loveless kiss
I often tell my friends who seeks a man to wait. I tell them that God will give them a man who will fulfill their hearts desires so they need not to seek for him but I am someone who constantly searches for one. I often fall in love with men who will never do the same for me and I often neglect the men who loves me for who I am. I cast them aside always thinking he cannot be the man sent to me. So I wander a lot, where exactly in the prince waiting for me? Is he even waiting or is he also wandering. In attempt to find out if the person I am waiting for me is my person, I do a lot of stupid things. Giving my first kiss though just to spite somebody else is a bit overkill. I thought I liked him, I thought I loved him but when our lips met, I did not feel the spark that everybody is feeling. There was no love in my heart nor excitement so I wonder if I just gave my first kiss without purpose. I tell this to my blog to serve as a lesson. First kiss actually matters and how I wished I didn’t gave mine for a dirty reason. How I wished I really knew how to fall in love because right now, I don’t think I can ever find out what love truly is or if there is still a prince waiting for me because of my sullied decision to do stupid things before I truly understood it. I tell this to you to serve as a lesson. Things you do in haste, without even thinking about it, could serve as a wound that you will always regret. That is what I have learned from a single kiss that I took years ago.
The spark, the feelings, the excitement and the feeling of happiness, content and love was never present during that time and it is probably my fault as well because I have acted in haste. So don’t act without thinking and if you have a single doubt of what you are about it do, perhaps you should not continue because it could be the start of pile of mistakes.




















