I'm going to be okay now.

[Homestuck AU Sakura Matou from Fate/Stay Night blog. A lot's happened, and she's hardly anything like the canon Sakura.] Your name is SAKURA MATOU M!A Status: [N/A] Other Status: [Alive and well?]

[gentlesupporter]

(Sleeping...)

[stringerbells-deactivated202105]

[christiantacos-deactivated20151]

Gumball just blew a dude in a bathroom

[teenagedream]

[ruinedchildhood]

[gentlesupporter]

PFfffff

[gentlesupporter]

jackofcancer started following you

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Oh

Hi there. Thanks for following back. It's appreciated.

How's shit going?

[smalldeviledegg]

[softwaring]

[gentlesupporter]

Wat da fuck eva

[azureattacker]

I went to a fight club the other night out of boredom. I was promptly kicked out for being too “professional”. In other words I beat up too many guys in a row.

[gentlesupporter]

That's badass.

[make-the-red-queen]

[gentlesupporter]

Well fuck it. Fuck all of it. Let's forget it. Move past move past move past

[caligoascendant]

Yyoooooooooooooooooooooooo

holy shit you exist once more 

[gentlesupporter]

  I um

You waited for me?

I thought…

I’m sorry Eridan. I didn’t know. I just

I figured I wasn’t really important enough for anyone to care if I was gone or not. I’d been so depressed and so distraught back then that I just felt it was best if I tried to stop existing, so I wouldn’t bring anyone else down.

But

You’d tried to wait for me? …You never even sent a message though.

[caligoascendant]

as i wwait for most a my friends wwhen they up an disappear wwith a fine lady scratch so teeny an tiny up an disappeared roughly three years ago in wwhich i wwaited twwo years wwithout answwer or reply left quite full a wwonderment an dismay wwhen she didnt come back

i unfollowwed her six months ago wwhen you showwed no signs as wwell an really the only person that i havvent unfollowwed hasnt been back on in roughly three months a time that  plays quite fickle wwith my mind 

an thats fine if you needed to go awway an feel better but a farewwell wwouldvve been fine absolutely so 

an a course i nevver sent a message wwhy wwould i wwhen youre doin your owwn things surely didnt wwant to barge into wwhat you wwere doin an dealin wwith its just not my place

the bonds a friendship my sometimes ring eternal but my owwn harshness has growwn as time has passed an ivve got no time to clutter up my past wwith old relationships that simply simmered an bubbled 

growwin distant is just howw things go 

[gentlesupporter]

I know.

How bitter it is, knowing someone had been waiting when I thought i'd had nothing at all here. I only came back now for the hell of it, wondering if anyone even remembered me.

Fan tas tic.

The only reason I didn't leave a farewell is because I had figured no one would of noticed. I'd made posts for awhile before I left that just ended up being met with vast silence that just seemed to say it didn't really matter either way if I was here or not.

And now I see that I was wrong. I just wish you'd of said something before that.

[gentlesupporter]

A bit confused and slightly frightened. I haven’t been online in… Six months.

And I haven’t SPOKEN TO ANYONE IN A YEAR.

Things are so different

So… unfamiliar.

[constellatia-blog]

Oh man, I know that feeling. It’s super startling to talk to people after so long. Lemme know if there’s anything I can do to help you out.

Are you handling it alright, though?

[gentlesupporter]

I can't say. Maybe. No, I guess i'm not. I don't even know why I came back. I guess it doesn't matter, i'm here though.

Thank you for your offer to help, but I can't really think of what you could do.

[caligoascendant]

Yyoooooooooooooooooooooooo

holy shit you exist once more 

[gentlesupporter]

  Woah there, shoot me in the face why don’tcha

Well if it helps any, I’m more than happy to not be a dumb and try and rekindle something that doesn’t exist any more, but i’d be also happy to try and make somethin new. You know what I mean?

It helps that I know you pretty well, though… Though not as much considering how much has obviously changed…

[caligoascendant]

id rather not shoot anyone in the face for most are really undeservvin from vviolence from me on my part

but after wwaitin for someone for a long enough wwhile only to just havve them nevver showw up wwell its only natural to call it quits an just pull out shop cause i realized that you didnt havve much a a reason to return in the first place so there i left 

im sure it does help an im not gonna deny you convversation or civvility but dont expect the same levvel a familiarity or concern that had once existed betwween us  

[gentlesupporter]

I um

You waited for me?

I thought...

I'm sorry Eridan. I didn't know. I just

I figured I wasn't really important enough for anyone to care if I was gone or not. I'd been so depressed and so distraught back then that I just felt it was best if I tried to stop existing, so I wouldn't bring anyone else down.

But

You'd tried to wait for me? ...You never even sent a message though.

[caligoascendant]

Yyoooooooooooooooooooooooo

holy shit you exist once more 

[gentlesupporter]

WEIRD HUH??? Wow tumblrs a lot different than I remember. I DON’T LIKE IT.

[caligoascendant]

its fine 

thats wwhat happens though wwhen you disappear for a long time

people end up just lettin you fade outta existence 

movvin on

barely holdin you in their thoughts

yup 

[gentlesupporter]

Woah there, shoot me in the face why don'tcha

Well if it helps any, I'm more than happy to not be a dumb and try and rekindle something that doesn't exist any more, but i'd be also happy to try and make somethin new. You know what I mean?

It helps that I know you pretty well, though... Though not as much considering how much has obviously changed...

[gentlesupporter]

constellatia started following you

Oh shoot a new follower how does this even happen

Ah

Hi

I’m Sakura. Nice to meet you.

[constellatia-blog]

Yo yooo. Lovely to meet you, Sakura! Name’s Chuffy. Decided to swoop down and give you a follow. How are you doing?

[gentlesupporter]

A bit confused and slightly frightened. I haven't been online in... Six months.

And I haven't SPOKEN TO ANYONE IN A YEAR.

Things are so different

So... unfamiliar.