Y’all probably don’t remember me, but hi. My name is Gigi and I turned 18 over a month ago. This account, along with my old main, will probably be deleted soon. I’ll be making a new blog (one focused on witchcraft and some other of my interests). I won’t be sharing it here since I’d like to leave everything behind and start a new.
The reason I’m deleting everything is because all these accounts were owned by me when I was 13-15. Back then I was an uneducated, easily influenced child who believed everything you said. I had internalized homophobia (which is funny cause i turned out gay), talked shit about my old high schools gender inclusive decisions, and openly supported racist creators/friends. I sincerely apologize for all my actions that have harmed/hurt anyone. What I did was inexcusable and once again, I am completely sorry.
During this time I was surrounded by a lot of toxic people both at home and online. At the age of 13 I was with a man 4-5 years older than me who for over a year convinced me to do nsfw rp’s with him. He wasn’t the first one who’s done this but he was the one who’s stuck out the most. Nothing was irl, it was all over Twitter, but he’s still emotionally and physically damaged me.
I had friends who would constantly make fun of me, turned my own name into an insult, a word meaning annoying. One time they accused me of being homophobic for crying and begging them to stop sending me furry p0rn. I felt safe nowhere at this point on the Internet.
When I was on tumblr, I ended up making friends with really bad people. They showed me so much niceness and an actual support system I felt like I could trust. The issue? They were extremely problematic. Just associating with them made me hated, which was completely understandable. I was so awful to so many people. I said and posted things for /their/ approval. Once again, I was uneducated and the things I said were awful and shouldn’t be defended. I am simply explaining my situation in hopes for people to understand my point of view.
I watched right winged videos/propaganda and took them all as fact, turned out any other information I was given. I will not stop saying how sorry I am for everything I’ve said and done. I’m not excusing my actions, I’m saying I was uneducated, easily influenced and dumb. That was all 3-5 years ago. I’ve grown to be a bigger, better person. I’ve cut all the awful/toxic people in my life, I’ve educated myself, I am moving on from the past. I am a new better person. I was justice in the world for all the minorities that are/have been hurt. Please sign petitions, please spread the word. This world isn’t perfect, it never will be, but you can help. I’ll be providing a carrd for resources where /you/ can help.
Once again, I am sorry for past me’s actions, let us all join together and help others out who can’t help themselves. Wear a mask, wash your hands, drink water, and stay safe <3
carrds with information, petitions and donations
