the failure is back

they/them, 26, non-binary, ed+bpd, relapsed - mostly MALE SPO

[frankyinborderland]

My December calorie tracker.

Feel free to use 💙

[cherryliqor-deactivated20180108]

“skip dinner and become thinner” more like “skip dinner and you have an eating disorder please get help”

[cherryliqor-deactivated20180108]

“a moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips” more like “a moment on the lips is okay to have, please take care of yourself in this lifetime”

[cherryliqor-deactivated20180108]

“every time you eat you delay becoming skinnier” more like “every time you eat you give your body the nutrients it needs in order to survive, please keep surviving”

[cherryliqor-deactivated20180108]

“you’ll be able to wear whatever you want when you get to your ugw” more like “you’ll be able to wear whatever you want now because fashion =/= weight”

[ossifiedocelot]

“Don’t reward yourself with food your not a dog” more like treat yourself because you’re amazing and deserve happiness

[pixelshearts]

This is actually really helpful thanks

[aninactivebloggfgfgf]

I love this post for how it politely demolishes destructive pro ana/mia mantras i love it

[ask-miss-prince-deactivated2017]

this is

very helpful

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thank you

[chattychala-deactivated20211123]

While I might not deal with this, there are certainly others out there who do. Reblogging to help those people.

[evakorx]

REBLOG

[theconsultingtimelady221b]

I needed this .. Thank you

[pinkpeachjams]

“You’ll be happy when you reach your ugw” more like “you have a literal disorder and will never be satisfied please seek help and choose recovery”

[butterf1y-thighs]

“you can wear what you want when you reach your ugw” more like “you won’t have the energy to get dressed, look nice, or leave your house and even when you do you’ll feel disgusting”

[frankyinborderland]

A month ago I felt like absolute shit seeing my sister at a birthday party. She had such a huge tigh gap I wanted to cry.

Today she visits again. Standing next to each other in front of a mirror comparing legs and had 2 people confirm that WE LOOK THE SAME. I'm so grateful I kept going!

Let's play:

Next time we see each other, I'll be skinnier than her ♡

(Noting that I don't feel like her tigh gap is huge or nearly enough anymore. But we all know we'll never be skinny enough)

[frankyinborderland]

Did it. I can see I'm skinner than her now, even with body dysmorphia.

Don't know why I cared so much. She looks kinda chubby to me now

[frankyinborderland]

Am I the only one constantly testing if my tigh gap is real ?

Like yes it's there with feet together. But is it there with knees together? When I move my hip forth as far as possible? When I cross my legs? When I spin in place? When I lay down with knees together? When I lay down sideways?

Maybe I've been faking it all along?

[iwishhiwasdeadl-deactivated2021]

[re-relapse]

Not wanting to eat in front of anyone because it makes you anxious

Vs

Only wanting to eat in front of people so your eating habits look normal

Vs

Wanting everyone to think you don’t eat anything

[frankyinborderland]

Having a nervous breakdown bc I can't find the cals of the takeout we just had.

I'm so stupid! Why did I eat it !?

[thoughtkick]

“Don’t do something permanently stupid just because you’re temporarily upset.”

— Unknown

[frankyinborderland]

Borderliners:

[backpackfullofplums]

In case you aren’t familiar, Michael Scott Moore and David Rohde are both journalists. Moore was held by Somali pirates for 977 days. Rohde was held captive by the Taliban for 7 months after being abducted in Afghanistan.

[healingwillow-deactivated202311]

Eating toast for dinner instead of cooking is better than not eating anything at all.

Using mouthwash instead of brushing your teeth is better than not taking care of your teeth at all.

Wiping yourself with a damp cloth or baby wipe instead of showering is better than not bathing at all.

Doing only one out of five assignments you need to turn in is better than not submitting anything at all.

Talking to a loved one on the phone is better than not talking to anyone at all.

Playing your favorite video game, listening to good music, or reading a book instead of "grinding" is better than not doing anything at all.

Don't beat yourself up for not being "productive enough". A little productivity is still productivity.

[ascaryghost-deactivated20251216]

anyone else see a kid and all they think is omg i hope to god that kid never develops and eating disorder i hope they have a loving family who accepts them please jesus christ i pray to a god i don’t believe in just please i hope that kid loves themself and never ever ever gets an eating disorder i am BEGGING the universe just please

[frankyinborderland]

It's 4am, I can't sleep and I'm BORED

[frankyinborderland]

Crying over this bodycheck, bc when I cut out my t*ts I can finally see ME.

I don't remember when I last recognize myself

Pls let me be a pretty boy, just ONCE in my life

[frankyinborderland]

32lbs!! It took 32lbs for someone to notice my weight-loss. And that only bc "my face looks too slim." I don't only want a slimmer face -.- but validation is validation, I can't be picky at this point

[frankyinborderland]

Sssso close. Can't believe I was able to turn this sh*t around in the last two weeks. Could have done a lot better though...

[frankyinborderland]

Bodycheck || 18,3 bmi || height: 5,6

I'm bad at this and hate my arms

[quickly-rotting]