Surviving Nigel: A Nicolette Sandler Blog

(a noncanon roleplay blog set in the Beneath the Trees universe) Hello! My name is Nicolette Sandler, and I used to date the Woodbrook Butcher. I'm hoping that this blog will help give me closure over what happened, so feel free to ask any questions (within reason, of course) and I hope you have a great day!

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I wanna go home. where even is it anymore?

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how do you stop yourself from doing something incredibly stupid?

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how do you stop yourself from doing something incredibly stupid?

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did you hear about Samantha Strong and what she did?

I- I have. My life is crumbling around me and I don't know what to fucking do.

sorry. I really hope that this is a misunderstanding. Or that she was framed, like she said nigel was doing. I couldn't have allowed myself to trust someone and have them turn out to be lying to me again. I'm not that fucking gullible.

I'm sure you're just being curious, so thank you for your answer!

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sorry I asked

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Please, do not apologize. As an author, these uncomfortable times ultimately turn into the best stories. After all, I am an author specifically because of uncomfortable times.

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How do you feel about Samantha being revealed as a serial murder?

Sorry I didn't answer this right away, i've needed to sit on this question. and even now I don't feel like I have an appropriate answer. I feel like I'm a fraud. How do I trust my own memory when I wasn't even right about it when i wrote my fucking book? If i was wrong about Sam, was i wrong about Nigel too?? I built myself off of surviving him. My whole fucking adult identity was the writer that nearly got killed by her psycho boyfriend. If that wasn't the truth, who am I?

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How do you feel about Samantha being revealed as a serial murder?

Sorry I didn't answer this right away, i've needed to sit on this question. and even now I don't feel like I have an appropriate answer. I feel like I'm a fraud. How do I trust my own memory when I wasn't even right about it when i wrote my fucking book? If i was wrong about Sam, was i wrong about Nigel too?? I built myself off of surviving him. My whole fucking adult identity was the writer that nearly got killed by her psycho boyfriend. If that wasn't the truth, who am I?

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Hey, how are things at Woodbrook these days? And how are you? It was really terrible

My mom won't let me or my sister back in woodbrook after what happened. She already almost lost me, and didn't want to put either of us in harms way. On one hand, wonderful. I never have to return to that shit hole again (no offense to woodbrook I love the people there). I've spent a good portion of the last few years trying to forget about it. On the other hand, my mom is still there. My home is there. My grandmother is buried there. I had a life. And I lost it by trusting the wrong person. and I nearly lost the life I rebuilt by doing it again. So safe to say I'm not doing the best. But being with my sister has definitely been a big help. Thank you.

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did you hear about Samantha Strong and what she did?

I- I have. My life is crumbling around me and I don't know what to fucking do.

sorry. I really hope that this is a misunderstanding. Or that she was framed, like she said nigel was doing. I couldn't have allowed myself to trust someone and have them turn out to be lying to me again. I'm not that fucking gullible.

I'm sure you're just being curious, so thank you for your answer!

[funnybunnynicky]

did you hear about Samantha Strong and what she did?

I- I have. My life is crumbling around me and I don't know what to fucking do.

sorry. I really hope that this is a misunderstanding. Or that she was framed, like she said nigel was doing. I couldn't have allowed myself to trust someone and have them turn out to be lying to me again. I'm not that fucking gullible.

I'm sure you're just being curious, so thank you for your answer!

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Hi, how are you? Is everything okay?

The short answer is fuck no.

The long answer is I'm in the process of learning things that are ripping apart what i've known for years. What would you do if you wrote a book about something, only to later find out you possibly got the wrong information??? That you were technically a fucking fraud? That your ex was possibly right about you being so gullible?

Please pardon me, anon. I don't mean to take this out on you, genuinely. Thank you for asking, sincerely. have a lovely day.

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Hi, how are you? Is everything okay?

The short answer is fuck no.

The long answer is I'm in the process of learning things that are ripping apart what i've known for years. What would you do if you wrote a book about something, only to later find out you possibly got the wrong information??? That you were technically a fucking fraud? That your ex was possibly right about you being so gullible?

Please pardon me, anon. I don't mean to take this out on you, genuinely. Thank you for asking, sincerely. have a lovely day.

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I don't live in Woodbrook, but my cousin told me what happened there, it was horrible, I hope you weren't caught in the explosion, and that your sister is okay too

Holy fucking hell. I had to call my mom for this because we were in the next town over so my sister could get her prenatal vitamins and I had no idea an explosion even happened until now. Mom's in the Woodbrook Hospital. Luckily, it's because she said she inhaled some stuff, but fuck thank you for giving me the reason to reach out. It feels like my fucking life is falling apart around me. I wish I never was born in that fuckass country bumpkin town. I'm sorry, that's not your problem to worry about. My brain's been all over the place. Thank you for your question!

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Hi, how did you and Nigel start dating, and what was he like in the relationship? Also, what was your first meeting like?

Hello! Don't worry, it does! This is quite the loaded question, since I've learned so much about him that my memories have this undertone of what he did later on..

Lola and my Mother used to go to the same knitting group, and she brought up that he was doing some paid photos for someone she knew, and needed a female model for a few of them. Of course, mom volunteered me up out of kindness. The very first meeting was kind of awkward, considering our moms were saying how cute of a couple we were before we even really exchanged pleasantries. We met, discussed what he would photograph, and mom took me home. We went through the photos, and he ended up telling me I was quite pretty in them. Now, I was very young at this time, and lacked the self esteem to protect myself; so of course I was crushing. When my mom came to pick me up after the last picture, I ended up blurting out a request to see him again and he ended up saying yes.

Before everything ended up going wrong, I'll admit that he was decent, if only on paper. He held the door open for me, got me flowers (occasionally), and was generally nice to me when we went out together. I realise now that none of it really felt that...sincere? I don't really know how else to explain it other than that it felt like he was going through the motions. Doing what he knew he should do as a boyfriend. There was technically nothing wrong with him. But thats neither here nor there! I shouldn't be complaining about a dead person, lols Thank you for your question!

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Hello, you don't have to answer the question. Anyway, I don't remember where I heard this, but I heard that Nigel liked Samantha, not in a platonic way, have you ever noticed any strange behavior from Nigel towards Samantha?

I'm gonna answer this in two ways Do I think Samantha was, in any way, a romantic Rival? Absolutely not. In my experiences with him, Nigel doesn't really love people. He can be fond of them, and even convince them and maybe even himself that he likes them, but I can sincerely say I don't think he liked her like that. Did He ever act odd around her? yes. Absolutely. Nigel was absolutely, as you younger kids tend to say it, a specimen. He was the watching type.

He also did speak to me a few times about her, mostly bringing up her habits and other such things. I am doing my own personal research on that woman, so I don't really know why he's so connected to her quite yet. Thank you for your question!

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(I don't know if this blog works, but I'll give it a try)

Hi, how did you and Nigel start dating, and what was he like in the relationship? Also, what was your first meeting like?

Hello! Don't worry, it does! This is quite the loaded question, since I've learned so much about him that my memories have this undertone of what he did later on..

Lola and my Mother used to go to the same knitting group, and she brought up that he was doing some paid photos for someone she knew, and needed a female model for a few of them. Of course, mom volunteered me up out of kindness. The very first meeting was kind of awkward, considering our moms were saying how cute of a couple we were before we even really exchanged pleasantries. We met, discussed what he would photograph, and mom took me home. We went through the photos, and he ended up telling me I was quite pretty in them. Now, I was very young at this time, and lacked the self esteem to protect myself; so of course I was crushing. When my mom came to pick me up after the last picture, I ended up blurting out a request to see him again and he ended up saying yes.

Before everything ended up going wrong, I'll admit that he was decent, if only on paper. He held the door open for me, got me flowers (occasionally), and was generally nice to me when we went out together. I realise now that none of it really felt that...sincere? I don't really know how else to explain it other than that it felt like he was going through the motions. Doing what he knew he should do as a boyfriend. There was technically nothing wrong with him. But thats neither here nor there! I shouldn't be complaining about a dead person, lols Thank you for your question!

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My younger sister is pregnant.

I have to go back to woodbrook in order to help her. Fuck my life. Luckily i'm not spending all nine months down there with her, but she wants me there at least for the baby shower. I can do that for her. But I'm gonna complain the whole time I'm down there.

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Did you hear the commotion coming from the hardware store

No, thankfully. The store was a mess when I showed up, though.