~Condemned to a painful existence~

90's generation. Spain, 19. Suicidal thoughts,Chronic depression, Generalized Anxiety, PTSD, hallucinations,insomnia, self-harm... You say this is suicide,I say this is a war and I'm losing the battle. My mind NEVER sleeps and the demons are ready to kill me. Trigger warning: I don't want to promote suicide,self-harm or any mental illness. Instagram: @andrea_wildspirit Message me if you need to talk. I answer all type of questions

[thegoodvybe]

[killed-long-ago-deactivated2021]

I don’t see myself making it through 2019

[uhadpromised]

me : my friends never text me and I feel so alone

friends : hey we go dinner out tonight do u want to come?

me : leave me alone I’m not in the mood

friends : okay…

me : oh okay you don’t care, I’m so replaceable anyway, I just gonna stay in my bed all alone watching Netflix no prob

[wheresmytiffanymaxwell]

Me: *replaying my date with my fp*

Bpd: okay but he doesnt like you

Me: what? But I straight up asked him how interested in me he is and he said hes interested so-

Bpd: no

Me: but he-

Bpd: no no, he doesnt like you

Me:

Bpd:

Me: but-

Bpd: he doesnt

[pariaaaaah]

me: this will be The One. i will be open and honest with my next therapist..,

me in the therapy room: this is not The One. time to shut down and dissociate.

[adhdyingthroughsyltherin]

Therapist: ok and how did you feel when x happened?

Me: … … … idk just like.. so much and nothing and idk.. i just.. I dont know pls help Argh

[pariaaaaah]

me @ me: guess what time it is

me, eagerly: what?

me: time to stop making strangers' problems your problems

[movedto-rimmymftim]

Me at 4:50am: I’m thriving. I’m happy and enjoying life for the first time in years

Me at 4:51am: I don’t deserve to fucking live

[thedarkperidot]

Reblog if you’re part of the ‘feel like my trauma wasnt bad enough because there’s no visible evidence so I don’t feel as valid as more recent sufferers’ party

[ptsd-tiger]

i don’t deserve anyone’s love and affection I don’t deserve it I don’t

[womanism]

*dissociates on the toilet*

[queerestbpd]

Merry crisis

[cptsdead]

[sam-shatsky]

Oregon Coast Mornings

[xwristitlo]

[alocad4]

I’m so tired.

[flyngdream]