hey i really hope you're doing okay, your fans miss you and would love to hear from you
aww man :( I got this message however many days ago but ive been trying to figure out how to respond bc it breaks my heart and I feel so bad that ive just, like, basically ghostedthe truth is im more or less silent bc I just have no jh news. I don't know when or if ill get back to work on it bc I don't know HOW to get back to work on it bc sometimes im still not sure it's worth it. i keep hitting this mental/emotional block re: communicating w jh fans bc I feel like I owe yall news or updates on it, which I don't have, and I just keep failing to take into consideration that yall are invested in me as a creator and a person, too. the last time I said anything it was basically about what a shitty place I was in and it doesnt surprise me that my silence would have people concerned.so heres an update on just Me, since that's all I can give rn.since january, ive realized that teaching was Not for me at all. like I said back then, it was the worst possible thing for my mental health. I focused on my part-time job at the library, and eventually I applied for, interviewed for, and earned a more well-paying and even more rewarding job at another branch. it's still only part-time, which makes finances stressful sometimes (mostly bc I went several months barely making anything), but I genuinely love my new job, and im so glad ive found something that I can not only see becoming a career, but also that doesn't make me want to die when I think about it lmaomy mental health is much better but it's still kind of touch and go. my money situation means I haven't been able to go to therapy since last year. I still want to go back but I don't know when that will be possible.i also broke my ankle towards the end of july, and since I had to have surgery on it, ive been wheelchair-bound for a little over a month now, and I was on extended (and mostly unpaid) medical leave until this past week. so! more stress. but I have a lot of people helping me, so even though it can make me feel helpless a lot, I also feel genuinely loved, which for a long time was hard for me to accept.on the creative front im still playing a lot of d&d. i draw my warlock from my home game A Lot. if you want a look at my most active project, im playing in an actual play podcast called dungeons & lesbians (id link to it but im on mobile atm), which I do with Longtime JH Readers & My Girldfriendes mj "piratejenne" & fallon "@stinkard" "@americasburden" "@unremarkablism" and its a lot of fun!! we have 9 episodes and a q&a ep out so far. I play a vaporwave bard. hes gay its goodso!! that's where I am right now. like I said before I wish I could give an update on where jh stands but I just cant. but then again that's not what yall asked for. I need to remind myself of that.thank you for asking about me. it really means a lot to know that yall are still thinking about me. I hope that doesn't sound selfish, but a big problem in my depression & anxiety is worrying that people hate me or only tolerate me. knowing that yall care makes me feel not only like ive given you something meaningful, but that i am someone meaningful.-roy









