My Little Diary

Academically inclined; mentally declining

[froggyed]

Hi! 🌸✨

I'm Lilus (she/her). This is my 3d/academic vent diary. Always happy for some mutuals :)

18+ please!! Please block me if I accidentally interact with your page and you are a minor.

!!DNI if you are a minor or not a 3d account. Please block if you're uncomfortable with anything!!

About me

I'm 22 years old and I am, ironically, a food science student. I used to frequent pro ana/mia sites a lot, but I stopped after recovery.

I am NOT pro ana/mia

I'm here because I think I'm relapsing, haha! I feel like I'm losing my grip on reality and control over life, and reverting back to my 3d will provide me some comfort.

I was achieving so much when I was restricting because I was perfect. I miss perfection.

H: 5'2"

SW: 117.6

CW: 116.4

Mid Dec: 113

End Dec: 110

Mid Jan: 105

End Jan: 100

Mid Feb 95

GW: 93.0

UGW: 90.0

Last Thoughts

I'm always up for a chat :) don't hesitate to reach out. Also, comments!! I love interacting! Thanks for making it this far.

Wanna chat about the science of food? My inbox is always open ✨

In academia and want to rant about your 3d adjacent to college? Use #ed academia !!!

Please comment on my posts, I am a yapper!!!

[bl00d-c0v3r3d-sk4nk-pr1nc3ss]

mom said it's my turn to get skinny

[with-luv-from-sienna]

The urge to get really noticeably sick

[thatstthespiritt]

this shit was so much easier when i was 16 wtf😭

[froggyed]

On one hand, I hate being alive!!!!! On the otherhand, man, I want to continue my education, get more degrees, and do stuff ❤️❤️

[froggyed]

Happy crimble :D

Hehe, I am answering late but happy late everything ❤️ thanks for checking in

[froggyed]

hi friend, havent seen you in awhile. You doin okay?

Hey!! I kinda went on a spiral and just avoided life. But I'm okay now. Thanks for checking in ❤️❤️❤️

[froggyed]

Hey,

how are you?

❤

Hi, I'm back and I'm uh, well. I'm here again. Hope you're doing well ❤️❤️❤️

[froggyed]

Fuck, haha. Hey all

[froggyed]

Been depressed. Tired. Exhausted. Can't wait for finals to be over so I can rot and starve.

[froggyed]

I'm somehow still a bit drunk, I think. But... I feel like I like to assume the worst about myself. That I am not as kind as everyone says I am. That I am not as hard working, nor as smart.

I think it is easier that way. That I will always fail to meet everyone's expectations and I will never truly succeed.

[aniiiiiiiiiisblog-blog]

credits:@realitylana (tiktok)

[froggyed]

G@gging and feeling so nauseated :(

What a terrible feeling. I fear Wingstop was too heavy after having >700/day for a week.

[froggyed]

No entry for tonight. Very busy day, and very very dehydrated, haha.

Day 10: 541

Day 11: 1,315

Honestly it wasn't a binge? While I def went over calories, I was just drunk and eating. Also, why did 9 pieces of Cajun corn end up being 540 calories 💀💀💀

I'm so dehydrated. I need water.

[froggyed]

Drunk and got wingstop..screw 3ds. 😩😩😩 I'm gonna eat tonight because it's the last day of instruction

[444delgada]

reminder for if you messed up / binged today ♡ ⋆｡

don't beat yourself up over it. take a breath, drink some water, and try again tomorrow. results won't come overnight and if they did, everyone would be doing this.

acknowledge that today didn't go as planned, and wake up tomorrow with a better outlook

[cherry-d1etc0ke]

that feeling when you stomach is empty and you feel like youre h1gh>>>>>