gendawhored

identity blog

[gendawhored]

Welcome to my genderhoard/flag hoard/therian/kin/plural posting blog

Bodily Adult

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Tag meanings

#ask - answering an ask

#rb - reblog

#flag - all flags

#my art - art by me

#s/o - related to my irl partner <3

#f/o - related to fictional significant others

#xenogender - genders

#attraction - platonic, romantic, sexual, sensual, aesthetic, objectum, or conceptum related

#presentation - social or physical presentation

#brain - mental health/disability related

#species - therian, otherkin, alterhuman, or nonhuman related

#agere - age regression related

#reclaim - anything using a slur (typically f, d, or t slur, while I could reclaim the r slur we are not a fan)

#graphic - all graphics such as blinkies, useboxes, stamps

[etchif]

Bearded vultures will see an iron oxide rich mud puddle and go 'is anyone going to bathe in that' and not wait for an answer

[etchif]

Me when I see an iron oxide rich mud puddle

[libragender]

Nebularomantic Nebulasexual Flag

[Image ID: A seven horizontal striped flag. Stripe colors from top to bottom: dark periwinkle, periwinkle, light periwinkle, white, pink, muted purple, and muted mulberry. End ID.]

Colors picked from the Cat’s Eye Nebula.

Nebularomantic: Cannot distinguish romantic and platonic attraction due to neurodivergency.

Nebulasexual: Cannot distinguish sexual and platonic attraction due to neurodivegency; cannot distinguish sexual attraction and another attraction due to neurodivegency.

[no-fear-queers]

[gendawhored]

Fun fact different alters view the system differently for us

Jim (host) views everyone else as states of himself

Yuzu and Sylvia view themselves as separate people (probably because of source memories)

Amadeus and Vincent view themselves as coping mechanisms

The littles are versions of past selves

Fisher is a offshoot of Jim

Some are an identity, some are their role

[hazedxg0]

It really does say a lot about how romanticized and theatricized alters are online when people go into denial or feel isolated for displaying the most textbook DID/OSDD symptoms.

Not knowing who's fronting, not knowing how many alters you have, not knowing when you switch, not knowing alters' names or why they formed, alters not having names, having no internal world or a very vague one, having no internal communication, struggling with external communication, experiencing alters as different overlapping states of self instead of separate people, hell even just experiencing amnesia.

These are all extremely common symptoms of DID/OSDD, especially when you're untreated or early in treatment. And yet they're all common reasons for why people feel like they don't belong in this community, because the reality of this disorder somehow doesn't conform to the online expectation.

How bad is the state of CDD awareness, even among those who proclaim to have it, that the most common manifestations of DID/OSDD are so underdiscussed that the majority of people with these conditions cannot find understanding even in a community meant for their disorder? When anything that doesn't play into the "alters are separate people and friends in your head" narrative is ignored and erased?

[ofpainandsorrow]

Unless you’re the main crew, we don’t really know who’s there because we have a lot of people who show up for specific reasons, then leave/go dormant/fuse/morph into someone new. And it stresses us out because it feels like we’re lying or constantly changing. But that’s kind of normal? That’s the point. Our brain couldn’t give us someone normal, couldn’t form one person. So we formed. We exist because of external circumstances from our whole life. Why stress about something that’s there to help us survive?

Cassandra

[birdbutchcloaca]

you know the more i've interacted with therian online the less i actually care about. the actual label. draconic communities had it right its like. a fucking spectrum from guy who is very into their fursona to actively trying to find a way to species transition and i think making false walls between them reduces the richness of being speciesweird

[astrmastr]

open wide

[neo-pilled]

Common things in DID that no one likes to talk about

- switches that feel like you’re turning into someone else rather than them taking control (non-possessive switching)

- being unable to recognize amnesia until something requires you to remember something you forgot

- staying in the front for weeks at a time

- being unable to communicate with alters internally (this is so common why does everyone act like this is weird?)

- feeling like you don’t have any problems because you feel disconnected from them

- constant denial

- rapid identity, label, and appearance changes

- comorbidities, particularly personality disorders, anxiety disorders, and the schizophrenia spectrum

- autism (there is science pointing towards autistic people being more susceptible to trauma)

- disliking your system

- wanting final fusion

[bathhousekitty]

For the longest time, I truly believed I couldn’t have DID because I “didn’t have amnesia”.

Now, in my mind, amnesia meant everything sort of went black and you’d come to days later without a clue of what had happened or where you were. And while, that absolutely can be the case for some— it wasn’t for me.

Amnesia for me is much more complex. The gaps of memory I loose are patched together by the things that I do remember. My mind may omit half the day, but because I can remember the other half, it doesn’t feel as if I’ve lost any time truly. My mind worked overtime to hide how much time I was loosing, simply because if I knew, I don’t think the past version of myself would’ve handled it very well. </3

I suppose all this is to say that how amnesia presents itself is much more complex than most realize, especially when your brain is trying to protect you in its own weird way. It took me a long time to understand its true face… Q_Q

[gendawhored]

My girlfriend watching the Spamton mii we made fall in love with my mii was interesting

[shiyato-the-gaylord]

He doesn't want to plunge his hands in cool water anymore

[gendawhored]

Roleplayed an AU with someone and then drew the AU character i was playing and looking back on it...

Oh that guy is real, that truely is the humanized version of that guy

[mindnagerie]

A Drop in the Bucket.

[weaponthing]

CYBERWEAPONIC.

— a gender that feels like a digital or robotic weapon. this gender may also have ties to sentient AI used as a weapon, but not necessarily. there is no wrong way to identify with this gender, as the meaning is up to interpretation.

[id: a horizontally striped flag with dark desaturated purple at the top followed by a lighter desaturated purple, a gray-ish purple, red, gray-ish purple, light desaturated purple, and dark desaturated purple. end id.]

[koloocheh]

forget about touching grass, i need to touch THE SEA I NEED TO GO INTO THE WATER I NEED TO DIVE INTO THE SEA!!!!!!!!!!!!

[arianwen44]

Day Thirteen - Selkie - never mess with a leopard seal…