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18 . he/she v corp's fourth kindred horse racing, literature, and project moon enthusiast

[fourthkindred]

i might purge a lot of my posts soon! this is to clean up my account in preparation for turning it into a full-fledged art account :heart:

[ratbuchet]

bloodbath roland

[fourthkindred]

so many friends but i always feel alone

[fourthkindred]

ive been feeling really hopeless and im not sure anyone actually enjoys me anymore... im an obligation...

frowns

im so tired i want to go to sleep forever because sleep is better than being a dog

ill try my best to update the LCR blog later today... asks for that blog are always appreciated :'J makes me feel like people care

[fourthkindred]

ive been increasingly inactive due to my mental health but heres a cat

[fourthkindred]

my anxiety is getting really awful but i cant shake the lingering feeling that everyone is against me and hates me oughhhh i hate the human concious :( i wish i wasnt human

[fourthkindred]

@donplush go follow!!!

[fourthkindred]

ill be making a sideblog for don plush

[bwuego]

4got to post this here

[fourthkindred]

I REPOSTED FANARTON THE WRONG BLOG HAHAHA IMGONAN KMS

[fourthkindred]

sometimes i wish people were more invested in my sideblogs lore and asking questions and shit so i can Autism Loredump Yap about it but then i have to remind myself im doing this for the love of the game and the blog is a gimmick blog used to tell a story in a non-linear format because i really hate writing traditional stuff via ao3

[tall]

[fourthkindred]

purple guy fnaf

[fourthkindred]

current act order for the lcr sideblog is uhm

act 1 : doomed yaoi act 2 : doomed hetgem act 3 : existential crisis act 4: doomed yaoi (n corp edition)

[fourthkindred]

my ass did NOT sleep well last night because why did i have to take off my shirt and THEN blast a fan just to get some semblance of rest at 2am with school starting at 6am

BROTHA

[fourthkindred]

i hate having anxiety and paranoia because i have the irrational fear that everyone hates me and everyones conspiring against me and things along those lines

and you know what? they wouldn't even be wrong im very hateable i dont think im a good person.

whatever its whatever im going to take a nap.

[definitelynotdistorter]

Have a good nap

But you aren't a hateable person :(

You're literally cool

[fourthkindred]

not really ive done some heinous things! like.. being of french descent! gross!/jokes

but i feel my friend group despises me for making my thoughts and concerns about an ex mutual friend known.

it needed to be done though so im fine with the consequences

i hope my dreams are full of sheep

[divine-ungeziefer]

your dreams will be drawn with sheep. also what the fuck is that image am scared

[fourthkindred]

screw ayin

[fourthkindred]

half the time i just want to drop off the face of the internet :'/