Alright so we touch touched on the basis of my fiancé a few times but I have not told you in total the rest of what is my love for him and why I insist in been with him.
It’s very easy to nag a person and to talk to other badly about them but was is the easiest is telling them how wonderful they are. You see we met in 2008 in October 21 at about 6 pm in the afternoon, now you may ask yourself how in hell do I know this to a T, well easy we met at work I was in training and he was a higher level than me what can I say man is smart, he got a raise and promotion his first week on the job, well any who we have been together since February 18th of 2009 and my first kiss what 3 days before that and it was with him I was 19 years old my first boyfriend officially. How can you describe a person you love so much without sounding insane, stupid or like a broken record playing the same love song over and over for as long as we have been together, I am proud of my relationship and I am most proud of him, he has accomplished so much in his time and with his strength.
Before I begin with my broken record I want to talk to about the person that I am and a bit of what I believe in, now I know for a fact that you cannot and I repeat cannot change anybody, people mostly girls will say you can a person that is incorrect, because the person has to be the one willing to change and I will say this that is a fact and I know this because my one and only changed and he has for the best in my eyes he has done more than 175 degrees change and I am proud of him and I am proud of my relationship. This mas left his lover not girl friend or wife but lover for me, yes he did cheat and lie to me with her but to be honest I cannot put in words what he has done for me and my family and how much he has changed, I will say that I am not such a good person myself I have done wrong and did hurt him but again that will be a other entry.
What I love most about him is his promises he promises and he will keep it it will be lte but it will happen, the night I lost my virginity and gave my heart soul and body to this man he gave me his heart and a promise that he would never leave me, he would probably hurt me (feelings not physically) and you know what he so far has kept that promise, when he met me I was healthy, happy and pretty. I looked young and I did not have to put much effort in to what I would wear and he liked that about me, now its intimidating that you or in my case I am not his type, I am short, thin, no breast and crazy not crazy asin I will kill people just crazy as in having fun but no liqueur or drugs are involved. I am not his type, I finished high school yes but Uni was hard, I am not good at math, algebra Mexican history, simple math I am no good at, spelling in my native language or in English is hard for me, could never master it I switch letters and I also get numbers mixed up so I’m not that bright and he wanted a woman with education and his lover and ex-wife have that, he likes tall women, he likes big breast, he like a nice body and I as I am now, sick, thin, not much body, a dialysis tube sticking out, crocket teeth that I want braces like no other…. Infinity of things are wrong with me and still he stays now you would say he is with you do to he does not want to be the bad guy that breaks up with the sick one well not the case, his ex-lover has problems and issues and holy crap… and here he is, he got me a apartment, I get to keep my Moka I get to do anything that I want. I am truly blessed to have met him he saved my life literally two times, if he had not been there I would be dead because no one made sure I was ok, no one figured that my yellow complexion was wrong and that pucking was constant but he did, and he took me to the dr and he saved my life I was about to die according to 4 Dr.s so I am grateful and even though he pisses me of I bet I piss him tha hell off too and its ok because that’s a relationship it means that we talk we try to have some type of communication and that is one of several keys you need to be ok with each other.
As time passes you kind of get to know person and to be honest you never stop leaning things about them, it surprises you at every turn your life takes how differently that person will react and sometimes we are self’s begin one way and end up with a different perspective, feelings and or mind set because we are human and we constantly change. For the broken record that I am about to unleash upon you I just want you all to know that spilling your guts is better than keeping it locked inside, your emotions and feeling are different but this is for another entry, now I will profess my undying devotion to a man who now is at school studying his second degree can you imagine. Heaven nor hell know what life is about because they are irrelevant in my case I live them both at the same time and I love every minute of it, you see I use to think my life was boring and meaningless now I have very uneasy days, sick ones, hurtful ones and lovely ones. The lovely ones are spent with him my fiancé let’s call him Bruce ok… Bruce has made my life change from been the girl not good at anything, from been the girl not taken in to account, no one had ever asked for my opinion, thoughts, complaints not even if I was happy with the decision that was at hand at the moment, but with Bruce it all changed I was and am for some reason the center of it and I owe it all to him. I know Bruce is not perfect and I know I am not perfect but what I do know is that together we became perfect for each other.
Remember we can’t change people they have to make the choice by them self’s and we can only cheer them on and the big I told you so keep it to yourself, people will get knocked down by their own stupidity they don’t need you to reassure how dumb, stupid or vial they are because they know.
Thank you once again for reading till next entry.
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