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The way he smiled when we bought gums from him gave me the sign that it’s really you, Tay.

We miss you so much 💗

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Taipei, Taiwan

Saw an old Grandfather selling chewing gums outside our hotel lobby. He seems like he suffered from stroke as he cannot move properly.

The last time I traveled, my grandfather passed away due to stroke days after we arrived home. This is the first time I traveled after that.

In some way, I knew it was you Tay.

I miss you.

Thank you Lord for everything. Still putting everything up to your name. Your will be done.

Salamat, Tay! Hanggang sa muli.

cry

pray

fight

literally living by these words right now

Putting everything up to you, Lord.

I know you’ll help us heal and guide us through.

Always.

Amen.

have to be up by 2am

it’s 8:50pm

and i’ve been on bed since 6:00pm

i just need to sleep

and get over my anxiety attack

and we’ll be alright

everything will be fine

i just need to sleep

for at least 4 hours

4 hours is just what i’m asking

summer friends

Now I'm the same way, overtime all the time, every night, hey Ready my blessin', now I'm ready how I wait Never let a friendship get in my way Never let a blog get in my way Make the whole song do whatever I say 79th, 79th, 79th, hey 79th, 79th, 79th, hey Some of my homegirls got lost in the paperwork They was good friends but I faked the flirt 'Cause if it ain't work, can't make it work It's been a minute since I called on a friend Fucked up and fucked all my friends 

coloring book completely ate my soul away. this album has been on loop in my spotify since august... wow

last night was just bad

how am i still alive

kadywicker

depression after years of having it isn’t even sadness it’s just being exhausted and being allowed one (1) emotion a week and sometimes your brain is like “die” and you’re like “shut up brad”

just saw that my last two entries were 10:41. creeped me out so bad. because that was definitely unintentional. realizations are damn amazing, it even arrives at the same damn time

the transition definitely made me more emotional than ever. maybe it came from all the suppressed stress, anger and frustrations i had before.

there’s so much influx of emotions today and it’s overwhelming. felt so numb the entire afternoon. sensation felt more intense when i read a stupid message. i guess i hate being reprimanded on what and how to feel. specially towards something not so “little” that people cant just nudge and move on right away.

i hate it when im mad. i cant do identities. i just get mad at every single person. the fuck is wrong with me

just hoping that the demon inside me calms the fuck down like let’s sleep aryt

twenty three

12am thoughts are scarier, i guess

let’s just call it a day

or a lifetime