Hi !!! Itâs been so long since I made a coherent post, so this is embarrassingly overdue.
11th grade has kicked my ass in every way imaginable. I have SATâs and AP exams in May, so unfortunately my writing comeback isnât a priority. However, when I do indulge in writing fics again, itâs safe to say they wonât be posted on this blog.
Itâs been a good run these past 3 and a half years, but Iâve gotta move on somewhere else. I wonât be deactivating, and my masterlist will remained pinned for anyone who wants to read my old fics.
For anyone who wants to follow me to my new blog, head on over to @ceceilver. Iâll start posting on it eventually, but Iâve gotta tread through this busy time first!
omg i was rereading faded ink when you unpublished everything and was soo confused when the next chapter wouldnât loadđ please take your time with the editing process!!! Iâm excited to see the new details you want to include :> take care!
Yeah I am very very VERY sorry đ Ive been wanting to edit all the books since it ended but never had time. Now that I do, I'm looking back at old things I forgot to include that could be important. Plus, lots of grammar errors haha. I also may or not be getting rid of all the love interest, because before I even officially started writing the first book, the "love" interest was someone totally different I completely forgot about. It doesn't even seem important to the story anyways. Lmk what you guys think.
Ahh! See, lots of major editing đ Again, i'm super sorry for interrupting your reading time! You take care as well! <33
No worries at all!!! I absolutely adore both your tokrev series and writing style, so Iâm really happy to see the extra love and care youâre putting into it!
ft. Sakura Haruka, Suo Hayato, Umemiya Hajime, Hiragi Toma, and Kaji Ren
⊠moments in which they realized theyâre utterly whipped for you (2.6k wc)
Cw) gn!reader, uhh umemiyaâs bit is corny but heâs lowkey a corny guy, tbh i got stumped with suoâs part sorry if thatâs evident, profanity in kajiâs part, spar my head i havenât written in a minute
SAKURA
âItâs getting late⊠I think I should get going before itâs dark.â
You had spent the day off with a few of the Furin first years, which included Nirei, Suo, and your boyfriend, Sakura. You didnât realize how much fun you were having until you checked the time, almost reading past your curfew.Â
Sakura frowned, and Suo was quick to notice. He shamelessly pushed him closer towards you with his signature smile, making Nirei tilt his head a bit.
âNow now, no need to get so sorrow. Youâll see each other again soon!âÂ
You quirked a brow at the one-eyed boyâs antics, wondering what he was up to this time. From the corner of your eye, you could see Sakuraâs face growing redder and redder, something youâve grown used to overtime.Â
âYeah, Iâm seeing him tomorrow or the day after,â you informed, a skeptical tone lacing your voice. âWhat are you getting at this time, Suo?âÂ
He merely stood still and smiled as uttered the sentence that was bound to break Sakura.
âDonât lovers bid each other farewell with a goodbye kiss?âÂ
Ah, so thatâs what that was.
Steam emitted from Sakuraâs ears. On the other hand, you seemed unphased. He had a point, wasnât that an unspoken rule? It wasnât like you and Sakura hadn't kissed before, but whenever you did, it was always in private.Â
However, Suo seemed eager to know whether or not Sakura had the balls to kiss you in public, more eager than you for whatever reason.Â
âI mean, I donât have a problem with it,â you replied shyly. âDo you, Sakura?â
It took all he had to form a coherent sentence. âNoâ! But why do you guys have to be here?!â he yelled.Â
âWell we wanna say bye too. Right, Nirei?âÂ
The blonde nodded his head hastily. He always saw you as a friend too, and not just an extension of Sakura. Although, he felt bad for Sakuraâs flustered state right now.Â
âWell then, Iâll see you guys later,â you waved at the two before turning to your boyfriend. âAnd youâŠâ
If his cheeks could get any redder, they would. As you slowly leaned in for a kiss, he could see Suoâs sly smirk from the corner of his eye, as well as Nireiâs baffled face. Your face was getting closer and closer, eyes closed and lips parted, and all he could do wasâŠ
âWoah! There you go, Sakura,â Suo cheered.Â
His body acted faster than his mind, and before he knew it he was cupping your face gently as his lips moved against yours. There was no telling what came over himâ he just went for it.Â
You pulled away, both breathless and flabbergasted. âI⊠I didnât think youâd be so into it,â you stammered.Â
He looked away in embarrassment. âYou wanted a kiss, right? So thatâs what I gaveâŠâ
Everyone, including you, looked at him with cheeky grins.Â
ââŠyou,â he finished, brows furrowing at the realization heâs the center of attention. âWhatâs everyoneâs problem?!âÂ
âOh nothing,â Suo smiled. âIt just seems youâre head over heels, thatâs all.â
He didnât reply, only watching as you waved everyone goodbye and headed home. After all, there was no point in denying something that was true.
HIRAGI
âHere, take this.â
âBut itâs the last one?â
âI can always buy more, yâknow?â Hiragi insisted, still holding the last of his stomach medicine out to you. âBesides, all you're gonna do is complain about how much it hurts till you get home.â
You hesitantly took the small box from your boyfriendâs hand, looking back up at him with a concerned glance. âYou sure?â
âIâm positive,â he assured.
Reluctantly, you took the last dissolvable pill, throwing the now empty box into a nearby recycling bin. It worked as fast as Hiragi said it would. In an instant, your stomach stopped twisting and turning, and you no longer felt like you were being torn apart from the inside.Â
Hiragi watched from beside you, noticing your pained expression shifting into one of relief. He couldnât help but let a small smile creep upon his lips. He knew better than anyone how bothersome stomach pains could be, so when you expressed how much yours ached, he felt the need to give up the last of his medicineâ something he probably wouldnât do so easily for anyone else.
âThanks, Toma,â you said gratefully, hands tucked away in your pockets anxiously. It was until then you realized youâve been forgetting something.
âOh shit,â you muttered. âI forgot about theseâŠâ
You pulled out another pack of Hiragiâs stomach medicine. It was still wrapped, telling him you recently bought it. âI meant to give this to you earlier, but I was in so much pain that it slipped my mind.â
He examined the small box you held out to him, eyes wider than usual and mouth agape.Â
âYou really didnât have to, yâknow?â
You scratched the back of your head. âWell, you told me yesterday you were running low. So when I saw it in stock, I figured Iâd get it for you just in case. And, well, itâs a good thing I did, huh?â
He felt something flutter in his stomach, something heâs still not used to feeling around you. He gently took the medicine from your hands and unwrapped it immediately.Â
âAlready!?â you yelped, watching as your boyfriend gulped down two of the dissolvable pills.Â
He chuckled sheepishly. Despite the aid to his stomach, the feeling wouldnât go away. He knew now that they were butterflies, and no amount of stomach relief could kill them. At least, not while youâre around.
âWhat am I going to do with youâŠâ he sighed.Â
Who knew that the tough, hardheaded Hiragi could be taken down by a couple of butterflies?
UMEMIYA
You could still recall the surprise you felt when you entered Umemiyaâs room for the first time. It wasnât its neatnessâ no. You figured Umemiya kept his room clean out of respect for his caretakers in the orphanage. It also wasnât the wall full of photos that held memories of him, his friends, and even you.
No, none of that was a surprise to you.
It was the overflowing bookshelf against the widest wall that caught you off guard.
âI knew you were fond of a good book here and there,â you started as your widened eyes scanned the various titles that peeped out the shelf. âBut this⊠this looks like it came straight from a library, Hajime.â you said in awe.
He gave you the go ahead to check it out, even pointing to the ladder tucked away in the corner of the room in case you wanted to reach the very top shelfâ which even he couldnât reach without an extra step. You gave him a small thanks as he flopped down onto his bed, turning his head to admire your moving frame.
âOh?â you muttered, catching sight of a familiar spine. âWoah, you even have my favorite book,â you spoke, a hint of excitement lacing your tone.
âHm?â he hummed, sitting up to catch a better glimpse of the book you held.
âThis one! Itâs my favorite, have you read it yet?â you inquired, wanting to ask if heâs read every book on that shelf for that matter. You were too fixated on rereading the synopsis on the back cover to notice your boyfriend was now standing beside you.
His eyes scanned the synopsis, not finding it familiar. âI think this is one of the oneâs Iâve been meaning to readâŠâ he said quietly, both speaking to you and himself.
You turned to face him, smiling at the focussed look plastered across his face. God, if only he knew how pretty he looked in the warm lighting of his room, you thought.
âWhy donât we read it?â
âBut thereâs only one copyâŠ?â
âI meant together.â
Your words replayed in his head. You wanted to read the book with him⊠together⊠at the same time. âHow would that go?â he thought. He assumed youâd either be next to him, youâd hold one half of the book open while he held the other. Heâd turn the page once you were both finished reading it, and maybe youâd lean your head on his shoulder andâŠ
His face turned beet red as his mind conjured up all sorts of scenarios. No matter how he imagined it, it was always so⊠innocently intimate. You always looked adorable in his peripheral vision, and your presence alone warmed him more than the thick comforter you both sat under.
He didnât realize he was staring until you waved your hand in front of his face.
âEarth to Hajime? Helloooo~?â
He stumbled back a bit in surprise, before eventually coming back to his senses. âSorry! Sorry! I was justâŠâ
âStaring at me for a minute straight?â
âYes! No! Kinda?â he stumbled over his words, something you thought was a little unusual for him. âItâs justâŠâ
You quirked a brow, both curious and nervous for what he has to say. It couldnât be badâ considering how red in the face he was right now. Of course, that didnât stop your stomach from doing backflips.
âI love you,â he blurted.
âI love you too,â you tilted your head, was that it? It was sweet, but it wasnât like he never said it; what made him so nervous to say it this time?
âNo, I donât just love youâŠâ his voice trailed off, and he took both your hands in his. The book you were previously holding hit the ground with a quiet âthud,â and your lips parted in surprise.
âIâm in love with you, Y/n.â he confessed. âI would do anything you asked me toâ anything. And if you wanna read this book together, then thatâs what weâll do.â
It was safe to say reading together became a regular thing for you two after that.
SUO
âYou always sleep like that.â
Suo peered up at you with a quirked brow. âHm? Like what?âÂ
âLike that,â you gestured to his figure. He laid on his back, arms resting over his stomach and hands placed atop each other as if he were ready to be placed in a casket. âAre you sure youâre not a vampire?â
âOh? Are you questioning my humanity now?â he teased, sitting up from the mattress to better engage in conversation.
You rolled your eyes, ignoring his comment and thinking back to your original train of thought.Â
Suoâs never cuddled with you.
The first time you shared a bed with the boy, you thought he was just stiff, not wanting to push any boundaries you may have had. Instead of questioning it, you opted to snuggle into his side for the night. Though you were a little disappointed to find him in the same state he fell asleep in when the sun rose, you never mentioned it.
That was until it happened again, and again, and againâŠÂ
âDo you hate cuddling?âÂ
His tired eye widened a bit in surprise, âWhat?â
âYou sleep the same way every night⊠and you never cuddle. Are those two things related at all?â
Your words wouldâve sounded harsh if it werenât for your soft tone. You werenât mad at him, only curious. What reason did he have for not wrapping an arm around you when you were lying right next to him? Donât most couples do that when they sleep in the same bed, no matter how they sleep?
âI sleep like this out of habit. Iâm sorry, love.â he spoke, voice soft and apologetic. âIf you wanna cuddle tonight, I can try.â
âPlease?âÂ
He hummed, patting the spot next to him for you to scoot over, which you gladly did. You both laid back down, arms loosely wrapping around each other as you buried your face into his chest.Â
His scent was stronger this close up, something that soothed you greatly. You could tell he wasnât used to this, and a small part of you felt bad for making ditch something he was adjusted to.Â
âSorry forââ
âYou donât have anything to be sorry for,â he reassured. âI should be the one saying sorry. I didnât realize how selfish I was being.â
You pulled away from his chest to look up at him, âSelfish?â you laughed. âYou werenât selfish, you were just used to something else.â
âMmm, I suppose,â he whispered, gently pushing your head back on his chest. âBut I could definitely get used to this.â
You thought he planted your head back on his chest for the comforting feeling, which was true to a degree. But his main motive for keeping you from seeing his face was so you couldnât see the blush that crept up to his cheeks.Â
Yeah, he wouldnât mind getting used to anything else as long as it were with you.Â
KAJI
Kaji was never fond of having his possessions tampered with.Â
For example, his precious headphones. They were a gift from Hiragi to keep him tamed when needed. Since the day heâs received them, heâs been incredibly selective with who can lay a finger on them.Â
In all fairness, he had a right to do so. For one, they were a gift. Second, he actually needs them. To those who donât know him, he may come off as possessive. But in reality, heâs just being protective.
His clothes on the other hand⊠yeah, those were a different story.
Having so little clothes, heâs careful to keep them all organized throughout the week. So when he notices one of his hoodies is missingâŠ
âWhere the hell did it go?â he grumbled under his breath, scouring through his wardrobe in search of his missing hoodie.
It was nowhere to be found. Not on the hangers, not on the shelves, not misplaced under a pair of pants, nowhere. His brows furrowed tightly in annoyance, he couldâve sworn it was there yesterdayâŠ
âKaji? You okay over there?â your voice called from his bedroom doorway.Â
Ah, he thought. In the midst of his dilemma, he forgot that you were supposed to be coming over today. He took a deep breath and closed his closet, turning around to face you.Â
âOne of my hoodies went missing, have you seen it anyâŠâ he went quiet, eyeing you up and down.Â
So thatâs where it went.
âYou mean this one?â you said, gesturing to the soft hoodie that clung to your torso.
âYeah, thatâs the one.â
âMy badâŠâÂ
If he was being honest, he thought heâd be pissed if he found out you were the one who took it. Thatâs how heâd react if it were anyone else, right? But as he stared at his hoodie that you were wearing, he couldnât feel an ounce of anger in him.
His cheeks turned red before he could notice, and he was too awestruck to utter another word. Seriously, shouldnât he be mad? He thought he should be, but he couldnât.Â
You noticed his dumbfounded face from across the room, unsure of what he was trying to express. âSorry, Kaji. Did you want it back?âÂ
âNoâ! You canâŠâ his voice trailed off, finding his own thoughts to be unbelievable.
âKeep it,â he finished.Â
âReally?â you beamed.
âYes really⊠Now hurry up and pick another before I change my mind.â
You rushed over to him gleefully, embracing him in a tight hug. âYouâre the best!â
He hugged back, burying his reddened face into the crook of your neck. You let him go to search through his closet, looking for an extra hoodie to take for keeping. As he watched you sort through each one, only one thought crossed his mind.
i love that whenever there's a lad from a music based media who has a history of being bullied and is sometimes associated with cats, Shunichi Toki goes "this looks like a job for me"
Kinich pulls officially beat the time I got ayato and venti on 3 pity in 2022 holy shit these were the luckiest pulls of my life and I still have 100 wishes to spare
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