looking forward to? ✨ this year has been my enemy so far, so I’m happy to hear about someone thriving lol
trust me, the beginning of this year was also a nightmare for me but don’t lose hope 😖 you know what zara larsson said, summer isn’t over yet 😼 nor is the year for that matter.
i’ve honestly just been spending a lot of time outside, mostly with my best friend and her bf because we’re never beating the polycule allegations (she’s the shared gf btw). lakes, pools… will have a proper night out soon too 😛 also finally locked in and grew out my bangs bc there’s no way i’m letting anything touch my forehead in this heat—curtain bangs we’re sooo back. AND i’m visiting my home country soon too, which is a relief because nostalgia has been eating me alive (it’s been a few years since i last visited)
call me bob the way i build. i either do this, tame animals, or fuck around with villagers. i will also (more often than not) get lost because i get sidetracked really easily while looking for flowers. i WISH i could show u my builds because i built a whole witch tower once and a pumpkin patch house/cottage for halloween but the save got deleted ☹️
nothing specific,i just wanted to tell you that i genuinely think your mind is brilliant and so wonderfully unique in a way i've honestly never seen before. i'm lowkey offended that i only found your blog recently because it's already my favorite lol.
i can literally feel every emotion you're trying to convey through your writing,and it inspired me so much that i actually even started reading again!! i love reading,but sometimes i let my routine (and my laziness😭) get the best of me,and i end up forgetting about that habit 💔
also.. you've somehow made me fall even more in love with jinx,i absolutely ADORE the way you write her and i lovee all the scenarios.
anywayss i hope you keep coming up with more incredible ideas,and i really hope you're doing well!! 🩷
ps: sorry if i accidentally invented a new sentence structure 🫥 english isn't my first language
thank you so so SO much for your message nonnie, it actually made my day when i read it 🫂🩷 there’s no better feeling as a writer than being able to tell a story that truly affects your readers in some way. it’s all i can focus on as i’m writing. and i totally get you with the lazy part, because i myself have soooo many books i have yet to read (praise of folly i’m coming for you.) because i just end up doomscrolling instead WE ARE BOTH LOCKING IN IN THAT ASPECT!!!
and i’m doing exceptionally well this summer, i won’t lie. it’s been a while since i felt that light, so i’m wishing the same for you!! don’t worry about structure, english isn’t my first language either but i didn’t notice anything out of the ordinary :p
Tell my attention span to grow the fuck up so I can read this piece of art finally. I’ve spent too long looking at the beauty of it and I still haven’t let myself be blessed by its writing that I know is amazing. I beg of you. 🙏🙏🙏
actually telling your attention span to lock the fuck in because i AM very proud of that fic to this day PLEASE BRO PLEASE 😖😖😖 it was a delight to write. genuinely.
and thank you for the kind words merri you’re the sweetest 💕
