Such a Southern Belle

And even if you called 5 years later at 3:00 am I’d still answer. If you called 10 years later at 4:00 am I’d still answer. The door is never locked, it’s always open and you hold the key. I guess you could say I fell in love too fast, and at the wrong time, but I can't help it. It's always been in my nature to throw myself all in, to lose myself in whatever I do. And God, did I lose myself loving you. It wasn't that I forgot who I was, but that I fell so deep that I didn't care about anything other than making you happy. I now understand why hurricanes and storms are named after people. Although we haven’t spoken in well over three months, I’m still not the same girl I was before you came into my life and destroyed me like a hurricane destroys everything in its path, and I don’t think I ever will be that girl again.

[gdiholly-blog1]

lucas-avery:

“Sounds perfect to me sweetness.” He grinned turning his attention to Rosie. “You were asking for me? That’s so sweet. I missed you. What do you want to do while your mom is finishing her shoot?”

Holly grinned at him before going back in front of the camera, watching her daughter excitedly showing the man her coloring books before shoving two little handfuls of crayons into his hands and telling him he got to color in the sky around her castle, because she found coloring large expansive spaces boring.

[gdiholly-blog1]

lucas-avery:

Lucas had been thrilled to get a call from Holly asking him to come hang out at her photoshoot. She looked fantastic of course but she always did. He grinned when he walked in and saw Rosie waving at the cute little girl before turning his attention to Holly. “You look stunning as always Holly. I was happy that you asked me to come. It’s always fun to see you and Rosie.”

The small blonde grinned brightly, hugging the man before stepping back. “Well, today it is my job’ta look good, ya know,” she teased lightly. “But she’s already taken her photos with me, and she was askin’ for you, so I was more than happy’ta call. And glad you came. I’ve only got a few thin’s’ta finish up ‘round here, an’ then I thought we could go grab somethin’ta eat or somethin’?”

[gdiholly-blog1]

“Oh my god- thank ya for comin’ sugar!” Holly gushed as soon as she saw the other person arriving, asking the photographer for a break before she walked over to them. “This photoshoot- ugh, I hate it. I already know they’ll be Photoshoppin’ out my baby bump, but I guess that’s what happens when you’re not ready’ta tell the public you’re pregnant, right? But it’s been so lonely- an’ Rosie wanted the company, so I thought I’d call ya,” she finished, nodding towards where her two year old was playing with some toys by the snack table.

[gdiholly-blog1]

lucas-avery:

“Are you sure? I’m pretty sure we could find someone to agree with me about it being cheating.”

“I’m completely sure! There ain’t no way that this is possibly cheatin’!”

[gdiholly-blog1]

lucas-avery:

“I feel like that should be considered cheating.”

“There ain’t no such thin’ as somethin’ like that bein’ considered cheatin’, sugar.”

[gdiholly-blog1]

phoebesays:

“Me every other day. Fill myself up, make myself hate food and avoid it for another day, only for that process to start all over again.” Phoebe chuckled softly, “I’m Phoebe. Hi.”

“I really ain’t used’ta the weird eatin’ schedule. I keep myself pretty square on three meals a day, with snacks in between, because it’s easy’ta do when you’re like me, makin’ sure my daughter eats well,” the singer explained. “But this new baby, well, this one don’t like stickin’ta a schedule. I’m Holly, though. Holly Kennington.”

[hollywoodrpgg-deactivated201708]

I’d like to fall in love with gingerbread cookies and milk right about now. Or maybe a cheeseburger and fries. Maybe one first, followed by the other… I’m just a hungry, hungry girl.

[gdiholly-blog1]

“Don’t mention food,” Holly groaned, placing a hand on her stomach. “Last week, jelly bean don’t wanna do nothin’ but eat, but this week? Nuh uh- this little one wants nothin’ta do with food.”

[gdiholly-blog1]

lucas-avery:

“Really? Do you promise you’re not just trying to get out of playing on the jungle gym? How do you reach things in your house if you won’t stand on a stool?”

“I promise,” Holly giggled, shaking her head slightly. “I only use the bottom two shelves of my kitchen. And if I absolutely have’ta put things higher, I just put things up that I don’t use much, an’ then I’ve got two fairly tall friends who agree’ta come over an’ help me if I need it.”

[gdiholly-blog1]

lucas-avery:

“Yeah you are pretty short. I will bring a step stool for you to stand on. That will help you be tall enough. I have faith in your abilities to master the jungle gym.”

“Nope, nuh uh- I’m terrified’a stools. I take one step an’ I get terrified I’m gonna fall,” Holly laughed, shaking her head playfully. “My cousin is the same way, actually.”

[gdiholly-blog1]

lucas-avery:

“I will help you make the time because playing on the jungle gym is very important. It is a way to show your true child spirit. Plus I really just think it would be funny to watch you swinging from a jungle gym.”

Holly laughed at his words, shaking her head a little as she bit her lower lip. It was an odd idea, all of that- but she didn’t mind it. “If I could even reach it! I’m only five feet tall, sugar. It’s a struggle’ta reach most things like that.”

[wnq-writers]

Oh but you see, I knew he didn’t love me. Unfortunately, that wasn’t enough to change how I feel.

rabischka (via musingisms)

[gdiholly-blog1]

cecilvandekamp:

“What a sweet babe…” He murmured, glancing over at the little girl currently happily preoccupied with her coloring book, “I don’t think someone should just get up and leave because they’re not ready, yet they were ready enough to bang someone without a condom and get them pregnant. Now you’re under so much pressure and he’s under none. Do you still talk to him?”

“Yeah, I know,” Holly sighed, looking down at her daughter affectionately as her fingers ran through the little girl’s blonde hair. “No, I don’t talk’ta him. I haven’t heard from him since the day he left’ta go to a boxing match. I didn’t even officially know he was leavin’ in the beginning. He just... Never came back. And I assumed, ya know?”

[paperdollhearts]

[musinghq]

faebee:

i’m a spoonful of honey waiting to be kissed

[gdiholly-blog1]

cecilvandekamp:

“Well it’s not just your fault that you’re pregnant by yourself; it’s not like you can knock yourself up,” Cecil scoffed, frowning at the thought again before he scooted closer to Rosie, “Does she miss him?”

“I know. But he wasn’t ready. Not that I was ready- but at the very least, I knew how to handle a baby. And he didn’t,” Holly said slowly, a small frown spreading over her lips. “Yeah. She misses him a lot. We bumped in’ta a guy that looked like him on the island- she ran up’ta him, callin’ him daddy and wouldn’t listen when I tried’ta pull her away.”

[gdiholly-blog1]

cecilvandekamp:

“I mean…do you bring Rosie or Rome with you? I’m sure he won’t mind. Honestly, if your fuck-of-a baby daddy ever comes back, I’m gonna push him into the fuckin’ ocean.”

“Rosie gets impatient with the waitin’ an’ stuff, and Rome doesn’t like hospitals... obviously, given his history with them. So he watches her while I go,” Holly sighed, shrugging her shoulders briefly. “I don’t think it’s his fault he got scared, though.”

[gdiholly-blog1]

cecilvandekamp:

“Oh wow! Okay, have you been to the doctors here at least? Making sure the little babe is doing okay?”

“Yes, I’ve been’ta the doctors, goin’ every few weeks just like I did with Rosie. It’s lonely, goin’ by myself this time around, but I’m doin’ it.”