Sublimation via LaDs

this is a little comfort blog UwU

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He finds himself woken up in the middle of most nights. It's more often when he's alone, but even when he's not, it occurs.

Zayne has grown accustomed to his nightmares by now, really. All he needs is a couple of minutes to take a few deep breaths. To relax his muscles, to let his fists unclench.

What he is not accustomed to is the sudden care and the quiet, yet reassuring presence by his side. His stubborn, stoic side is somewhat reluctant to accept it, to let himself be seen even in such a state. He must be strong, calm and collected. Like he always is.

But not so deep inside, he's grateful. Deeply grateful.

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Something about the mighty Abysm Sovereign.. being scared to death of hurting you by his touch.

He is a beast. He is strong. He han protect, provide, he is a living killing machine. And this turns out to be his great weakness, because through all his years he hasn't known a gentle touch.

He doesn't know how to be gentle.

So even when he finally brings himself up for indulging in physical affection, he would do it with his fist clenched tightly, claws digging deep into the flesh of his own palms - if only not to hurt what he cares about the most without meaning to.

@yiwrites basically read my mind with this post here I can't help but kick my feet

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He is used to being alone

That is what he keeps telling himself at least. But the truth is - he has to get used to it again every time he has to wake up to a cold, empty bed. And it becomes more and more difficult every time now, that he knows how it feels when he's not alone. When there's someone to talk to, care for, to trust a secret with. When there's someone to hold when he wakes up from another nightmare.

And he doesn't want to get used to the absence of all of that once again.

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No because he really is a yearner and a loverboy beneath a grumpy facade, the persona that grew like armor on him through years and years of constant rejection and fighting for his right to live. He really is capable of wanting to give love and care despite all the hatered that this world has been throwing at him since his birth and for his whole life.

No because this makes him a miracle

Abysm Sovereign is my roman empire I just can't

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I randomly stumbled upon this shirt on a marketplace and instantly, no, instantly thought of him.

My fingers were quicker than my thoughts it's very sketchy

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What I wanted.. wasn't it obvious enough??

Surfing gone wrong (nobody cares)

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Enjoying being a bad influence for Zayne. Omg he's perfect.. I'M GONNA MAKE HIM NOT.

I'm not a reader, I'm a grinder. But sometimes actually reading the dialogue in Kahli adventure is endearing..

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A snoozing dragon

That's it. That's the post.

Also smooches to him

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I am so much of a modes, even shy Zayne enthusiast. Hear me out, through his whole life he is used to maintain his composure and control. It led him to be not very socially invested (until it is some sort of social events we are talking about), socially awkward even. Here you add all the trouble he's had with socialization and making friends when growing up due to skipping grades and his parents moving around the world constantly and so on and so forth. This ultimately leads to Zayne having a bit of a trouble with dealing and experiencing emotion, which is obvious in his earlier cards

So just try to imagine how desperately this man tries to hold himself together when he's involved with intimacy for the first time, what a blushing and nearly non-talkative mess he'd be in his desperate attempts to maintain control and failing miserably in doing so because he is so not used to what is happening!! Not only he'd be struggling to believe this is actually happening to him, he'd feel so out of place there, but he'll try too hide it (unsuccessfully). He'd use his actual words to the minimum, try his hardest to be quiet and control his breathing, his hands would be trembling and ofc he'd be self-conscious, especially about those scars of his he used to always hide.

This man would never ask for it, but he'd need a ton of praise, reassurance and guidance. To feel safe. To feel loved.

Warning! Heavily suggestive content under the cut!

I do not advise you to press that button if you're in public

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No thoughts in this head, just the want to pet, hug and kiss kitty Zayne on his forehead and tummy, look at him!

bby

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Do you find yourself thinking about dragon Sylus? I do. He's my roman empire.

It's canon in my head that his draconic features are very, very, very sensitive. All of them. To the point where he always squirms when they're touched. And the most sensitive part of his body is literally the underside of his tail.

Do whatever you wish with this information.

Suggestive content under the cut btw beware

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Just based on all the fanart I've seen, yes, I do think and agree that Zayne is the most susceptible to being drawn into the fog of Silent Hill. Out of every single L/I, the most guilt-ridden person is him, with the layers of grief he carries with him. A close call could be made with Caleb, but no. The perfect visitor for Silent Hill is Zayne.

When thinking about the individualistic effect of luring someone in (based on everything that transpired in SH2 specifically), Zayne is a figure who takes on one too many roles that leave him prone to shouldering so much burden. Where he swears the Hippocratic Oath and becomes a well-praised doctor, everything that is the shadow of Dawnbreaker is what leads him to his own undoing. The events of Death and Rebirth completely pull back the curtain that contained everything Zayne once was. A reliable, near-perfect surgeon who seemed unscathed. But it was only a matter of time until his repressed guilt would come up and swallow him whole.

Everything he repressed was given enough time to fester and derail him, already slowly creeping up on him through his nightmares.

And similar to how Mary is James' catalyst for being at Silent Hill in the first place, MC is Zayne's catalyst. What happened on Mt. Eternal. What happened when he harmed MC when they were children. His constant, inner turmoil over losing control over his power and harming MC again. The looming shadow of Dawnbreaker's role as an executioner, the darkest extreme of Zayne's subconscious and then the guilt of faith tied to Astra's religion (Foreseer, Master of Fate).

He would be forced to confront the most horrific amalgamations of things he hasn't allowed himself to confront. Thinking about Zayne's story in Silent Hill - he would have to confront Dawnbreaker, human-Wanderer fusions of patients he's carried guilt over and most importantly, his colleagues he lost at Mt. Eternal.

(If we're pushing it, you could interpret what Dawnbreaker is to Zayne as what Pyramid Head is to James. Do they represent vastly different things as to what the darker impulses are within? Yes. But the parallels are there. Both are sub-labeled as Executioners.)

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ALRIGHT FIRST OF ALL YES but I wanna add smth

As far as I see it Silent Hill draws in people who are on the run from their emotions and preliminary from their guilt. Zayne is not, Zayne embraces his guilt and drowns in it, Zayne seems like the person to willingly let himself be tortured by the products of his trauma because he really genuinely thinks he deserves it. Considering all the times all the times this man decided to neglect and sacrifice himself because of something canonically (remember the bad ending to his catch 22 yeah?) it's kinda worrysome.

This is why I am both curious to see Zayne in a Silent Hill setting, bc it suits him so well and is gold in exploring that complicated tangle of trauma and guilt he carries, and don't. Because I genuinely think that Silent Hill would ruin him, not because Zayne is weak, he's not, but because Zayne would let it and think it's better this way.

Because Zayne faces his guilt, but cannot forgive himself

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It's wonderful that you're by my side

Yes, right in front of Astra's salad!!

This is lowkey a slight spoiler to Zayne's Iceborn Warmth if you squint

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Nobody:

Sylus randomly once in a while:

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Finally read those Zayne main plot chapters and decided my man needs lots of hugs

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Will you take my hand and stay by my side?

Sylus in his new chapters deserves some smooches, he did well (the only man telling us some lore willingly so far, bless him)

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He's muttering something under his breath, whispering soft apologies in the crook of her neck, but he can't stop. Not until he has his fill

Something about the idea that Dragon Sylus would have periods of rut when he would practically need to mate has been on my mind for quite some time now thanks to @himbodruid and @xxsyluslittlecrowxx (you know which posts I am talking about okay thank you for them)

And also the thought that his tail actually behaves like a cat tail and lives on its own (and he gets mad at it for that) seems very appealing