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i'm going to be on kole for a bit today, then probably reply on stiles later on. i'm also studying a bit too tho, i have a lot to do... anyway. please contact me on bulletcurved the rest of the day.
bulletcurved:
ind. oc assassin, kol druimein ⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ private, selective, mutuals only.
im in a pretty weird mood today so i apologize if i'm being selective or off and on with activity -- i didn't get much sleep and i'm kind of in the mood to just nap and shove my face with food. i’m still really down to plot out future things, though, so contact me if you’d like a thread anytime soon.
hartbled:
it takes everything within her not to crumble at the sight of him like this. this boy, who’s given her everything she thought was only possible in her old daydreams, is suffering for her mistakes. she has betrayed him –– and he looks so lost; so weak. it’s all because of her. it’s all her fault. ❛ my dad is a dealer. ❜ she cannot take her eyes off of him when those words slip out of her mouth ; ––– with no filter or attempt to sugarcoat them; with no buildup or careful way to get into the subject. ❛ he’s one of the most wanted men around ––– and i’ve been working for him. ––––––––– a couple of months ago, your father started an investigation to catch him, and i was specifically sent to get that information through you. ❜ she pauses there, the guilt spreading over her chest like ink poured into a glass of water. there is a frown on her face, one that reveals that she has come to accept what’s about to happen; that she’s about to lose him. for good.
–––––––– there is a thick swallow when tears begin to coat her vision. she attempts to find the strength to keep a solid voice. ❛ i never planned to–––– i never thought i’d like you this much… ❜ it sounds pathetic; she feels pathetic, but it’s true. he completely stole her heart with those warm, amber eyes and heart-swelling smiles. –– he gave her comforting, safe hugs and it felt nice. it felt good to be loved like that. the small, empty pats on the shoulder her father would give her for filling his pockets with money couldn’t compare. ❛ no one has been so nice to me before ––– ❜ and that’s probably for a good reason. she doesn’t deserve to be loved. she’s a murderer, a liar. a tool. there is a long silence before she speaks again. this time, determination is evident in her voice. ❛ i know you never want to see me again after this ––- i know you must hate me. but you have to come with me until i can fix this. my dad is after you, and he won’t stop until you’re dead. ❜
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ the information pouring from her lips is shocking, to say the least. he listens intently, each syllable a dagger in his chest. she hadn’t started talking to him because she liked him -- she’d started because her father had directed her to. everything he had thought he knew, every moment where he had thanked a god he didn’t really believe in before ⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ all of that gratitude & she had been sent by the devil. what was worse was that when she started to cry, it was him that felt guilty for showing his pain. he didn’t want her to feel hurt because of him. it wasn’t logical that she would be more loyal to a stranger over her father. ❛ i don’t hate you. ❜ he’s quick to respond -- in fact, it’s the most important thing he needs to respond. it’s painfully obvious that he feels just the opposite, which is the only reason that this is killing him. a cynical smile eases its way onto his features, accompanied by a scoff. he can’t look at her, his timbre so low it’s barely audible to himself. ❛ i’ve loved you since the beginning, ❜ that word falters, a crack running through it. he sounds pathetic and vulnerable, but he won’t let his pride get in the way of being honest. it’s only then; when he has said what he feels needs to be conveyed, that reality hits him like a semi truck. he still doesn’t look up, her voice repeating in his head once -- twice... three, four, five .... he won’t stop until you’re dead. his breathing increases, the panic settling in. suddenly the room is smaller, the predicament he’s in grabbing him by the throat and cutting off his air. he swallows thickly, attempting to breathe -- but it’s evident that this small task is becoming more and more of a struggle each second. he was going to die. salted liquid pools in his eyes, shaking hands searching around him for something -- anything at all. he can’t hold her, not now. ❛ my dad, my ... ❜ was his dad even alive? was he okay? he couldn’t lose his mom and his dad. he couldn’t lose them both.
fieldsmedcl:
lydia shut her eyes at his touch. a simple hand holding and a light squeeze was what could calm her down. who would’ve thought. she didn’t need anything special to keep her anxiety from sky rocketing through the roof. just —- the human touch. she took a deep breath and opened her eyes. are you okay? it wasn’t the best question to ask because she didn’t know if she was okay. she didn’t know if she was STILL DREAMING and would wake up half dead in eichen again. she didn’t want him to worry about her, so she plastered on a simple smile, as convincingly as she could, and responded ❛ me? i’m fine. i’m always fine. this whole thing’s given me a chance to —-… try out new hairstyles. ❜
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ he pressed his mouth into a thin line at her words, her hair comment the typical form of lydia’s optimism. ❛ your hair looks really nice, ❜ he’s trying to make her feel better in any way he can, hoping that he’s not overdoing it. he doesn’t want to upset her, doesn’t want to anger her and urge her to leave. his thumb grazes over her own about once or twice, severing the contact before leaning back in his chair. ❛ i’m not sure that either of us would benefit from caffeine right now, ❜ his foot is tapping to prove it, energy surging through his form regardless of the lack of sleep he’s been getting. ❛ do you need anything, though? i’ll go get it. really, anything. you could ask for ... one of those huge stuffed bears, i’d get it. it’s not a problem. ❜
hartbled:
never did she expect to go back to the girl her mother raised her to be. then again, was she ever anything close to who her mother wanted her to be ? she doesn’t know ––– doesn’t want to know. ( the answer might scatter the crumbles of what’s left of her heart ) her father taught her to divide her emotions from herself; taught her how to load guns and use her innocent demeanor to her advantage. and for a good while she did , she used herself for the bags of money her father never seemed to get enough of. then stiles came along, and everything she stood for crashed around her. she stopped caring about her father’s filthy business. stopped allowing herself to be a puppet for his benefit.
–––––––– the apartment is not the safest place for them to be, but it’s not permanent. soon enough she’ll find a safer place. ( she has to ) her dad is looking for her; and if elie knows a thing or two about her father, it is that going against him has consequences . she was supposed to deliver stiles right after she drugged him; but instead, he’s taken to an old apartment outside of town. elie knows her dad is on her trail, knows that they have to leave soon. which is why she has spent the last few hours seated by the window, observing and searching for the slightest threat , all while stiles lay unconscious on the bed nearby.
drugging him was her only chance to run things smoother. he’d never come with her or believe her until it would be too late ( and there is no way that she would allow something petty like his arrogance get him killed ) she did what she had to do –––– that’s what she tells herself, at least. her head whips to the side when he calls her name; the window forgotten when she slowly makes her way towards the bed ( guilt and shame evident in her hesitation ).
god, how does she explain this now ? she only has one chance to convince him to follow the plan, and she really doesn’t want to lie to him again. ❛ are you okay ––– -? ❜ okay ? stupid, stupid, stupid ! you drugged him, how can he possibly be okay ? ❛ i––––i mean, do you want some water ? i could–––– . . ❜ she hesitates, but sits by the bedside almost a little too quickly ( unable to hide her concern for him ), she wants to hold his hand, but something tells her she doesn’t have the right to. not after all this.
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ it becomes clear to him that he’s laying on a bed, the fabric of the comforter beneath his grip. his fingers dig into the material so he can better steady himself, the strong hold allowing him to push himself up slowly. he’s flinching away only slightly when she approaches him -- he can’t help it; his anxiety is at an all time high, the lingering sting of betrayal still urging pangs of pain straight through his chest. there’s a heavy feeling there too, a weight that makes it hard to breathe. he doesn’t answer her. he can’t seem to piece together the words, can’t seem to string together a proper sentence or a response that would express his confusion, his despair. he looks down at his hands, his expression conveying only a fraction of the emotions pulsing through him. he examines his fingers as if they’re the most interesting thing in the world, his head pounding, vision still not completely clear. his tongue feels heavy, but he wants to say something -- anything at all. ❛ what’s going on, elie? ❜ there had been many times where stiles had been scared, paranoid and fearful for his life just because his dad had such a high position alone. he had sent crooks with angry sons to jail ( their sons as well, ) and he had been threatened time and time again. he was proud of his dad for protecting beacon hills, but the desire to lock his door and windows every night to avoid personal vendettas had made being weary a permanent element of his personality. he wondered if this had something to do with that, if someone in elie’s family had been put away because of his dad ⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ still, it didn’t make any sense. elie didn’t seem capable of doing anything to hurt him. she was sweet, soft. what had he missed?
i don’t have class today, which means i have time to be active here on stilinski. BUT i don’t know what kind of bullshit my friends are going to convince me to do today, so we’ll see. my activity might be spotty. feel free to message me for plots ( especially new followers. )
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hartbled:
it wasn’t supposed to go down like this. ––––––– this was all supposed to be another eye-roll of a mission, another guy to trick into bed solely for information . what went wrong with this one ? she’s completely and utterly in love with him, and she knows that her father won’t be pleased about it. at all. her time is running out, he’s waiting for her to captivate the boy, to use him as a bait to lure his father in. the sheriff. but elie can’t do that. she can’t bring herself to do something like that to him or his father. whatever she lost at one point, whatever purity and warmth she once had, she found again in stiles.
she takes the glass from him; a frown decorating her features as she gently guides him back to rest against the couch. her face inches closer, hands settling on each side of his face as she watches him –––– there is so much she wants to say, but she can’t. the future is not a mystery to her; she knows that she’ll lose him for good once the truth is out. but as of now ––––– she needs to save his life. ❛ i’m so sorry, stiles … ❜ her voice is barely louder than a whisper, thumbs brushing over his skin while she watches him with a frown.
the sight of him in this state too hard for her to witness. elie turns her head to the side, blinking away the tears coating her vision while her hands rub soothing motions over his skin, guiding him into sleep. ❛ i’m so sorry … ❜ another whisper. her eyes fall shut , tears managing to fall down her cheeks ––– but she keeps her head turned away from him. unable to witness him like this, unable to witness her own betrayal.
this was just .. this wasn't right. he isn’t strong enough, isn’t capable of pushing her away or attempting to crawl to the door. he won’t leave her, so he sits when she directs him back down. there were things she hadn’t told him, important things. he could see it in her emerald irises, registered that they were pooling with pain and regret. why was she doing this? what was going to happen -- oh, god. what was going to happen to him?? ❛ what are you doing to me? ❜ he meant it in more ways than one. she had taken his heart into the delicate palm of her porcelain hand and squeezed, tattooed her scent and how his name sounded with her lips wrapped around it in his mind. he had been addicted to her, useless and incapable of seeing anything other that purity and truth within her eyes. ❛ you... ❜
he can’t be mad, not when there are tears building in her lashes. he was a fool, and he was entirely her fool regardless of the drugs she had given him to make him this tired. fuck, he wants to sleep and he wants to sleep NOW. so he does.
time lapse ⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ his head is pounding when he wakes up. he feels like he had just consumed a whole fifth of vodka and neglected to eat or drink any water, or maybe like he had been hit by a freight train. he is disoriented, unsure of where he is, of what is going on. all he knows is that he wants to see her. it’s his first thought, his eyes searching for her, voice broken and graveled when it absconds from the back of his throat. ❛ elie? where... ❜
fieldsmedcl:
was she okay? physically? slightly. mentally? not at all. getting holes in one’s head can really take a toll on a girl, but she was powering through. a lot happened to her in eichen and she wanted to repress it all, but there was no guarantee that she could ever come back from this better & normal again. her fingers tapped ever so gently on the wooden table beneath her as her eyes stared at an irrelevant spot on the floor, causing her to stare out into space. when she saw a figure sit in front of her, lydia nearly jumped out of her skin. it was a coffee shop. why was she so scared of everything in her sight now? ❛ what? oh. — oh. no. no not yet. ❜
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ how nervous she seemed, how paranoid, it was an all too familiar for him. he didn’t want this for lydia, didn’t want the anxiety to consume her like it had him. but they were all like that now, weren’t they? with everything that had happened to them, the only source of solace was within each other. he reaches for her hand, giving it a light squeeze before raising a brow and giving her a look of concern. ❛ lydia... are you okay? ❜ he knew the answer was probably a no, but he still wanted to be a comfort to her, still wanted to be there to save her whenever she needed it.
hartbled:
never has she felt her body give a response this strong from touches like these. the scent of his cologne, his hands, his lips, the look in his eyes ––– she is melting into it all. fingers dig into his shoulders as soon as long fingers work against her. she allows a small gasp to emit her lips; breath soon hitching in her throat at the sensation. her hips instinctively begin to roll against his hand, her folds already slick with arousal as a moan ( one she never imagined to hear from herself ) erupts her. oh, god. what is he doing to her ? cheeks flushed and eyes glossed over with need, she feels the urge to plead. it is all too much and not enough at the same time. the way his lips move down her neck, the way his fingers work against her and the way his palm slides around her back and tangles in her hair –– it’s all too much & still not enough.
and then he whispers those words against her skin; and the feeling washing over her makes the rest seem as nothing. no one has ever called her beautiful before–––– looked at her like that before. there is an unique swell of joy and gratitude inside her chest; innocent features displaying it all so effortlessly. she has always been so delicate to emotions; to the slightest of impact. a smile, warm and sweet, forms on her rosy lips–– & she’s kissing him again, deeply and slowly; loving every part and piece of him. ❛ stiles… ❜ she whispers lowly against his lips; emerald hues finding his amber ones while small, petite hands begin to slowly and timidly open his pants. ❛ ––––––i want you. ❜
he’s basking in the fact that she is nearly squirming beneath him, the moan a symphonic sound floating into his senses and inspiring him to continue. how her countenance lights up when he speaks to her has him biting his lip momentarily, holding back a simper that could only be a reflection; a reaction to making her happy. he welcomes the kiss by complying with her lips, the rhythm of their contact stirring him into a euphoria. if he was being honest with himself, she had been driving him crazy from the beginning ⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ getting to know her and realizing how sweet she was only made his need for her worse. but loving her was easy. it came in waves, overwhelming waves that were allowed to carry him away without any care in the world. that affection and his attraction to her had made him think thoughts he felt ashamed of many, many times ( and now the moment was sweltering, his desires materializing before him. it was so perfect that he wasn’t sure if he was dreaming --- because he had dreamt about her before ) he is reminded that the moment is very real when he hears his name again, the button on his denim swiftly undone by delicate fingers. he looks down, pulling his touch away from her for only a moment to raise himself ( and slightly raise her, because it would have been a struggle to pull his jeans down even slightly if he remained put ) in order to assist her in tugging the article of clothing down. he wanted to ask if this was alright again, hoping he didn’t seem too eager -- but her frantic breathing, the slickness between her legs, and most of all, the tone in her voice when she said she wanted him made him feel assured that it was going to be fine. the worry that he would hurt her was still there, but the anxiety that lingered in the back of his mind was swept away with her statement. his hands are under her skirt again, but this time they’re tugging at the luxe material beneath it. he wanted her too -- badly, and it was evident in everything he did.
shexhowls:
She hopes that he knows she’s doing this for him. The last party she’d gone to, she gotten used as a distraction, stabbed in the back–literally–and got trapped inside of a confined space with a murderous teenaged lizard. It wasn’t something that she’d like to re-live if she could at all help it. Still, the way that he calls her princess, and the way that he smiles at her, makes her happy to be going anywhere with him. As long as it was him. It’s the small things, she knows, that help their relationship get past the fact that she’d nearly killed him, and the fact that she’d nearly died herself.
It was the little things, like the fact that he’d reached for her hand in the short walk to the car, and the way that she didn’t want to let go of it, even for him to drive. The little things like watching the excited glow in his eyes as they drove to the party, and how she thought he might jump out of his seat when they got there. She understands his excitement–his need to feel normal with her. It’s there, for her too, but she’d had a little bit more practice at being anything but normal. She was used to the weird looks, and the craziness. And she suspected that he was, too, even if he did like to pretend that he wasn’t.
As she looked at the house from the car window, she twisted her ring nervously around her finger, and looked back over at him. “We need a plan. What do I do if someone hits on you, because I don’t think the glowing eye thing is gonna work.”
if...-- wait, if someone hits on him? he is more than mildly shocked, unaware of her adoration but still entirely cognizant of how much she cares about him. he’s still stiles stilinski, the nerd who orchestrated matching star wars costumes for a party -- he still participated in online gaming communities that involved slaying magical creatures. he still knew everything there was to know about marvel, and dc. and erica? she had struggled before, that much had been evident. he hadn’t paid much attention to her before she had turned, but after? the bite had ignited her, turned her confident and strong. he remembered her saying that she still thought he was kinda cute, that she used to have a crush on him ⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ he didn’t think that could have lasted or carried past lycanthropy and DEATH. she was beautiful, the same but somehow different after she had been taken away. he still wanted every part of her, from the darkness to the light -- and even the sass. he was just surprised every day that she had wanted him.
❛ that’s hilarious, ❜ he starts, turning off the engine and sitting with her for a beat or two. ❛ if anyone out of the two of us is getting hit on tonight, it’s probably the one with great boobs, ❜ he looks down at his own very flat chest, emphasizing the fact that it was her. a lightsaber wasn’t as dense as a baseball bat, but he wouldn’t be afraid to use it regardless. ❛ if anyone hits on you this thing is going right up their as-- ❜ he’s cut off by the sound of loud music and screams of joy coming from the house, ⎯⎯⎯⎯ they all knew erica was alive and the last the pack was aware, she had been under the control of the nogitsune and attempted to sink her claws into stiles’ throat. to figure out that the two were official? that would be interesting. he was silent a moment, looking over at her with a more serious expression dominating his visage. ❛ if you feel uncomfortable at all -- i’ll take us back. just say the word. ❜ he reaches over, resting his pointer under her chin and ( awkwardly ) leaning his body over for a less awkward kiss. then, he’s getting out of the car.
@hartbled
tired lids close over amber irises once, twice, three times and all at a lethargic pace. he was starting to see two of her, his grip on the glass loosening as he rubs at his temple with his free hand. elie had made him a jack and coke, an offering for a simple celebration of life; but he was starting to feel like her intentions might have been to make the room rise over and over and O V E R again. he takes in a sharp breath, trying to focus on her face, her hair, anything to keep him from falling asleep. his palm smooths over his entire visage, as if he could wipe away the disorientation – but it’s hopeless. his frame falls slightly backward where he sits, the drink sloshing slightly onto the floor. ❛ – elie, ❜ he starts, concern and betrayal weaving themselves into his expression. ❛ did you put something in my drink? ❜
they had been together for a while now, inseparable, referred to by classmates as ‘stelie’ rather than just them as individuals ⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ the mixture of their names had amused him at first but he had gotten used to it -- that was just how it was, the two of them together. always. no one was more meant for him than this girl, a cherubic epitome of his perfect girlfriend ⎯⎯⎯⎯ but did he really know her at all? had she really done this to him? he attempts to get up, stumbling a bit and catching himself before he falls with his palms against the couch cushion he had just risen from. ❛ why am i so dizzy? i only had half of a drink this.... this isn’t... ❜ he couldn’t finish, his voice is beginning to fade, losing its volume and diction -- he’s starting to sound like he can’t breathe, like a PANIC attack is creeping on him ( and oh, he would have had it if he didn’t have this drug surging through his veins ).
¯\_(ツ)_/¯ after watching a certain movie yesterday, i kind of really want to make a new oc. i’ll see though, that sort of things takes a lot of time and effort and i already have two other active blogs elsewhere. i’ll probably actually make him tho. as for activity on stiles, it’ll be around the same as it usually is during these days. i’ll reply when i get breaks in-between classes.