The Upshot

Arbor's journey to a better place in his life.

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Gross, i know, but just excited because when I first bought this new belt, I could barely fit it on the first hole. Now im on the third hole 😳

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Oh yes!

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Our new place 💚😍

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This breakup really has me feeling down. While listening to George Ezra’s song “Shotgun” I decided to just focus on one thing: Sweep the porch!

It was a small action but had a small sense of accomplishment when I finished, even though I didn’t do an amazing job at it lol. Just need to focus on one thing at a time, one step at a time, having my eyes set on that mountain top. That’s where I want to be, but for now I have to enjoy the process of getting there :)

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First time back the at gym after one week and a half!

I couldn’t even get through my routine warmup 😳

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I just want him back...

I’ll take him back in a heartbeat 😔

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Omg, i just made a post for my work’s social media page and literally posted it while crying...

I definitely made that post more for me than anyone else...

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Today I had a genuine conversation with some friends. Felt really great hearing their perspectives and truths. Has me legit smiling, knowing and feeling the love from true friends ☺️

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It was chest day yesterday. FEELING THE PAIN TODAY! 😩

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I just ate a burger after 10pm 😳😔

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My tea bags arrived!! Tea on the go!

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I was watching 2009’s Star Trek movie and at one point the screen went black, forced me to see my own reflection. Usually when that happens I’m overwhelmed with disgust, lol, but today I liked the dude I saw. He’s brokenhearted but he’s hanging on to hope and doing one day at a time. 😅😭☺️✊🏾

(Not saying I’m cute according to pop culture standards, but I am saying I’m becoming okay with myself...and that’s incredibly important to me.)

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I’m getting addicted to the feeling of being out of breath!

But not the asthma, fat kid, can’t breathe type of way...no, more like pushing my body to it’s limits and fighting to meet my body’s demand for oxygen. Idk how to explain it, but that rush/physical stress is becoming more addicting to me!

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JUST ORDERED SOME UPGRADES TO MY HEALTH JOURNEY!

First is the swim gear. We have a pool at work and they have a pool at my gym too. I’ve been doing swimming as my second workout each day when I have the opportunity. I bought goggles because I’m learning to swim like athletes do (face in the water) so I can’t see where I’m going. Thus I need these goggles:) Earplugs for swimming are a must too! I always end up having water in them for the remainder of the day, hopefully this helps!

Secondly is my tea baggies! I bought some natural loose leaf tea blends to help me lose wieght and to help me cleans my body! I have a steel tea infuser but it’s too much work to clean it twice a day. Instead I’m going to use these tea bags to set my tea portions early on; just grab them and go daily, throwing them out and moving along! They’re biodegradable which is a huge plus!

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Issue #1: Every ending has a new beginning. 
This journey, unfortunately, begins with a broken heart. My best friend and the one I loved more than life itself decided to walk away from my world to pursue his own passions. I was left with only a memory in my hand and a devastated heart. In issue #1 I fall into a cacoon of sadness and fear that I am now alone in this world, that I wasn’t good enough for him, that I’ll never find true love again, and that I will never be loved. If it were up to me, I’d stay here until my last day because I’m tired…hopeless…hurt. Yet even in this incredible loss, I still tell myself that line: “Every ending has a new beginning” because I want to hope that something good can still come out of this.