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Things I want to say to you

You don't get to come back, after months of disappearing. I have never met anyone as horrible as you were to me. you to said all these things to me and then turned half of it always on me, it was soo fucked up. You were truly one of the worst human beings I have ever met. I'm not going to rip you apart because you really don't deserve much of my energy at all, but you do deserve to know I'm so beyond thankful that one I spent as little as time as I did with you. two you taught me so much about myself, how to love myself even more and how I deserved so much better then someone who would do all these things and then disappear, and lastly you taught me what a gaslighting love bomber narcissist asshole is. All I did was try to be there for you everyday, you took one thing that made me vulnerable and that was drinking and you went with it, as if I was this horrible person, because I was so emotional when I was drunk because I liked you? Makes a lot of sense? yet you were mr perfect to me when you drank? By always telling me to shut the fuck up? Was this after I drove 7 hours to see you? Or was it at your bosses house? But no everything always blamed on me, because I was such a horrible person to get you stuff when you thought YOU gave me something, I cared for you, loved you and supported you and at the end of it, you left and never looked back. All this drama that was caused by lies you hid. That ended up all being true!! You never sat and looked at yourself for how twisted it was, I don't need to go over and over it because knowing you, you would never understand or care too. you ruined my trip i was so excited for, you wasted my time and I don't want anything to do with you, I swear to god I didn't even know who the fuck you were, it was all fake as fuck, you never stood by any of your actions of who you told me you were. You say i have a lot to work on? Of course I do. But so do you. I know myself and I know my worth and i now know looking back on it, all the manipulation lies and games were not okay.

I tried so hard for something normal, but at the end of the day I guess I will take some advice from your mom ( who talked shit about me the whole relationship I know now ) that I did nothing but try and be there for and be supportive towards her, - people come in life for a season a reason or a lifetime and you definitely came in for a reason to teach me to never ever let myself put my guard down and bend over backwards for someone who could never stand by there actions let alone words, take care and go waste your time blocking someone else on and off.

Have you ever been so hurt you forget to write, like you don't have the words to express it. You just are completely numb.