A place to think

K new to this blog thing, just wanna get my thoughts out

[furyofcotton]

Is there a limit to happiness? I never knew I could feel this way about you, but I do and I love it. Why does your presence still bring me butterflies, why am I so lucky, Like what did I do to be this lucky? I must have won the lottery of life. And I still can’t get over how bright our future has become. With you, life is limitless. wheeeeeeee... 

[furyofcotton]

She gets me, she really does. Laying here in bed after a wonderful afternoon spent with her, thoughts are flying through my head, this is real. Our future is limitless.

[furyofcotton]

Connect

      Its quite interesting to me that of all the people you might meet in your life, that very few of them you will just connect with. There is no way of telling before hand that any two people will just connect, it just happens. And when it does happen, its quite an extraordinary thing in both of their lives. When two people connect, extraordinary things happen.

[iglovequotes]

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[furyofcotton]

So this is what Heaven is like...

Today was going to be a great day at the beach with some awesome friends. It started out like any other day, but what today turned out to be is only what I could have imagined in my wildest dreams. 

Though out the day, I felt like I was getting slight hints that maybe, just maybe she is really into me. As the day went on, we even locked hands while gazing into the ocean, listening to its calming roar. Once back at our meeting point, she and I had a plan to watch one of our favorite shows together for an episode. During this episode, in my mind im losing it because I feel its finally the right time, I NEED TO TELL HER tonight. We lock hands again and she kisses my hand ever so softly, my heart jumped a beat, did that really just happen? At the end of the night, we both can not stop smiling, we are TOGETHER. 

[furyofcotton]

Interesting

So her and I have been skypeing into the early hours of the morning, and last night we watched one of our favorite shows , it was a lot of fun to me. We then took this personality test thing, and im not sure if I believe in the accuracy of those tests, bit we got the same result. To me it's like it makes sense kinda now why we click so well. God, I love how we click. It's like our friendship is a perfect machine, all the gears mesh so nicely, it makes me smile thinking about it. I feel the right time might be coming soon, I'm so afraid to tell her my feelings, but I feel like she might have an interest in me, God I hope she has an interest in me in the way I do for her. This summer is going to be splendid.

[dennybitte]

morning light on the ground and sometimes forget to wipe the lens

may 2015

[fresh-mind-fresh-day-deactivate]

Fresh Mind Fresh Day 👌

[furyofcotton]

Up In the Air, Will I ever come down.

Quick post today,

She really made my day today with just a simple complement, we both stayed up too late getting donuts at 4am which caused her and I to be tired today. I felt quite grumpy today because I just was not understanding my calc questions, and the final is tomorrow! So she just paid me this complement and it made me  feel like I can get through this no prob.

Now I over think things alot, and just now her and I are snapping back and forth, she just sent a pic of a album she is listing to, and the song she was listing too was titled “If you love me, come clean.” Im almost sure it has no meaning, but I feel as if it did... Im still so up in the air about if I should tell her or not. I know I will, but I feel like the right time to tell her might never come.

[furyofcotton]

Staring into wonder

That feeling when you can not say what you need to say, but its right there on the edge of your tongue wanting to be let free. 

Talking to her makes me so at ease, yet I hide this huge elephant in the room and Im still unsure if she even knows the elephant exists.

I want to scream it out loud, but I fear the path it will set for our relationship/friendship will ultimately be harmed. Why am I so cautious about my friendships, this one I feel can be one that will life changing, yet letting her know my feelings can also change my world forever...

The best thing about this post is she is only 4 feet in front of me...

[iglovequotes]

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[furyofcotton]

Crush: *texts me saying hi*

Me: *gets excited*

Me: *breathes deep*

Me: *spams crush with 40 messages about cheese*

[furyofcotton]

Everyday

Every second spent with her I get the feeling of weightlessness, every conversation with her draws us closer together. One day she is going to find out my feelings for her and, that day will be the most testing day of our friendship. For I do not know if it will result in a wonderful relationship, or a halting stop to our incredible friendship. 

[iglovequotes]

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[furyofcotton]

I'm falling for her. I'm not sure if its good or bad for our friendship, but she is really something special

[larmoyante]

It’s that thing when you’re with someone and you love them and they know it and they love you and you know it but it’s a party and you’re both talking to other people and you’re laughing and shining and you look across the room and catch each other’s eyes. But not because you’re possessive, or it’s precisely sexual, but because that is your person in this life and it’s funny and sad but only because this life will end and it’s this secret world that exists right there. In public. Unnoticed. That no one else knows about. It’s sort of like how they say that other dimensions exist all around us but we don’t have the ability to perceive them. That’s what I want out of a relationship. Or just life, I guess.

Frances Ha (2012)

[furyofcotton]

Got invited as her date insted of her crush, does it mean anything? I tell my self no every second, but part of me really wants it too mean somthing... I took off work for the day of the event before she even asked me, only hoping by a mirical she would choose me. I feel tied up, not knowing whether I should pursue this or not, acting like I know nothing is getting harder and harder. I feel she knows the truth.