Don’t let me end up like this.
Hermione Granger x Gn reader
Word Count: 1.9k
Angst, Happy Ending
Summary:
Oneshot:
It has been weeks since you last saw Hermione. Ron and Harry are also gone.
(Parenthesized are from a song that’s not english, but I liked the meaning of the song behind the lyrics so i translated it.)
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(The days are still passing by)
You kept wondering why Hermione left without saying anything to you. You're her lover. The last time you talked to her was after Yule ball. In a great mood and had a sweet talk at the astronomy tower.
Wondering what life you will have once you get married.
“The moon is beautiful isn’t it (y/n)?”
“Yeah, not as beautiful as you though.”
She blushed and gave me a smile. You don’t know if it was a happy one or a sad one.
Her eyebrows furrowed.
“I wonder one day when we get married, will you still be like this?”
“Of course, why not? You’re the most beautiful and the smartest girl in the world. No one could top you, not even me.”
“Oh come on (y/n)... well that is true though.” She laughs then rests her head on my shoulder.
(Inside of my heart is spinning too)
We had a great night, You were too dense to know something was up.
You woke up and prepared to meet Hermione. You went to the great hall to have some breakfast. You didn’t touch it since you were waiting for Hermione to come so we could eat together.
But she never came. You thought she was sick so i went to the Gryffindor’s common room.
As you were walking trough the dorms You found ginny. She might know something about this.
“Hey, have you seen Mione?”
Ginny seemed depressed as her eyes looked puffy. Did she cry?
“Are you okay?”
She just walked right past me. You guess she isn’t well. But, you need to find Mione.
You knocked at her dorm only to be met with silence.
You used a spell to open the door, to your surprise the room is totally clean. No one was there at all.
You now knew something was up. There’s no way Hermione would just leave you without saying goodbye like that right? Hermione wouldn’t do that.... unless...
You ran trough the halls trying to find Ginny. You know that she knows something about this.
After running and running, you saw Ginny at the garden. You walked there to, calm myself down.
“Ginny? You know something about Hermione, Harry and Ron missing right?”
You sat down next to her at a bench.
“(Y/n), did Hermione really not tell you anything?”
“About what?” You gave her a smile trying to not let her see my nervous expression.
“They needed to prepare for Voldermort’s next appearance, It looks like he’s getting strong. They needed to leave. For Hogwarts to be safe. For us to be safe.” She then muffles out crying.
Why didn’t Hermione tell me? That’s the first thought you had.
Ginny left me to be alone.
You already felt my eyes getting watery. Oh Hermione, you promised to not make me cry.
You then recalled that time when I first met Hermione.
You was in my 4th year. You had never communicated with anyone at all. Except when people did talk to me because they needed something. No one noticed me, That’s why you felt lonely most of the time.
But that was until that brown frizzed hair girl with freckles lend me a hand.
(You changed the darkness in my heart)
It was like she saved me from the darkness I was holding onto.
At first, we were only friends. She introduced you to Harry and Ron then.
You started to hang out more and more throughout the years. Until you realized your feelings for her weren’t just a simple friendship. You loved her more than you ever could love anyone else.
It was 7th year when you decided to keep this feeling aside, with a fear that you might lose her.
But then, Hermione sends me mixed signals.
Whether it’s holding your hand when it is winter, Wiping my mouth if you somehow eat messily… and overreacting when you get a single paper cut from a book even though she has more paper cuts than you.
You somehow just confessed to her…
It was Friday night, Class just ended and you asked her to go with you to a balcony. You then showed her the beautiful stars.
And you took your shot.
“Mione, we’ve been friends for 3 years now. I know that this may sound stupid, but yeah I mean it's stupid. You wouldn’t actually like me the way I like you-“
Suddenly you felt a pair of lips, touching yours. It was a sweet and passionate kiss. You would never forget this moment, the way she’s holding your robe not wanting to let go. The way her bangs brushed against your forehead. It was wonderful, You also didn’t want to let her go.
The night felt so long. Having her in your presence all night long, not until we both went back to our dorms still holding hands. As she pecked your lips goodbye after you led her to her dorm.
That was the most wonderful night you’ve ever had.
(But the story of the two of us,
Must go through over both bad and good things,)
You remembered your first fight, It was dumb.
Throughout the day, Hermione has been ignoring you.
You sat next to the golden trio beside Hermione.
“Good morning guys,” You say putting down your tray. Hermione didn’t look at you. Ron and Harry gave you a confused look. A look that was telling you “Did you two fight?”
You shaked your head answering Harry’s question.
Ron and Harry were bickering the entire morning. Still, everytime you would try to talk to her she just joins the two’s conversation. Making you feel a bit weird.
Class now ended and, You couldn’t sit next to Mione since somebody already occupied the seat next to her. You could only sit behind her back. You watched her actions, the way she spins her pen. The way she traces the words on the book that she’s reading.
But something was off, When you arrived she never looked at you. Being Hermione, she would always have this bright smile when you enter the room. She would at least say hello. But this time she didn’t.
This got you thinking,
“Did i do something wrong?”
After class, you already saw Hermione leaving the room, You hurried and ran towards her. Running towards her, you grasped her hand and lead her to a private place.
After dragging her here, you looked at her. Only to see Hermione looking down. Her curly hair covering her eyes. You brushed a strand of hair and tucked it behind her ear.
You sat at a couch then tapped beside you signalling Hermione to sit. She gladly took a seat still avoiding your gaze.
You then held her hand. As you kissed her knuckles, you breathed out.
“Mione, did i do something wrong? If i did, i hope you would forgive me.” You say still looking at her, her eyes now meeting yours.
“You-you didn’t do anything wrong...” Her breath hitched making your heart break into pieces. It was your first time seeing Hermione looking like this... and you didn’t want her to be like this. You for sure did something wrong and your blaming yourself for it.
“Then what is it Hermione?” You say softly.
“It’s just that, i have been seeing you with Harry more often. And it made me feel jealous...”
I cupped her cheeks and rubbed it with my thumb gently.
“Mione, Im sorry i made you feel that way, No one can compare to you. You’re the only one i love.” I say as i placed a soft kiss on her lips. She hugged me so tight, I wished we could stay like this forever.
(But in this minute,
Stay by my side on and on)
Now you’re in your dorm, Sitting while hugging my knees looking at the moon. You felt weak, it was shivering. But you couldn’t mind less.
You feel lonely. Hermione was always the one who would make my day bright and happy. And now that she’s gone, you felt like there was no day to your life anymore.
She meant everything to you. The world and my star. You can look at it from afar as it shines within the sky. But you can never reach it nor feel it.
Nothing can describe your pain. Cause the only thing causing you pain was her.
And you didn’t want her to be the cause of your sorrow. As long as she would come back for you you’re willing to do anything and everything.
“I would never leave you y/n,” You heard Hermione’s voice. It was very vivid and seemed real. You remembered Hermione saying that particular sentence. She was smiling, her frizzy hair still looking the same. She was holding both of your hands.
(Please hold my hand,
Longer and longer than this)
Hermione would never leave you, She would come back.
Right?...
The only thing being heard in the room that night was muffled sobs.
Days turned to weeks into months. She neither sent a signal nor an owl to remind you that she’s still there, alive.
You still weren’t over her. You look through the class hoping to find that brown bushy haired girl. But you could never find her. You waited for her at breakfast every single day. You never touched your food.
Ginny was getting worried by your actions. You never looked so depressed. She noticed that you haven’t been eating nor sleeping as your eyes had big eye bags on them. Your voice was hoarse, maybe from crying. She thought. You also looked pale. She knew that she needed to take care of you.
Every now so and then she forces you to at least take a bite of your food but it wasn’t successful.
You’re failing your classes, but you never cared about them anyway. You only did it because you knew hermione would be happy, and also nagging if you didn’t.
(With all my heart that i have,
There is only you, you know?)
It was true. Only Hermione can take the space in your heart. She’s the only one you loved. And you wouldn’t want anybody else. You wanted to be with her. But you can’t, She’s not here. And that makes your heart ache more than you could ever know.
(My life right now,
There is only you with all my heart,)
You would keep waiting for her. Even if it would take years. You still believed that she would come back. For you.
Ginny seemed to have moved on. She was now her usual fun side. It was as if The three never went missing. But you knew deep down inside her, she still feels sad.
You are now for the last time waiting.
You’re sitting, resting my head on my bed.
You knew deep down inside me that you will always be waiting. Just for her to come back.
All of this made you want to die. It was as if you wanted to rip your heart out off your chest.
Missing her, felt like stabbing a hundred knives straight to your heart. But you know that if she sees you like this, she wouldn’t like it.
A few days after she left, you felt like she let you go and you didn’t want that. You don’t want her to let go but she already did. There’s nothing else you can do.
Don’t let go of my hand,
Please don’t Mione,
Don’t let me end up like this.
“I will not let you end up like that.” a familiar voice sent shivers to your spine. You hadn’t heard her voice for so long.
You knew she wouldn’t leave you.
A big smile then crept up on your face.
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(The song is from thailand, GAP the series, by Nam Orntara- Don’t let me end up like this.)