As for me, I see both beauty and the dark side of the things; the loveliness of cornfields and full sails, but the ruin as well. And I see them at the same time, at once ecstatic at the beauty of things, and chary of that ecstasy. The Japanese have a phrase for this dual perception: mono no aware. It means "beauty tinged with sadness," for there cannot be any real beauty without the indolic whiff of decay. For me, living is the same thing as dying, and loving is the same thing as losing, and this does not make me a madwoman; I believe it can make me better at living, and better at loving, and, just possibly, better at seeing.
Sally Mann, Hold Still: A Memoir with Photographs
I chose this passage because it strikes me as very powerful and interesting. I’ve observed that Sally Mann was a rebellious teen, she even describes herself as “almost normal”. Throughout this passage Sally goes into detail about what she sees and how she is not a madwoman for believing that very contradicting ideas are, in fact, that same.
Sally uses phrases such as “for me...” and “I believe...” throughout this passage, which shows me that she is not trying to make us believe that this is the correct way to see things or that loving actually is the same thing as losing. She is more so just giving us insight into what goes on in her own mind and how she sees the world everyday. Sally Mann’s tone in this passage sounds very passionate, like this is something she feels deeply about. Her voice is expansive and slightly ornate because she uses some unusual words such as “chary”, “tinged”, “indolic whiff” and because she is also very open about her thoughts and feelings.
I noticed she use many adjectives such as “living”, “dying”, “loving”, and “losing”. Although words like living and dying have opposite meanings she uses them in a way to show similarity instead on difference. She also does this with the words loving and losing. This was slightly hard for me to understand and make me question how she believes that two completely different ideas are the same thing.Â
In the beginning of the passage Sally states that she see’s both beauty and the dark side of things. I can see why this is true because many of her photographs at first glance seem dark and gloomy, but they also hold beauty. Sally Mann has received some harsh reviews on the nude images of her children by those who fail to see the beauty that she sees in the photographs. I believe that Sally Mann has been very independent and different her whole life and even though she’s been criticized by some, she has not let that change her and has had a very successful career.