PERMANENT HIATUS

Portia. Born and raised in the Capitol. Stylist for District Twelve and partner to Cinna. I track #getoffmysketchpad. Please tag me in starters and replies so it's easier to find them! :) I will RP with anyone, and OC's and AU's are accepted. Multi-Verse & Multi-Ship. FC: Christina Vidal. [Indie RP for Portia of THG].

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

Saying Goodbye to Portia.

I never thought I would be writing this, but I am. After playing Portia since October 2012, I’ve decided it’s time to call quits on her.

Why?

Things in real life are too much to handle right now. My anxiety is at an all time high and I’ve lost muse for her, I guess.

I have made some wonderful friends on here, one of whom I got to meet in real life more than once. We’re still good friends and I’m so grateful for her.

The last twelve months have been horrible. My cat went missing (which is what made me start to lose muse for this character in the first place), my father died, and I lost someone else who meant the world to me. 

Most of my time here has been fun and it’s a time I’ll look back on fondly, but I didn’t want anyone here to hope and hope and hope for a reply from me that was never going to come.

I love Portia but she’s been a stubborn lil bitch for a long time and won’t co operate with me. I won’t delete this blog for sentimental reasons, but if you do want to stay in touch, PM me and I’ll give you my skype.

I’m sorry, you guys. 

Portia Eskarne Amarall - 2012 - 2017. A true joy.

[haybitchabernathy]

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[haybitchabernathy]

Haymitch didn’t enjoy the attention the birthday was drawing, especially when women kept congratulating him on “his daughter’s” behalf. He kept muttering that Lex wasn’t his, but to no avail. People had seen him taking care of her for too long and many had forgotten - or never cared to learn - that he wasn’t her father. 

Still he saw the trace of sadness in Portia’s eyes and knew where it came from. “He’d want you to be happy and celebrate with her. He’s in your heart, so he’s here and part of her life. Don’t think otherwise,” he mumbled to Portia when they were having a quiet moment at the side of the studio, where they were working on propos.

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Portia, too, had been trying to correct people when people referred to Lex as Haymitch’s daughter, to no avail. She gave up in the end.

“I know, but it’s not the same, is it? It’s going to get harder from here on out. Soon she’s going to be a little person with a voice and a temper and opinions.”

[haybitchabernathy]

“Yeah I know… But you are strong and love her with all you got. You can tell her of him to remind her of he wad,” he mumbled, knowing it truely wasn’t easy for her.

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“Telling her and having him isn’t the same thing though, is it?” She wasn’t looking forward to the teenage years, when one day, during an argument, she would turn around and scream I want dad, not you.

[oopsiewoopsie123]

Sleep Starters

“How late were you up last night?”

“You’re not pulling another all-nighter, not if I can do anything about it.”

“Aren’t you cold? I can go get you some blankets!”

“Are you alright? I thought I heard you talking in your sleep.”

“Don’t worry, you’re alright. It was just another nightmare.”

“I don’t want to get up!”-“You can’t make me go to bed!”

“Can you turn your music down? Some of us are trying to sleep!”

“That looks highly uncomfortable. How do you even sleep like that?!”

“I didn’t mean to wake you up…”

“Don’t you think it’s getting awful late?”

“Sweet dreams!”

“I didn’t get a wink of sleep last night.”

“You said some interesting things in your sleep last night.”

“Did you have another bad dream?”

“Come on, let’s just go to sleep.”

“You look exhausted. Did you get any sleep last night?”

[haybitchabernathy]

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[haybitchabernathy]

Haymitch didn’t enjoy the attention the birthday was drawing, especially when women kept congratulating him on “his daughter’s” behalf. He kept muttering that Lex wasn’t his, but to no avail. People had seen him taking care of her for too long and many had forgotten - or never cared to learn - that he wasn’t her father. 

Still he saw the trace of sadness in Portia’s eyes and knew where it came from. “He’d want you to be happy and celebrate with her. He’s in your heart, so he’s here and part of her life. Don’t think otherwise,” he mumbled to Portia when they were having a quiet moment at the side of the studio, where they were working on propos.

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

Portia, too, had been trying to correct people when people referred to Lex as Haymitch’s daughter, to no avail. She gave up in the end.

“I know, but it’s not the same, is it? It’s going to get harder from here on out. Soon she’s going to be a little person with a voice and a temper and opinions.”

[haybitchabernathy]

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[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Well you better not be complaining.” She smirked. “You could have been landed with worse.”

[haybitchabernathy]

“Not much,” he smirked and gave her a teasing wink.

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Oh shut up, Abernathy.”

[haybitchabernathy]

He chuckled a little and then yawned. “Maybe I should try and get some hours sleep…”

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Probably a good idea. You’re not great to be around when you’re cranky. I’m going to stay up and draw for a while.”

[haybitchabernathy]

He rolled his eyes at her and patted her shoulder after he got up. “Have fun, sketchpad girl,” he meant and went to the bathroom to get ready for bed before lying down. 

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

A few days later, it was Lex’s first birthday. Of course, the girl had no idea it was her birthday so she was stunned at everyone fussing over her.

The day was bittersweet for Portia though. Cinna should have been here with them.

[haybitchabernathy]

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[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Well you better not be complaining.” She smirked. “You could have been landed with worse.”

[haybitchabernathy]

“Not much,” he smirked and gave her a teasing wink.

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Oh shut up, Abernathy.”

[haybitchabernathy]

He chuckled a little and then yawned. “Maybe I should try and get some hours sleep…”

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Probably a good idea. You’re not great to be around when you’re cranky. I’m going to stay up and draw for a while.”

[haybitchabernathy]

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[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Well you better not be complaining.” She smirked. “You could have been landed with worse.”

[haybitchabernathy]

“Not much,” he smirked and gave her a teasing wink.

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Oh shut up, Abernathy.”

[haybitchabernathy]

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[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Well you better not be complaining.” She smirked. “You could have been landed with worse.”

[haybitchabernathy]

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[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

Haymitch barely had been startled and if only because Portia had been scared. “Careful or your daughter’ll give you a heartattack.”

“She’ll give me a heart attack before she’s a teen at this rate.”

[haybitchabernathy]

“Poor girl better be careful. She don’t wanna grow up fulltime with me,” he mumbled and took a sip from the water bottle on the table.

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Well unfortunately you have no choice but to be in her life. You’re stuck with us now.”

[hydrophobiic-deactivated2020081]

getoffmyskxtchpad.

“Blue would look beautiful on you.” She reached into her bag and took out some blue fabrics. “Pick which shade you like best and then we’ll talk design.”

     “ Keep up the flattery. Really, please do. ”    Johanna shot Portia a grin before looking over at the fabrics. She was quiet for a moment, mulling it over, before she spoke up again, pointing to a light, sky blue fabric.    “ What do you think about that one-? ”

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“That looks good. I can work with that.” She smiled, “So what sort of style?”

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

I know I have replies to do.

They’re in my drafts.

I’ve just been preoccupied but I will do them after work today!

[haybitchabernathy]

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[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

Haymitch barely had been startled and if only because Portia had been scared. “Careful or your daughter’ll give you a heartattack.”

“She’ll give me a heart attack before she’s a teen at this rate.”

[haybitchabernathy]

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[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Too bad,” he snorted sarcastically, no intention to get bodily close to her at all.

“You couldn’t handle…” She motioned to her body. “This.”

[haybitchabernathy]

He laughed out. “Yeah don’t be so sure of yourself. You couldn’t handle me either.”

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“I handled Cinna just fine, I’m sure I’d handle you too.”

[haybitchabernathy]

“Whatever, sketchpad girl,” he chuckled.

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

She jumped out of her skin as Lex sneezed in her sleep. “Jesus.”

[haybitchabernathy]

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[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Too bad,” he snorted sarcastically, no intention to get bodily close to her at all.

“You couldn’t handle…” She motioned to her body. “This.”

[haybitchabernathy]

He laughed out. “Yeah don’t be so sure of yourself. You couldn’t handle me either.”

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“I handled Cinna just fine, I’m sure I’d handle you too.”

[haybitchabernathy]

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[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Too bad,” he snorted sarcastically, no intention to get bodily close to her at all.

“You couldn’t handle...” She motioned to her body. “This.”

[haybitchabernathy]

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[haybitchabernathy]

“She definitely got a strong will,” he said and looked over to the sleeping girl. “And it’s good she’s growing and learning.”

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Growing up too fast. Almost makes me want another one. Almost.”

[haybitchabernathy]

“I ain’t volunteering to help you with that almost,” he chuckled.

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“I’m going to have to bleach my brain to get that image out of my head. Thanks for that.”

[haybitchabernathy]

He full on laughed at this. “Yeah I can’t say I’m faring better. Probably the lack of sex and sobriety combined.”

[getoffmyskxtchpad-blog]

“Well hate to break it to you, but I’m not having sex with you.”

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