Unbeknownst to me, I Literally spent every second of every day trying to prove to others that i am worthy. It comes from a lot of things. I would say mainly not reading the Bible. Which atm i view as a book on how TO BE in relation to others around you on earth. It might have this religious context and backbone to keep it in the hearts of those for centuries, which it succeeded in, but it is about relationships. It tells you directly, through story telling, and metaphorically, how to be. That knowledge would have helped me understand more the nature of humans here, and how the greats deal with that relationship dynamic. Its all still very new to me, and Im not perfect. I still constantly try to please, and inversely get ticked when others don’t reciprocate that. I’m breaking out of that cycle i was handed, and I pray i can overcome so i can share these lessons with others.
