I was sad and then, I am not.
A few days ago, I was so down. I prepared so much for this thing I have been praying for for so long. I thought all I did were enough to finally achieve this thing I have eyeing for some time now. Then all of a sudden, it's gone. Why? What I presented was not enough. I was sad. Lonely. I felt I am a failure. Disappointed. I dunno how to start again and where to begin.
Night came. I slept. I could not think of anything that would be favorable to me.
That night was so sad. I closed my eyes.
Then, next morning I should not keep myself down. I should do something productive.
I prayed.
"God, I always see You reminding me to trust Your timing. Everything will be okay. All I need to do is to have faith. I just need to believe with what you promised."
Then I did my thing. I started from scratch. Search here and there. Message, chat and email.
I laid out right away my shortcomings. I just do not want to expect too much.
You know what happened?
God really moves in different ways. He will not give you something that would harm or hurt you. I felt in my heart He swayed me away from hurt which I first thought was me being rejected. But instead, He replaced what I lost with more than what I needed. I was not rejected by these new opportunities. Not 1 but 2 accepted what I thought was my drawback. They said, "It's okay, they will still accept what you had. Just be yourself".
I was sad and then, now I am not.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11