fuck it

SLC, UT 24 drugs, disappointment, and way too much music.

[denisshelby]

[lola-from-the410]

“When I say I wanna be high for the rest of my life, I feel like I’m lying. But when I say I wanna be clean forever, I feel like I’m still lying.”

— Fotheloveoffuckingdrugs (via fortheloveoffuckingdrugs)

[mentalpeace-deactivated20141201]

[sohighsolow-deactivated20200711]

All I want

[dabestmemez]

[happy-nervosa]

x

[blodcrim2]

Haaha this is me when I got this cool spatula thing once I started pharmacy at uni

[fucking--whatever]

I'm in Denver, kids.

Who the fuck is out hereee?

HMU cause my man and I wanna shot of

some things fierce...

[only-by-night-deactivated201612]

[trashfuckpopsuicide]

[slowbriety]

[fucking--whatever]

Anyone in Charlotte, NC wanna help a girl out?

I am in pain, and want the chance to taste that east coast heroiinnn

[and-valium-said-to-me]

Sad= Does drugs

Angry= Does drugs

Anxious= Does drugs

Bored= Does drugs

Ok= Does drugs

My point is Im always on drugs.

[lsd-something-something]

a cheap grab for notes

[burnt-out-angel]

What addicts want normal people and those who love us to know

1. We are not stupid, we’re well aware of the damage. We know that what we are doing is killing us. We know that we are hurting people. We are aware of how society sees us. We know.

2. ADDICTION IS NOT ENJOYABLE. We are not “partying” or having a good time. The party ended a long time ago. We’re fucking miserable. Many of these drugs were never party drugs to begin with. It might seem fun and exciting the first week or month, but it quickly becomes a chore.

3. We don’t keep using just because we want to get high all the time. We use to not get sick and just to function normally in our daily lives. After awhile, we’re not thinking “how am I going to get high today?” We’re thinking “how will I be able to get to work today?” And then the reason we relapse is because we can’t remember surviving without it.

4. We have massive amounts of guilt, shame, and low self-esteem. We don’t need to be called “pieces of shit” and “scum junkies” because we already feel that way about ourselves every day!! The disease tells us not to care when we lie to and steal from friends and family. The disease makes us selfish. But we are human and we feel terrible about it. We aren’t psychopaths and are more than capable of feeling remorse. The more selfish acts we engage in, the worse we feel about ourselves. But we compulsively keep dragging ourselves through dirt.

5. It has absolutely nothing to do with you or anyone else. You didn’t cause it, you can’t control it, and you can’t cure it. It is no one’s fault and you did not fail as a sister/brother/mother/father/aunt/grandpa/best friend. When we lie to or steal from you or choose drugs over you, it is nothing personal. It does not mean we don’t still love you. When the disease takes over, it doesn’t necessarily want to hurt you. It just assigns everyone the same value so they are neutral/irrelevant. Someone in active addiction is stuck in a completely internal thought process that completely blocks out the existence of other people.

6. The drug is stronger than love and values like family and friendship and that’s why we’ve chosen it over you. That is the unfortunate truth. That’s why we find a higher power in recovery, because no human power or emotion can fight off the drug on its own.

7. While addiction makes us choose the drug, we NEVER chose the addiction over you. Addiction is miserable and we don’t want it. The addiction chose us.

[psychotic-sins]

lucky you

[anonymous1188]

You don't have to wait until 4:20 to do heroin 💉

[blackprismlines]

😂😂😂😂

[junkie-sweetheart]

Damn son 😂

[fucked-up-on-drugs]

Twinkle twinkle little head, good luck trying to go to bed

[s-i-l-e-n-t--t-h-o-u-g-h-t-s]