✦ New Nirashiya / Alice in Borderland Writing Blog! ✦
hiii ok so i finally did the thing and made a dedicated writing blog because my drafts folder was becoming unhinged and niragi and chishiya have been living in my brain rent free since like. season 1 episode 7. anyway
requests are OPEN!! send me anything~
i write:
☆ headcanons
☆ drabbles
☆ scenarios / imagines
☆ oneshots
☆ incorrect quotes
☆ playlist / mood posts
ships i write for: ♠ nirashiya (niragi x chishiya) - obviously lmao this is the main event ♠ nirisu (niragi x arisu) if you're nasty ♠ chirisu (chishiya x arisu) ♠ general alice in borderland cast x reader ♠ niragi x reader / chishiya x reader
i'll also write for side characters (aguni, kuina, usagi, arisu, ann, last boss, tatta, etc.) just ask!!
what i WILL write: angst, fluff, smut, yandere, dark content, hurt/comfort, enemies to lovers pipeline, that weird tension where niragi points a rifle at someone and chishiya just stands there smirking, unhealthy codependency dressed up as romance, you know the vibe
NSFW is absolutely fine~ just specify top/bottom preferences if you care and i'll deliver
what i WON'T write: boring stuff. jk there's not really anything off limits just come talk to me i'm feral about the sniper with a tongue piercing and the 5'6 cat in a white hoodie and i want to enable all of you
manga & live action both welcome - i reference both canons!!
ok that's it reblog this if you want to help me not scream into the void 🖤
✦ masterlist (AO3 works) ✦
AO3: gardenofnirashiya
☆ controlled variables (series, ongoing)
t4t nirashiya. chishiya is clinical about everything including being trans. niragi is not. they find each other anyway.
☆ cv_01.xlsx - chishiya's fic. 10.6k, rated T, gen. a fourteen-year longitudinal study of one man's transition, conducted by the patient himself, recorded in a spreadsheet he started at twelve and never closed.
☆ error_log.txt - niragi's fic. 22k, rated M, gen. the same story told by the wound instead of the scalpel. no spreadsheet, no safety net. a body reclaimed in foil satchets and keloid tissue, on a train platform at 4am, alone.
☆ tba - the support group fic. tuesday, 7pm, beige walls. plastic chairs. two trans men who clock each other in under three seconds and immediately have opinions about it.
HI ITS ME AGAIN!! :) you should totally draw Chishiya and Niragi in their emo phase, YOU CANT TELL ME THAT NEITHER OF THE, HAD AN EMO PHASE!!!! Hope ur having a great day/night 🥹✌🏻
unfortunately im a grunge chishiya truther through and through, but emo niragi is absolutely 100% canon to me
Do guys think niragi saved up money to give to Chishiya for explicit videos or did chishiya just randomly send a video (explicit) but for Niragis bday and Niragi had a really happy bday
transmasc chishiya and niragi putting his head on chishiyas chest and saying hes using his big head to squish chishiyas boobs into disappearing . Yeah. I cant tell if im doing this right ok is this an ok hc I cant tell 😥😥😥
can you give us (me) niragi actually being nice to chishiya and like hugging him and whatever,,, in your little au(?) Where like chishiya is trans i really like it
Thank you Anon for the request! Here it is!
─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───
Show me that you love me
Summary: While Chishiya spends a night with drunken Niragi, the secrete of the truth comes out
(CW: Mentioned concerns of rape (there is no rape in the story), lemon (self thigh grinding, breast touching, and neck kisses), badly written drunk character)
Note: I do NOT count this as dubcon
Chishiya Shuntarou never was the type of person for physical affection. He had never been one who liked hug, handholding, or even just a hand on his shoulder.
Maybe it was the lack of touch from his childhood that led him into hating being touched, or maybe it’s because if he was felt close enough, people would find out that his chest wasn’t as flat as the rest of the men at the Beach, or that was just who he was in general. But whatever it was, it led Chishiya to not needing it or wanting it at all. Until he met Niragi, that is.
It was just a random night at the Beach’s pool. Niragi came over to Chishiya completely drunk. He slurred his words and had a hard time even standing on his own, which wasn’t abnormal for Niragi to get drunk after a big game. When he approached Chishiya, he put a hand on his shoulder, asking him to come back to his room with him. “Come on Shiyaaa. Let's just hang out for a bit.” He whined, dragging out the ‘A’ in the nickname he had given Chishiya.
Chishiya wasn’t dumb. He knew (or thought he knew) what Niragi was trying to imply by asking him to go back to his room together. He pulled his shoulder away from him. “No, Niragi. You’re drunk.” He says, taking a few steps back to put space between them so he wasn’t forced to smell the alcohol on the other man’s breath every time he opened his mouth to say something.
Niragi shook his head. “N-no, it’s not- it’s not like that. Not like that. Not this time.” He stuttered. The man was practically about to fall over.
Chishiya sighed. If Niragi was going to pass out, he should do it in his own room, and if need be, Chishiya could probably stop him if he tried to do something to him while helping him back to his room. It wasn't like Niragi was conscious enough to try to fight back anyways. “Okay, let’s go.” He said. Niragi smiled and held onto his hand tightly as Chishiya guided him, but he didn’t pull away this time.
When they both got into Niragi’s room, Niragi let go of his hand and collapsed onto the bed. Chishiya went to leave until Niragi spoke up. “Where you going? I thought ya were staying wit’ me.” He asks, sitting up.
Chishiya reluctantly went back over and sat next to him. ‘I just need to wait till he passes out and falls asleep. Then I can leave.’ He thinks to himself. Before he can say anything, he gets pulled into Niragi's lap. Chishiya stiffens as he feels Niragi's arms wrap around his waist. “Hey, what are you-” He cuts himself off when he feels Niragi press his face against his back, rubbing his face against Chishiya’s white hoodie like a cat. He was not expecting to be hugged from behind from someone like Niragi.
Niragi let his hands roam over Chishiya’s hips, just getting a feel of what it would be like to hold them. Chishiya felt his face heat up as the black-haired man slid his hands into the other man’s white pockets. There was no trying to take his hoodie off, no trying to move his hands down south, nothing. He just let his hands stay in his pockets, enjoying the feeling of hugging Chishiya as he rested his chin on his shoulder. “Have I ever told ya how pretty I think you are, Shiya?” He asks softly.
Chishiya didn’t answer. He knew it was wrong to want this, especially with someone like Niragi. For hating physical touch, he didn’t mind Niragi touching him like this. Usually when everyone else tried to do what Niragi had been doing, he would move away from them and glare at them. He didn’t accept touching from anyone, sometimes not even Kuina. So why was Niragi so special that he gets the privilege of touching him? That was something Chishiya couldn’t quite figure out. He hated how vulnerable he was being in front of Niragi and hated how he didn't understand why he was being this way. It pissed him off. “No, and you don’t need to.” He said quietly.
Niragi breathed in the smell of Chishiya's hair. It felt comforting to have him this close and holding him in his arms. “I think you are gorgeous, you are so pretty. Those beautiful eyes of yours? Pissin' me off how I can’t stop lookin’ at them.” He confesses.
Chishiya’s words were stuck in his throat and couldn’t get anything out except a small whimper that he tried to hold back. It was possible he had a thing for praise, or it was just unexpected for Niragi to be so unusually nice to him. But whichever it was made his mind go blank. “Whatever.” He muttered, trying to play it off as if that wasn’t exactly what Chishiya wanted, no, needed to hear. Not just right now, but in general.
Niragi buried his face into the crook of Chishiya neck, taking his hands out of Chishiya's pockets and hovering them over his thighs, as if asking for permission, which, again, was unusual for someone like him.
Chishiya thought about it for too long before putting his hands on top of Niragi’s and put them on his thighs. His face burned as Niragi rubbed his thighs gently, pressing kisses to his neck. He let out a whine that Niragi almost couldn’t hear. Niragi continued to kiss his neck and Chishiya continued to let out small whines and gasps.
Chishiya wanted to cry. Not because it didn’t feel good, it did. But because he knew how horrible this was and how horrible he was for wanting this. He shouldn’t be letting a drunken rapist show him what love feels like, that was a fucked-up thing to do. Maybe Niragi was pretending to be drunk so he could get this chance alone with him. Or maybe he did understand how touch starved Chishiya really was and was using that to his advantage. He felt a lot of emotions now that he didn’t usually feel, he didn’t like all these new feelings all hitting him at once. Although he hadn't seen or heard of Niragi trying to rape or harass anyone in a while, he was still that kind of person, and nothing would ever really change that.
Niragi sucked gently on the skin underneath his ear, making Chishiya moan, then quickly cover his mouth. Now he definitely wanted to cry. Niragi was going to use this against him, he knew he was. He shook slightly, breathing heavily. He didn’t want to get raped. He didn’t want to be violated when he worked so hard to make sure that it wasn’t going to happen. He waited for Niragi to tease him or abuse his sweet spot, but nothing happened.
In fact, Niragi pulled away from his neck and faced Chishiya. “Hey, it’s okay.” He said calmly, trying to help Chishiya stop shaking. He rubbed his thigh gently, in a way where it seemed more like he was trying to comfort him rather than turn him on. Chishiya ignored him, trying to block out what Niragi was saying. “Shiya, can you look at me?” He asks gently. Chishiya nervously looked at him, tears already forming in his eyes. “I’m not going to try to do anythin’. Like I said I would, ‘kay? You’re safe.” He whispers.
Chishiya’s tears rolled down his face without permission. He was crying for the first time in years. Niragi placed a kiss on his forehead. Chishiya blushed and wiped the tears off his face. “Okay.” He answered back.
“We can stop if you want.” Niragi offered. Chishiya didn’t want to. He loved how he made him feel, so shook his head. “Can I kiss you?” Niragi asked. Chishiya nodded vigorously.
Niragi kissed Chishiya, pressing his tongue piercing into his mouth. Chishiya kissed back, exploring his mouth with his tongue. The two pulled back, spit covering their lips and chin. Chishiya wasn’t one for a messy make out, but he needed Niragi’s taste in his mouth. Niragi pulled him back into the kiss, moving his tongue against his like he couldn’t get enough of Chishiya. Chishiya kissed him back, subconsciously grinding against his own thighs. “Fuck Suguru.” He moaned into the kiss.
Niragi pulled back, looking down at Chishiya’s attempt to get himself off during their kiss. Chishiya snapped back into reality and realized what he had been doing, then quickly moving away from Niragi as he cursed at himself in his head. “Oh, Shiya...” Niragi said softly.
Chishiya glared at him. “Don’t talk to me like that. Like you pity me.” He snapped.
Niragi sighed. “I wasn’t, Shiya.” He paused. “Is your body feeling okay?” He asks, holding his hand out slightly in case Chishiya wanted to hold it.
Chishiya looked away, pulling his knees up to his chest. “I’m fine.” He muttered, ignoring his hand. “It was just a mistake, ignore it.” He said.
Niragi placed a hand on Chishiya’s shoulder, making him flinch. “I can help you, if you want.” He offers, rubbing his shoulder with his thumb. Chishiya shook his head. “What can I do for you then?”
Chishiya shrugged. “Just hold me.” He whispered.
“Like what I was doing before?” Niragi asked, verifying that he was correct. Chishiya nodded. Niragi placed Chishiya back in his lap, Chishiya's back against his chest. He wrapped his arms around Chishiya’s waist. Chishiya leaned his head back on Niragi’s shoulder, closing his eyes as he relaxed. “Do you want me to kiss your neck too?” He asked.
Chishiya tilts his head slightly to give Niragi access to his neck and nods. “Just not under my ear, please.” He says quietly. Niragi nods and kisses his neck gently. The empty room only being filled with the sound of kisses on skin. Chishiya let out a soft gasp as Niragi moved his hands under his shirt and up to his chest. “W-wait, Niragi.” He stutters, but Niragi has already found the binder covering his chest.
Niragi pauses kissing for a moment, trying his best to actually think in his still drunken state. “What’s covering your chest?” He asks softly, moving his hands down to his waist.
Chishiya looks away. “A binder.” He answered, mumbling.
Niragi looked at him confused. “What is that?” He asks.
Chishiya shrugs. “Just something to make your chest flatter.” He explains.
“So, you’re transgender then?” Niragi asks, tracing small circles on his hips. Chishiya nods. It made more sense now as to why he was grinding his thighs together instead of using his hand, it would be too obvious. “Do you want me to touch your chest?” He asks, kissing the back of his head. Chishiya shrugs. “How about we try and if you don’t like it then we can stop.” He says.
Chishiya nods. Niragi moves his hand back up to his chest, rubbing his fingers over the binder. “You can put your hand on my breast if you want, I can’t really feel it on my binder.” Chishiya said.
Niragi smiles and cups one of his breasts with his hand under his binder. Chishiya takes a breath, but it comes out shaky. “You ‘kay?” He asks. Chishiya nods again. He lets his hand rest there, not really squeezing, or rubbing his finger over him to stimulate the nipple. He just kept it there, which felt nicer to him than trying to do anything to it. “You are beautiful, Shiya. Most beautiful boy I’ve ever met.” He praises. Chishiya closes his eyes tight, squirming slightly from his words.
The room’s sound of kisses was replaced with sound of movement against the sheet, whispers of praise, and heavy breathing until it started to slow. Chishiya looked at Niragi, who was slowly falling asleep. “Tired?” He teases, Niragi shrugs but his movement were getting lazy. Chishiya gently pulled Niragi’s hand out from under his clothing and kissing the top of it gently. “You should try to sleep. It’s not like your hang over will be any better if you don’t go to sleep.” He smirks.
Niragi nods and lays down on his bed. Chishiya stands up and starts to leave, until he’s stopped by Niragi. Again. “Can you sleep with me, please?” He asks, hold onto Chishiya’s hand. Chishiya sighs quietly and lays next to him. Niragi rolls over and spoons the blond-haired man, wrapping his limbs around him. Both fell asleep in a matter of minutes.
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The next day, when Niragi woke up, Chishiya was already gone. He laid back as all the memories from last night flooded back. About the noises Chishiya made, how he reacted to his praise, about his binder. His binder. Does Chishiya remember anything from last night? He hoped not. He didn’t want him to remember how needy he was for him. He got up, showered, and went down to find Chishiya who was standing by the pool.
Chishiya looked over at him, smirking. “Hey, sleep well?” He asked teasingly.
Niragi rolled his eyes and grabbed Chishiya’s wrist, pulling him away from the other people at the pool. “Did you have fun last night?” He asked nervously.
Chishiya chuckled. “Well, you being drunk is always a better experience than when you’re sobe-” He starts but gets cut off by Niragi interrupting him.
“I’m being serious, Chishiya.” Niragi says firmly, holding on tighter to his wrist. “Please.” He begs.
Chishiya blinked a few times then nodded. “Yeah, it was.” He mutters.
Niragi nods. “Look, I don’t care that you’re trans. You’re still a guy to me.” He adds quickly, looking away slightly, to try to hide his care about Chishiya. Chishiya pulled Niragi in by the collar and kisses him. “Pretty boy.” He smirks.
Chishiya rolls his eyes but smiles regardless. “Shut up and kiss me, idiot.” Niragi kisses him back.
Maybe this would be better for both of them, having someone who cares about them. Maybe that's what they both needed all along.
I kinda want to make a fic but my oc eith nirashiya yes? Like niragi making chishiya jealous my seeming super close to my oc (Himari aka niragis bff<3) and like all that ok
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