All In Good Fun

Traumagenic poly frag DID system, learning to deal with life the best way we can. Partner system: @rosaeargentum

[leathersys]

the benefits of they/them pronouns

[ssenograph]

How its going

[sysfreak-official]

"if youre anti endo you should read pluralpedia and educate yourself" pluralpedia has pages like "mcdonaldsgenic" and "sillyratsgenic" and you want me to view it as a credible scientific source? really?

[caspercryptid]

I would actually go as far as to say that MOST abuse is unintentional. I think most people will go through their lives without ever experiencing intentional abuse. People are abusive because they're selfish, because they're stressed, because they care more about what society thinks they should do than the impacts of their actions on their children and partners, because they think what they're doing is correct, because they've made it make sense in their own heads, because they think they can fix their victims, they think they can fix their relationships, they think they can stop you from leaving, they think they can make you a better partner to them, they think that means you need to do what they want. We've sort of constructed mental illness in a way that doing this shit to other people counts as a form of mental illness because it is anti social behavior in the literal sense— it is behavior that causes social harm.

I don't say any of this to excuse it. I think everyone needs to be more aware of this because if you think abuse has to be intentional you will never realize you are capable of abusive behavior. You will never realize you are being shitty to the people you love, because YOU know what you mean, YOU know you don't mean any harm. But you're doing harm. You need to pay attention to the impact you have on other people, and you need to do it all the time, Especially when you feel least capable of doing so. Sorry! You live in a society. Get your head out of your ass.

[salamispots]

you take form in the shape of absence

[verynervoussystem]

Waking up in the morning feels like this

[komaedespairs]

there is a mysterious person in my cofront . who are you youre intimidating

[ofpainandsorrow]

Literally us half the time since we cant tell

Thank fuck for our partner system who plays guess who with us cause were just sitting here like "who the fuck are you" and my brain is just like "eh you'll find out or you won't" -Alastair

[the-d0llh0us3-system]

What the hell💔

So we had the great displeasure of talking to a Willo "system" (we did not know they were Willogenic until recently.) And they confessed. By this point we had LEARNED they were willo, because the whole conversation came up when we called them out. Basically it was this:

"We found a post saying you're willogenic, you do know we're anti willo, right? We've said this before."

"Well yes, but we wanted to try to subtly prove we exist to you..."

"It's not going to work. Why put in so much effort for a useless cause?"

"Because we have a crush on you :("

"What."

And then they went on a tangent like "we can put ourselves in a risky situation to get repetitive trauma if it means you'll like us more" (they apparently believe that DID can form at ages 15-16 as well. I'm not convinced that is possible, but even if it was, wtf???)

Anyway we rejected them, they got mad and blocked us, and we later on found out through a mutual that they "willoed" every headmate they knew we had into their "system" as a "willo subsys" (???) And were now saying they were dating that "subsys" ?????

What the fuck

[ofpainandsorrow]

We're so sorry this happened to yall

That's genuinely so awful

Our deepest condolences

(also what the fuck about making y'all into their "subsystem"?!?!? LIKE WHAT EVEN willos confuse us every day)

[gothextramiles]

Playing a really fun (/s) game called WTF Is Going On In This System??? Where we all feel like shit but the reason why is a secret. So far the clues are panic attacks before bed, crying randomly, feeling anxious every time we try to do anything, blurry and/or rapid switching only, not allowed to read our own journal, nausea. Pretty sure whoever is the biggest baddest gatekeeper we have is having a meltdown. It's like we're playing hide and seek with our own thoughts.

🌄

[one-in-a-nestillion]

people always describe the system experience as either the host makes all the decisions with input from their headmates, or the headmates vote and come to a collective decision, but what i experience is more closer to a dictatorship where whoever’s fronting at the moment does whatever the fuck they want until they leave and then it repeats with the next fronter and the one after that too.

[ofpainandsorrow]

Yeah honestly...

[buddybuddysystem]

bunny and being known

[heartbloom-manor]

“DID needs childhood trauma to have formed”

Yes, but also

“What is traumatic to a child may not seem traumatic to an adult”

A kids brain has no logbook comparing their stress to someone else’s. All it knows is that it’s under severe stress.

[ofpainandsorrow]

Something to remind ourselves...

[hpdamechan]

i feel so disconnected from the world that i might vanish

[ofpainandsorrow]

I know it's stupid of me since I know I'm a system and I know I've been abused but it recently came to my attention that I've been physically hit my whole life

And I feel like I should have known that but I didn't

now I'm in my room, sitting here with the knowledge that I've been hit and it's making me both numb and panic

I'm such a mess

[274th]

every system has

the workaholic

the nervous little guy

the guy who's really good at posting

The Fighter

the sacrificial lamb

Bob from accounting

[ofpainandsorrow]

Workaholic: Bella when she isn’t horny, Moon

Nervous little guy: Moon, Nova, August

Guy who’s really good at posting: Moon

The fighter: Kiera, Leo

Sacrificial Lamb: Moon

Bob from accounting: Markus

@rosaeargentum yes?

[m1rror-of-twilight]

I am BEGGGIINNGGG you guys to be nice to your headmates. Even your "cringe ass" fictives. Even the parts of you that are just so emo and edgelord it hurts. Even the parts of you that dont like you. It is imperative to healing and working together that you are kind to each other.

No more of this "yeah idk what the fuck is up with this guy but we have him LMAO" no more "yeah i know i cant stand them either" no more "ignore that guy idk why hes here"

I stg the way you talk about each other DOES make an impact. Both to yall and to the people reading your post.

Ask me how i know. I was a huge ass to so much of my system for so long. A lot of it was to cope with the fear, but that doesnt excuse it or change the damage it caused. Love your headmates, even if you dont like them. Youre stuck together for a reason.

[ofpainandsorrow]

I wish all the mental illnesses didn’t all pile on top of each other

I’m so overwhelmed I’m so done

-moon