@gangbrains said: “ i love you. ”
he is waiting for the inevitable ‘ – but not in a gay way, dude. even though i am gay ’ or some other bullcrap. it doesn’t follow. dennis actually looks up from this book he’s reading ( The Ultimate Guide to Kink: BDSM, Role Play and the Erotic Edge ), expression puzzled. “ oh ??”
the entire situation feels extremely familiar. it’s exacly like back when mac finally came out of the closet properly ( over the goddamn scratcher ) and, even though this was something that dennis was more than aware of for years upon years, having it just out there and in a way, final – hit different. this l-bomb, right there – also hits different. all of the sudden dennis feels insanely tense, to the point of it being painful. hands restless, he closes the book and sets it aside. just keeps staring at mac for what turns into an uncomfortably long moment of dead silence.
“– i, okay. ” with things being out and on the table like that, properly, dennis has to finally battle with the question that subconsciously haunts him for a while now. ( every goddamn time mac just looks at him like that. drops everything to be at his side. peels the fucking apples still, even though it’s been ages since dennis asked for that. ) “ – why ?? ”
it’s awkward . mac had prepared himself for it to be awkward . prepared himself to be let down or pushed away , anything of the sort , but not the 𝚂𝙸𝙻𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴 . not the weird tense feeling of something so boldly put in front of the other . but , mac keeps standing there . waits patiently for any kind of response that dennis could give him other than the stare . eyes dance around the room , settling on the other for a only a few moments before he’s looking away .
this was heavy . it sat on his chest and made it a little hard to breathe . mac had been on a little journey the last few years , discovering everything about himself and this was probably one of the last things he had to admit 𝙾𝚄𝚃 𝙻𝙾𝚄𝙳 . he had been close , stated it before chickening out with the mention of it being in a non-gay way . it was bullshit . it was in a 𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚈 𝙶𝙰𝚈 𝚆𝙰𝚈 , had been for longer than he ever wanted to admit . still , it’s a little relieving to get it off his chest . a little freeing . all he hopes and prays is that nothing changes whether it’s a good or bad response .
“ oh ... ” mac wasn’t expecting that as a response . he hadn’t really prepared himself to explain the feelings . he looks at dennis properly though , gaze soft and more telling now than ever . “ well , you’re just -- i don’t know . i think you’re one of 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙱𝙴𝚂𝚃 𝙿𝙴𝙾𝙿𝙻𝙴 𝙸 𝙺𝙽𝙾𝚆 , if not just the best , dude . and , you take care of me and i take care of you , we’re always there for each other and 𝙸𝚃 𝙵𝙴𝙴𝙻𝚂 𝙽𝙸𝙲𝙴 . i get butterflies when you smile at me and i feel really great when you’re proud of me . i like making you happy . and , it doesn’t feel like a chore , it just feels nice . plus , 𝚈𝙾𝚄'𝚁𝙴 𝚁𝙴𝙰𝙻𝙻𝚈 𝙷𝙰𝙽𝙳𝚂𝙾𝙼𝙴 , dude . looks aren’t everything but ... you know . i just think that you might be my gay ass love story , den . and , if not . you’re nice to love anyways . ”