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Travels. Plants. Meeeeeehh.

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Hmmm a new chapter? I guess

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Pagod na ako.. para kong katulong sa bahay na to.. sabagay.. eh ***** lang naman ako.. malamang ganun talaga tuturing sakin..

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Today it is confirmed… I am … and it is ok.. tapos na ako jan.. matagal ko nang alam siguro elementary or high school pa.. Everything made sense nung naconfirm ko.. Kung bakit sila ganon sakin.. kung bakit I am less important than others. And it’s ok. Lahat ng bakit ko noon nabigyan ng sagot. Don’t get me wrong, I am more than grateful that I get to spend my life with them. I love them and I will never replace them. I guess I had just already moved on a long long time ago.. I only needed confirmation just for my current battle. The thought that you are not sure of what you have is agony already. I need to know as soon as possible or else I’m gonna loose my mind.. 🤢

Iba na yung chapter ng buhay ko.. iba na yung mga problema ko.. ganun pala yon noh, minsan yung problema sa buhay parang palala lang ng palala.. Ngayon parang mas naintindihan ko yung mga taong may sariling pinagdadaanan.. hindi pala biro.. yung simpleng problema sakin ngayon baka mahirap na sa ibang tao. Yung mabigat na problema ko ngayon, madali na pala sa ibang tao..

Mas nalinawan ako. Kung ang dahilan bakit nangyayari sakin to is para magkaron ako ng life realization well then let it be. Lord, may pakiusap lang ako, please guide me sa mga decisions ko. Make me calm and please give me peace of mind.. I know I can trust in you.. Whatever your plans for me I will accept it. I will surrender. As long as my love ones are ok I’m ok too.. ☺️

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Am I going to die soon? Hindi naman ako takot mamatay, pero kung makakapili ako kung paano, wag naman sana yung unti unti akong pinapatay..

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The anxiety of waiting till you get the answers… I can’t sleep… 🥺 I’m mad, why me?! I’ve been aware since high school and did everything to take care of myself.. so whyyyy.. I want answers now..

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Adding “BAHAY UPDATES” on my calendar. 😂😂😂

Guests:

Mother - required

Brothers - required

Cats - optional

#soontobeautonomousperson togol naman ng condo.. 😪

Tae yung binigay pati zip code 😂 yamot yarn?

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Hayyyy di mo na nga pinansin yung kagabi.. kanina umaga ok naman.. ngayon wala, badtripan nnaman..

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Today, I’ve felt that even if I made someone feel really special. It is not enough to expect that they will do the same way to me. For 30 years of my life, I feel that I’m begging love to the people I care and not see those whole already love me. So from now on, I will not expect anymore. I will love myself as I should have a long time ago and appreciate the people who are really there.

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Lord pleaseeeee……

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DIY

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Hayyyys sana umabot next month.. hahahaha gusto ko lang naman maging feeling sexy kahit next month lang hahahah.. #excitedsabakasyon

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Ahoooooooooo, pabudol na lang sa shopee pagstress… 😂

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Bakit ang hirap makuha ng respeto galing sa sarili mong pamilya? 🥲

Yung kapag may ssabihin ka, need pa nila ivalidate (parang hindi ka credible sa mga sinasabi mo) kung hindi naman, tatahimik na lang sila para kunware agree sila. Yun tingin ko ha.

Minsan kapag dinedefend ko yung sarili ko, sasabihin nila galit agad ako. Hirap naman mga chong… san ka lulugar..

And mind it, these are my own family. Di ko sure pero lahat ng decisions ko feeling nila mali. Parang sakin, ok naman. Masaya naman ako sa life. Di naman ako tambay sa bahay. May share din naman ako.

I want my own place…….. Ang weird lang kasi… I’ve been living with them for almost 30 years pero parang ang layo layo ng loob ko sa kanila. Ganun ba kalayo yung personality ko sa kanila? Black sheep ganern??!!??

Haysss, sorry di ko na lng kaya i-keep sa srili ko.. dito na lang. Para pag close na ako sa kanila balang araw, mababasa ko to at tatawanan ko na lang.. for now 🥲🥲🥲

K.bye

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Okk….. life reboot please…

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Is this the start? I’m having doubts now..

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I need to calm and collect myself..

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Lord, if mamatay na ako ngayon. Alam mo na po yung hiling ko..